by .winter » Mon Oct 19, 2015 4:33 pm
Autumn Hope || 17 || Feeling: Irritated
Immediately, this boy had caught my interest. Why? I didn't really know, but the way he was sitting and the way he had responded made me feel like we definitely had something in common, but no way would I actually make the effort into finding out what it actually had been. "Thanks." Was all my lips managed to say, barely shaping the word to get out of my mouth. The radio that was placed right next to me was shaky and scratchy, just audible for us to both hear, and of course, that same story was regurgitating out to me and this boy sitting across from me. "Virus spreading to America, CDC cannot seem to control it-" but I grasped the stupid radio and switched the button off with a little to much force, throwing it back as I slammed my body again the booth. "I swear to god if I hear that stupid story one more time on the radio I will personally disable every single one of them." I hissed, one of the waiters glaring at me for how I handled the radio. My star sent there's running up a wall, and a part of me was extremely happy they thought I was intimidating just for the sake of them not getting to stare at me anymore. My shaky hands took the menu where it laid, the laminated texture made me shiver for some reason. "Oh look. Pumpkin pancakes. Made with love." I had some digust to my voice, rolling my eyes and just randomly deciding on eggs and toast. Honestly I wasn't really that hungry, because of my nightmares constantly surfacing to my head, and the nightmares were so strong that it sort of took away my desire to eat. The boy in front of me was quiet, and he glared at me the same way I glared at him, but I don't think it was out of the reason we were irritating each other. I think that we were both glaring at each other just because we both hated the world at the moment, and we didn't really know how to express it. My light brown eyes scanned to the clock on the radio, indicating it was around 8:45, and my eyes grew a size. How did time go so fast? It had already been 45 minutes? But I silenced my thoughts before I could really get into it, knowing overthinking was one of my many flaws I was trying to break. Break all my flaws, so one day, I couldn't be human enough to make or break them. The waiter that came to our table snapped me out of my thoughts; and my reaction made even the waiter flinch. It was obvious he was new here, with size 10 glasses and a shaky palm as he took out the pad and asked us what we would like to eat. "W-what can I get for you two t-today?" The boy, who was apparently named Glenn, asked. Seriously though, I was never one for pity, but this boy caused whatever human emotion of pity rise in me again. "Easy there kid, don't want you to have a seizure." I claimed, looking up at him as he gulped and only shook harder. With a roll of my eyes, I handed him my menu and recited my easy meal. "I'll take my eggs scrambled with a side of toast. Could I get some water too? Thanks." My nonchalant tone was echoing through the room it was cold enough to even burn myself, but I considered myself to be an element of ice, and nothing would burn me if I didn't let it. When the boy sitting across from me finally ordered the Glenn practically ran away, I made eye contact with him. "So, what brings you to a crowded café filled with families that I can hear from over here? It couldn't possibly be the pumpkin pancakes." Somewhat, my statement made me laugh lightly. I was never one for small talk, and in fact, it made me want to puke sometimes. "Unless you're one for small talk. How are you? What's your name? Oh, I love this café, or is it called a diner? I really don't know." My tone rose to the point where it rose to what would be considered a happy go lucky average person, and rolled my eyes again at it. Than, there was a flurry of color from the window as the nasty cop zoomed away from this diner, apparently thinking he caught a car that looked like mine. Oh, he was in for a surprise when he notices it wasn't me. But than a memory zipped to my head from my nightmare, millions of cop cars, losing, falling. The screaming of people around the cop cars, and the supposed cops failed at their one true job, protecting people. Monsters, whatever they were, killing everything around them. The monster aimed at me, with eyes clouded as poison and a growl that was undeniable, running towards me. And that's the part when I usually woke up.
April Hope || 17 || Feeling: Comforted
The minute Elias entered that shop, I felt better, as if I was given medicine that I desperately needed. "Elias!" I squealed happily, standing from the coffee booth and wrapping my little arms around him. He smelled of soap and shampoo, just as he usually did every time I ever got a wiff of his scent. "How are you! I haven't seen you in forever. I'm so happy you could make it. Traffic is pretty terrible isn't it?" I chimed, making a face when I thought about the traffic. While I happily gave Elias his muffin, he soon stood up so he could go get his coffee, and a part of me was extremely happy because I could get my thoughts together. Okay, tell Elias about autumn first, than her mother, than the text. Yes, that seemed like an extremely good order to go by. Maybe Elias already felt like something was wrong just by the tension that seemed to evaporate off my body? I didn't know, but I didn't press it, just prepared myself for how the words were going to come out of my mouth. Once he took a seat again, my hands wrapped around my caramal spice and sipped it gingerly, and a smile spread to my face as the warm flavor coated my tongue. "I hate to dumb all of this on you, but I seriously have no one else to talk to about this. You know autumn my sister? I haven't seen her in how long, right? And today I got a random text from her, she didn't even have the decency to call me and tell me my mother had been dead for 2 weeks. I couldn't even attend the funeral. And I don't know how I feel about that yet, I think I'm still processing it." A sigh came from my chest than, and I bit my lip to keep back the tears, but I failed as a few escaped the area of my eyelids. "Seriously, how am I supposed to enter senior year tomorrow after finding out my mother's dead? I guess I'll just have to put a smile on my face and roll with the punches, no matter how hard that is gonna be." My mouth tasted extremely dry after I said those words out loud, and I decided to nibble on my muffin and take a gulp of my coffee to rid myself of the lump in my throat along with the cracked texture. "And not only that, but I got this extremely strange text from an unknown number, the message saying 8 days left. 8 days left till what? Is someone stalking me?" The fear rose in my stomach as I clicked open my flip phone and showed him the text, letting him hold my phone as I tried to breathe out of my mouth and think about the text. Did it have something to do with me, my life, Elias, even autumn? Despite how evil she was, I still cared about her, I had to, deep inside. Perhaps it was just a kid that was tricking her, or even had the wrong number. Elias would talk some sense into me, that made me feel a lot better knowing he would. He would rid me of these confusing thoughts, and set me thoughts straight for tomorrow and for whatever would come in the next week. "I honestly believe I'm just being paranoid. Do you think I'm being paranoid? Also, should I see my sister and confront her about whatever is happening? She's living with God knows who, and I don't know how's she surviving. But I shouldn't care! Autumn has barely said a word to me in her entire life. I should move on and forget the aspect I even have a sister." Ranting was good, it made me feel a bit more like a teenager. I rubbed my hands across my face without messing with my makeup or my hair, and to be honest, it felt amazing. The gesture made me feel like I was pulling myself out of whatever coma my body was forcing me into, and focus on what was important and what was not. The important aspects were making sure Elias and I both had a great first day, and I made a few people smile tomorrow and made sure I was going to ace tomorrow and forget about all the drama that happened today. It was going to be a great Sunday, first day of school, and a great week. Positivity always triumphed the negative, right? Right. Everything would be fine.
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hello! I'm winter, welcome to my little part of
chicken smoothie! I am a disabled female,
a husky mama, and I'm a fiancé ♥︎ I love my little pony! I specifically collect
G3. I have been collecting for 12 years!
I also collect littlest pet shops and I have
a forever love for build a bears and barbie ♥︎I am autistic & have adhd, and my toys have
been a true gift to my life and have healed
my inner child immensely ♥︎ mentally stuck in
2005, may avril, iPods & door beads live on ♥︎
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