


Rue[f].....Amy[m]......Jay[f]
My name is Rue. I was 27 years old when I commited suicide. And I was hopelessly in love with Jay, which didn't seem to work out for me.
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I remember the day I met him, like it was yesterday. It was in the evening. I was afraid he was going to kill me. So I sang. I can still remember the lyrics.
Deep in the meadow, under the willow, a bed of a grass, a soft green pillow... lay down your head, and close your sleepy eyes. And when they open, the sun will rise.He fell asleep, after that. I longed for friendship, so I turned to him. In time, I grew to love him. But I didn't tell him about my feelings, until he started showing affection to another girl, Amy. He knew her before I met him, and it seemed they were always lost in their own little world. I tryed everything to win over his heart. I took him to my favorite place in the whole world, a place my mother used to take me to. It was a meadow- a beautiful meadow cut off from the rest of the world. my efforts showed useless, for Jay fell deeper and deeper in love with Amy. So in protest, I left. I made a makeshift boat, and sailed away. I sailed away for a few months, and found a new place. It was much like England- the woods were Jay, Amy, and all the others lived. I became lonely, so I decided to come back.
When I came back, nobody bothered to say hello to me. It turned out, Jay was captured. I used all of my skills to help, and while the others were fighting, I slipped inside to the building, and untied Jay. Instead of saying thank you, he rushed towards the door to thank Amy for rescuing him. I followed him, and waited for him to pay attention to me, but nothing worked. He didn't even to bother saying hello to me. I really thought we had something.
So I ran away, to my meadow. For.... I can't remember how many years. I was greeted by a cougar attack- imagine that! And, believe it or not, I didn't die. Jay and Amy were making their way to town, and they rescued me. But I was mad at Jay, so I slapped him. It was accually pretty funny. But, Amy didn't like that. So she kind of attacked me, and stabbed me in the stomach. All I can remember was going to them camp... and collapsing on the ground. I... slipped into a coma. I nearly died. But... I was... awoken, by a sweet girl. I can't remember her name- Melanie or something?
By this time, I was used to living in Amy's shadow. I don't know what Amy had, that I didn't. I would ask Jay, but he wouldn't answer me. I couldn't blame him- Amy was so beautiful, and funny. I wish I could have been like her. But I learned to live with it. I don't know why, but I will always love Jay, no matter how cruel he is to me. I know he doesn't mean to hurt me, but it's just the way things are.
Jay. I love you. I will never stop loving you, even after my life has been taken. Just remember that. Please don't be upset about my death. I know you probably won't notice my absence, but I hope you do.
Love, Rue