ProudHufflepuff wrote:Yeah....I think I'm just gonna quit cs and all other accounts I have on other things cause no one will miss me anyway....
duckymomo412 wrote:feeling meh right now, no one EVER gifts me, I have rarely any good pets, no one accepts my trades anymore. I just want good pets, but no one cares about my feelings, do they? I see all these people with omg so rares and very rares and I have little of them. JUST CAN SOMEONE ON HERE TAKE THE TIME TO CARE ABOUT ME?OTHER THAN MY SISTER? nope
queen rena. wrote:
wishing people actually cared and thought about my feelings.
kattaserpen wrote:my mom found out about my binding
r.i.p me
She thinks asexuals (actually i think she meant agenders but she said asexuals) don't exist and that trans men are offensive to women and that I am f----- up in the head RIP IN PIECES
She's all like 'I don't care about your sexuality but please don't tell me you're one of those women who wants to be a man' and I'm like 'f--- I'm not even trans but how am I supposed to respond to this' like she's trying to put words in my mouth about why i hate my body and why im binding
Like
I'm not a girl
I don't identify with the whole idea of "girl"
Now I don't mean like gender roles okay I just literally cannot relate
And looking in the mirror and seeing this body with breasts and hips makes me so uncomfortable and utterly miserable
I. Hate. It.
Like I went to go buy bathing suits a few weeks ago
I took
One look
Into that mirror and I started crying
Quietly so nobody could hear me but the point is I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE--
the dysphoria is strong okay
And binding is one of the only ways that I can look into the mirror and smile
And she's telling me that I'm just trying to hang into my childhood or that I want control over my life or that I'm sensory averse (okay that last one's true BUT IT'S NOT WHY I BIND)
WOMAN YOU HAVE GOT IT ALL WRONG
There's no traumatic reason or some s--- THIS IS JUST ME AND HOW I FEEL
Dammit she's all "you have to learn to accept yourself" and I'm just thinking "DAMMIT WOMAN I ACCEPT MYSELF BUT THESE F------ FLESHBAGS HANGING OFF MY CHEST ARE NOT ME! WHY SHOULD I ACCEPT THEM THEY ARE NOT A PART OF WHO I AM AS A PERSON AND HOW I FEEL ABOUT MYSELF"
so now I'm kind of in trouble and I think mom is going to try to womanify me over the summer
Like I love my mom but her views on marginalized genders are so whacked out she was calling Caitlyn Jenner an idiot and she was disgusted by this news story about this trans teen she said that gender reassignment surgery was absurd
and I just feel so uncomfortable
#prayforme2k15
NOTE: I promise I wasn't binding in an unhealthy way it was just me wearing a lot of sports bras
So despite the summer vacay finally having started, my dysphoria/self-hatred/discomfort/anxiety/anger levels have skyrocketed
oops this wasn't supposed to be a huge whole rant sorry sorry
But hey
At least I don't have school
Hey who knows my mom stalks my internet history sometimes maybe she'll find this HI MOM SORRY IM NOT A GIRL OOPS WHAT A MESSED UP INDIVIDUAL I AM
angelpal wrote:I hate myself.
I just hate myself.
Today, after a long time good friendship I say
something that messed it all up. Then, today
they took the initiative to say "Hi." after I hurt
them, and I reply with a simple, "Hey." Freak
out, and run. I acted as if I didn't care. I was
so stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
And also, I feel so alone. I feel like no one cares.
I know it's stupid, I have a loving family, caring
friends, friendly teachers, and yet I hate my life.
I know, I'm ungrateful and a huge brat, but I just...
I hate my life.
Oh and guess what, my long time friend who gifted
me and cared about me so much on CS just quit and
had her account removed. Wonderful! Just wonderful.
kittygirl2210 wrote:I hate 4th of July so much! I HATE IT! I'm done with it forever
nwah wrote:Are we allowed to talk about illnesses on CS? I know we are not allowed to discuss serious issues such as self harm or suicide but for those of us coping with chronic illness or mental illness it can be comforting to talk about it. Is this the right thread for that? I don't want to break any rules and I can't seem to find any direct information about this. ^^
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