by ZAFTPrime » Fri May 01, 2015 3:33 pm
Shinn - Tag: Skipper
Shinn frowned. "I see. Well, he was the one who suggested it. Sure, you were the commander, but it was him who suggested it. Now, I'm not saying it wasn't all his fault. He has every right to believe that it was his fault for it happening, but you also played a part and ordered the attack. Personally, and I know I may be wrong to say this, but I think you both share the blame. You for ordering it, and Rush for suggesting it. I understand your willingness to acknowledge what you did, and that makes a good leader. But all the same, it may be that Rush has fallen in too deep to consider you were also at fault. He hasn't spoken to you in years I think, and he hasn't had anyone to talk to about this. He may have convinced himself of this so much, he can't have his mind changed. I could be thoroughly wrong though as well." Shinn replied. "I don't mean to be so blunt, but that's my thoughts on this."
He then sighed. "I think I know what he is going through, but my situation was far different. I was just a recent recruit to the Jolly Wrenches when this happened. It was a routine flight patrol when a squad mate of mine and I came across an enemy holdout in the Mid-East. Our commander was out ahead of us, and told us to remain behind him. My friend and I were eager young planes that day, and we insisted upon attacking the base. It was a stupid thing to do in all honesty. Anyway, we insisted on attacking, and our commander said no. Still, we persisted and when my friend and I flew down over the enemy base, we attacked. Our commander was pissed as h***, but our orders at the time were to take out any enemy installations we found. He decided to attack as well, but that was when things changed." Shinn shivered at the next part. "We fell under heavy fire. My friend was shot down within ten minutes of the fighting starting, and then...I just lost it." He looked back at Skipper. "I'm part MIG, and as such, I am prone to what is called Battle Rage. I lost all sight of the conflict, enemies, and allies. All I wanted was to shoot down the ones who shot down my friend. There were ten enemies that day. I wound up taking down nine of them in one battle. The commander was also shot down trying to save me from an enemy I missed. He lived, but I refused to go into actual frontline combat again as a result. Even today, I feel it was partially my fault for getting my friend killed. The commander said it was his orders to attack that led to my friend's death, but it wasn't his fault alone. I was also to blame, as was my friend. There was no one person to blame that day. I knew this from the beginning, but unlike Rush, I don't blame myself entirely."