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Name: Ace Gilbert
Age: 19
Creature: Dragon
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║╚═══════╝ Ace followed closely, his heart racing. He was unsure about the whole situation, having mixed emotions and thoughts. Sure, he had gone to church before, but only because he had been forced to by his mother. Tonight he was going with the intention of getting something out of the sermon and to start forming a relationship with God. But...could he even accomplish the latter? He wasn't necessarily bad in the sense that he was hanging out with people on the streets and breaking the law, but he wasn't completely innocent either, especially with what happened the other night. He just felt like he didn't belong here. Everyone else that was worshiping had possibly been Christians since they were children and probably hadn't sinned as much as he had. Maybe they were all like Lily, innocent and pure, while he was the black sheep who was constantly getting into fights and messing things up morally. He just didn't belong.
But at the same time, he felt like he
did belong. No one in this building was perfect, and they most likely understood that since they were here in the first place. Plus, hadn't they all been in his place at one point in their lives? Each one of them had been just as ignorant as him...right? Thinking through his feelings logically wasn't giving him a sound conclusion that he desired. However, there was a strange urge he felt that seemed to be telling him that what he was doing was right, that this was where he needed to be. He couldn't explain it, but he trusted the feeling.
He kept a straight face despite the emotional turmoil inside of him. He was overwhelmed, confused, and unsure. Part of him wanted to back out and walk back through the doors they had come through, but another part wanted to rush forward and join the others in worship. The latter part was winning, gaining strength from Lily's presence and the indescribable urge that filled him. He wanted to be here, wanted to hear about a God that could love him unconditionally, wanted to
believe in such a God. The only thing that was holding him back at the current moment was fearing what others would think about him.
Why should he care what they thought about him? Shouldn't he only be concerned with what God thought of him? And wouldn't God want him to be here?
Once his eyes were more adjusted to the darkness and he was able to make out the seats, he took a few steps forward, trying to focus on his determination instead of his fears. He had to keep moving forward before the fears and doubts made him go back. "Should...should we sit in the front?" Ace asked Lily, his voice strained wih emotion, but he kept his eyes focused on what was in front of him.