Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[forecast]

Dear F,

Excited to meet you tbh, hope your as much as a nerd as my friend. We'll watch anime and cry over couples and ship stuff and watch comedy movies that are so dirty minded and YEAH <333333333

Love, me

[Nanashi]

-N

Sometimes I feel as though our friend doesn't like me anymore. She tends to treat me poorly and I don't know if I can handle that anymore. I try to be nice but then I get shut down. Even now she likes you more than me, and I feel hurt when she says no to me but yes to you. It seems like nothing would change. I hate how everything is just a continuous slope downhill.

[northern downpour ;;]

Two posts on the same page. I refuse to put anything depressing on my last post, so consider this a different person altogether.

C,

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I know you love me. But I can't be happy. I can't.
How can I be happy when I know these things...?
Can't I just curl up and cry and surround myself with guy friends?

~ N

Despicable you,

I have thought about you a lot. I'll admit that.
I just want to say, congrats. You ruined me. I don't.. I don't think I can love freely anymore.
Knowing you actually got a crush on two of my friends, probably while we were still dating, makes me extremely paranoid.
Too paranoid to love him.
Because they're better than me and I know it. You just didn't have to prove it to me.
Every time I find myself wondering 'do I love him?' Instead of an answer, I feel a sharp pang of fear and I shut down. I shut down my own feelings to MYSELF, all because I'm too scared to let anyone get too close only to be stolen by friends.
"Do I love him?" Fear. Shut down.
An endless cycle.
All because of you.

- Me

Lovely you,

I'm so sorry I'll never be what you deserve. I'm just too scared. I'm sorry.

~ C

[KellySosa]

Dear M,
You've helped me through so much, with my broken heart when my best friend hurt me and then all of a sudden we take a break from school and when o come back you act like our friendship never happen. Everything we've been through was all a lie. I texted you and you would barely answer, you would hang out with other people and not to me, you wouldn't even look me in the eyes. You helped me when I had a broken heart and now you were the one who repaired it and destroyed. I thought I was losing you so finally you answer my text and we are starting to go back how we use to be. After a while we took a dare to write the names of our crush on our wrists and we did but we didn't tell each other. That day I texted you and you texted back you asked me about my crush and I dodge the question I asked who your crush was and you responded, but your crush wasn't me. I started to feel sad because you we're my crush. Then you asked me about my crush and I told you I couldn't answer your question you got mad and we started arguing, finally you said goodbye. I was sad I didn't want to lose you so I said it "you are my crush". I saw his text pop up, I looked at my phone scared at what you were gonna say, I waited a few minutes, reached for the phone, and read your text. You said why? Why me? Why do you like me? What do you like about me? I then answered your questions but it was no use. It was like it didn't matter to you that I cared about you more than a friend. After I said why you just talked about something else I got tired of it and left the conversation. Days later I started to feel depressed and I texted you but not for comfort to let you go. You asked why? You asked what you did? And I said your not good for me. And that was the last text we sent to each other. We never spoke ever again. I miss you so much, but I feel like you wouldn't care, i have been hurt so much, I trust the wrong people. I don't know what to do anymore.

[Enabled&Gone]

Dear A
Can ask you something? Why are you always pushing me away? You act so strong it's hard to break the ice in your heart. Your suppose to be my friend, but why? When I'm hurt you don't realise it until I say it. You call me your best friend but later you tell me you don't trust anyone so you don't have one. You call me names and mock the way I do things, I don't do that to you. So please stop. You lie to me and manipulate every emotion like dough. Sometimes I just can't take it, it's fustrating that you act alone.

Can't I Be Your Friend?

You got a friend in me

[mandalorian]

Dear ___,
i don't really like you?? whoops
from, sunflower

[Nothingspecial]

Dear_______,

I can't tell you how much I miss you. I've lost____, too and I really wish you were still by my side. Also, I can't thank you enough for being the best friend I will ever have...

Me

[lele207]

Dear blank,

Every time I am around you, I get happy. though when you are around *her* I get extremely jelly. Do you like me? I dont know. Some days you seem like you do, then some days you dont. I catch you staring at me XD and you have just happened to look in my direction when I am looking in yours.... ACHWARD ^.^ are you really like, liking *her*? I dont know, I hope not. She is a little bit selfish and rude at times. We all have our moments though. What do you think of me??? Now that you ow how I feel. Also I dont like the weekends because I miss you. ur so funny!

Your friend,
Leanna(lele)

PS: sorry for horrible grammar and spelling! Oh, and also! I love it when you call me *nickname*! and I really really like you

[The One & Only Vapor]

dear family,

please get off my effing case

i have been sick for a week and a half and none of you even bothered to ask if i'm okay. now i've discovered that i have trichotillomania {which we've suspected but just now confirmed} and possible rls. neither of these are spectacularly awful diseases but both damage my already-low self-esteem severely.

and you have the guts to push me around still ?? do you know what i'm going through ??

i don't think i'm overreacting. my mom yelled at me for ripping a paper bag this morning. on accident. my sister nearly got me grounded because i tried to be nice and did her job for her. and she was so ungrateful that she went and complained. um ? what ?? my mom's boyfriend is constantly snapping at me for something-or-other. even if i do nothing and he says it's "just teasing" his words are really hurtful. and his daughter....please don't even get me started.

i am trying. i'm trying so hard to keep my cool around them. i really am. i'm trying not to snap, not to be snarky or rude or mean, but i don't know how much longer i can keep that sort of facade up. right now i'm sick, trying to deal with the knowledge that i have two new disorders to deal with, and having a bad bout of one of them {my trichotillomania} right now, i'm on my period, going through my annual SAD thanks to spring, and still a little caught up in my intense existential crisis from last week.

what sucks the most is that no one cares. only my mom has noticed, but when i told her "it's fine" {as i always do} she stopped bothering me.

i'm not fine, but if i tell her that, will she care ?? no. and even if she somehow does, she won't understand. maybe that's my problem- no one else understands.

you guys are my last hope. hello, internet. please help me.

i need to know that someone cares.

i just wish i weren't too tired, too done with all of it, to care for myself.

but i've stopped caring.

and maybe that's the scariest thing of all.

- vapor

[Kim Jongdae]

Dear______,
Just because you are my friend does not give you special favors over business. I'm not a favoritist and just because you want something for cheap doesn't mean I will give it to you for cheap. I work hard. You have to too. I'm not your escape goat for any fudging problem you have. I also dont associate myself with people like that so goodbye. I'm simply going to walk out of this one 'benefit buddies' socalled friendship we have and never come back. Go find someone else to leech off of.
I hope you never get what you are looking for, you don't deserve it if you wont work hard like the rest of us
Kim Jongdae