Posting twice on the same page >3>;; I love this new thread too much ... cx This post is a happier one though~:
Dear You,
Sorry I couldn't say these things to you in person, but I'm a bit of a wimp- as you probably know >w> And I suck at explaining things in real life conversation ... But hopefully I can let my thoughts out here~
I know I can be a bit of a "drama mama"- if that's what you want to call it. cx; I get worked up easily, I'm jealous, I have had more than my fair share of "bad days," and I know I can probably get on your nerves every now and then with my overall over-emotional attitude. But, I don't think you understand how much it means to me that I can actually open up to somebody for once ...
My parents were the type of people to keep their problems behind closed doors. I was sheltered as a child, you could say. If my parents were in a tough spot, they would never let my siblings or I know. They never argued in front of us. Heck, my uncle got a divorce several years ago, and I didn't even find out about it until last summer. YEARS after it happened. Because my parents didn't want me to worry about the bad things that happen in life. Therefore, I learned to do the same with my feelings. Because it was easier to put on a fake smile than to let people know that my life isn't perfect.
And, you know fully well, that I've had my share of bad times .-. But, throughout all of that, I didn't have the heart to admit to any of it ... I would just put on fake smiles, cried behind closed doors, and pretend like none of it bothered, because that's all I knew how to do.
It wasn't until I met you and got to know you that I realized I didn't have to be so .... >w> Fake all the time. I could have my bad days. I could get jealous. I could cry and draw vent art and let the world know that I was in a bad mood. And it would be okay. So many other people would have turned their back on me by this point, but you haven't ... You were always there to give me hugs and just talk to me when I was in a bad mood ...~ ;w; Even when I tried to leave the 'gang' and be alone, you brought me back in.
So, I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm sorry if I annoy you sometimes with my bad mood .A. I'm sorry if I go overboard with my jealousy, don't want to talk about certain things, or just get emotional over the dumbest of things ... >w< But thank you for sticking by me and cheering me up ;w; You probably don't even realize how much you have helped me cx You always say that you aren't the best with "comfort talk," but I think even the little things you do help <3 They surely helped me!
And this is just one of the things that I like most about you! <3 Sorry that I didn't have the courage to tell you in person, but I wanted to take advantage of this amazing thread you showed me ...
So, from the bottom, top, and all other places in my heart-
Thank you
~Cobalt Woof