Username: Cryogenic || Sima Name: Nathaniel [goes by Nate] || Sima Gender: Agender [male pronouns]
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..........I don't care if it hurts
..........I wanna have control
..........I want a perfect body
..........I want a perfect soul
..........I want you to notice
..........When I'm not around
..........You're so special
..........I wish I was special
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While some people have always envied the princes and princesses in elobrate fairy-tales told to little children to make them feel better about their futures Nate has always admired a very different story. There's a song that weaves a tale that comes very close to Nate's own experiences and always manages to hit too close to home for him comfort, but he can't seem to stop listening to it anyways.
Chasm by Flyleaf is a song that spins a tale of someone who walks in a life of sin and winds up going to hell. Once there they realize how horrible this place truly is and beg Abraham to help them, even with a drop of water to abate the thirst that the flames of Hell only lick at. Abraham, however, can not as there is a chasm between Heaven and Hell and he can not help them, so they resort to begging him, pleading to at least let them warn their family, to give them a chance to see what Hell will really do to them, to let them give people a chance to never have to go there. Nate finds a very close understanding to these lyrics and even though they do not match his story exactly he does relate. When he was young, very young, Nate accidently set his house on fire. Trapped in the burning building as the screams of his family wrent the air and unable to escape the room he was in, the growing fire pushing him to the ground as he tried to escape the heat, Nate found his own personal Hell. A hell built from guilt and the smell of smoke. A Hell he could not escape or find solice from, like the poor soul begging for even a drop of water. He just wanted out, to find his family and to get them out as well. But he would not. Nate's family would die in that fire and leave him alone in the world, in a Hell that was all new. In his mind Nate became a walking a Hell, the space around him becoming a place no one should ever want to occupy should they end up hurt and tortured.


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...............But I'm a creep...............I'm a weirdo.....What the hell am I doing here?............I don't belong here╰.......................................╯
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Nate is a giant flirt and charismatic person all around. He loves to just ramble on about nothing in particular and will compliment anyone that happens to walk by him. He is a very relaxed person when it comes to relationships and doesn't mind more than one partner at a time, making him polyamorous. Although he doesn't have very serious relationships he can get very protective of those he has labeled as his and just, subconsciously, wants to make sure they are okay when they are not in his presence.
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Saraph [owned by Anthrophobia] is a guy that Nate just can't help but notice. With his "cool kid" attitude, confident air, and rebelous attitude this Sima is such that Nate reluctantly finds himself drawn to. While Nate is one that is very open and forward with his attraction to others he very rarely actually means it in a way that leads to a stable or lasting relationship. As well as his issues with letting others get close to him Nate doesn't like the idea of getting hurt if things turn sour, Saraph however intices him to ignore all his little warnings to himself and Nate just can't help it. He would much rather the other have no hold over him but the young Sima just can't seem to help himself. He's not even sure what makes the other so appealing to him. Is it the dark appearance? The "cool kid" attitude? The careless and reckless ways? The danger? The loneliness? Whatever it may be, weather something singular or a combination of many aspects, Nate truthfully doesn't care and no amounts of wit or harsh humor on behalf of the other shall deter Nate, although he may complain about it all frequently and openly. Dispute all this Nate has, after awhile, reluctantly admitted to himself that he finds the other attractive in a way that makes him want to stick around.

by feather-senpai