Dear "friends"
I wear a smile on my face everyday to school.
You never see me with a frown.
I would never actually want to dampen your moods.
I try to be the best friend I can.
But maybe that isn't enough.
Is there something wrong with me?
Is it because I'm too dumb? or ugly?
Too unpopular? Too touchy? Too.. me?
I may seem very weird. Very... unique.
I may seem like a ghost to you, maybe invisible.
It may seem like I don't care.
It may seem like I just laugh it off.
It may seem like I don't get hurt.
but I do.
Even if you can't see it.
I do have feelings.
And feelings can be broken.
I go along with whatever the group says.
I don't try to speak up.
I try to go along.
I don't argue.
but I want to have a say.
But I'm too shy- too afraid of what would happen
if I say my opinion.
And you know what?
The thing I despise the most, is one of the things that happens the most.
I get ignored, being pushed into the background.
You talk to me until you see your other friend
then you walk away with them.
Like I never existed.
Sometimes you tell me you want to talk to them.
I'll shrug, tell you its fine, that we'll talk later
I try to be the best friend I can.
I try to talk a lot.
I try to smile.
But maybe it isn't enough.
Just.
Maybe.
~Rainbow
Sorry. Had to get this off my chest.
It's been building up for the past years ;3;
I wear a smile on my face everyday to school.
You never see me with a frown.
I would never actually want to dampen your moods.
I try to be the best friend I can.
But maybe that isn't enough.
Is there something wrong with me?
Is it because I'm too dumb? or ugly?
Too unpopular? Too touchy? Too.. me?
I may seem very weird. Very... unique.
I may seem like a ghost to you, maybe invisible.
It may seem like I don't care.
It may seem like I just laugh it off.
It may seem like I don't get hurt.
but I do.
Even if you can't see it.
I do have feelings.
And feelings can be broken.
I go along with whatever the group says.
I don't try to speak up.
I try to go along.
I don't argue.
but I want to have a say.
But I'm too shy- too afraid of what would happen
if I say my opinion.
And you know what?
The thing I despise the most, is one of the things that happens the most.
I get ignored, being pushed into the background.
You talk to me until you see your other friend
then you walk away with them.
Like I never existed.
Sometimes you tell me you want to talk to them.
I'll shrug, tell you its fine, that we'll talk later
I try to be the best friend I can.
I try to talk a lot.
I try to smile.
But maybe it isn't enough.
Just.
Maybe.
~Rainbow
Sorry. Had to get this off my chest.
It's been building up for the past years ;3;