The TARDIS<3 wrote:I need a hug
The TARDIS<3 wrote:I know felt what you feel now. I'm a loner, I know it and my friends know it. They wear make-up, and have phones, but me? I'm plain and alone. They always have such a good time, always joking and such, and I just sit there. No-one talks to me that often, and the guy that liked me, and that I liked back, didn't have the courage to ask me out, so he aske dout my friend. Which broke my heart. Everytime I find out a guy likes me, I compleatly blow it. Second grade, a boy liked me and I wasn't ready so I ran away from him. End of the year he moved away. I don't know why thi salways haplens to me. All my friends say I'm pretty, funny, and amazing, but I don't feel like I am. I don't even know how suddenly, I was friends with a bunch of people. My friemds say I'm lucky, because I live on a farm and have tons of room, but they don't know the price. I've got chores, responsibilities, and so much is expected of me. And to top that off my dad moved away to Missiouri, and because of a huge court thing, I'm uncomfortable aroumd my mom and step-dad.
I'm sorry this happened *Hugs*
May I just say, you're friends are right. You're pretty funny and amazing, and you deserve your friends, and everything you have.
At least you have friends, they're going to be there for you no matter what. Next time you're all together and joking, smile, and laugh even if you have to fake it, try to feel like you're apart of them, because you are, and joke with them.
I doubt they're wearing a lot of make up, and even if they are, who cares? You're you, and if you don't like makeup, that's ok, don't wear it. You're perfect, amazing and beautiful just the way you are, and never forget that. There are a bunch of people who never wear makeup, and it you don't like it, don't wear it.
But if you want to try make up, that's ok too. Ask your friends what they do, because you're thinking of wearing it too. You don't have to wear it every day, but sometimes just messing around with all of your friends and seeing how each person does their makeup can be fun. All I wear every day is concealer because I have acne scars, and it's super easy to use and put on, but sometimes I like doing my face more heavily, partially because it's the only art I can do (Even though it's not really art XP) and partially because I just like messing around with all the stuff I have. Never feel like you have to wear it though, you're beautiful already.
Sorry you don't have a phone, I didn't have one either until recently, and that's only because I'm paying for it. Try to get a small part time job, like grooming horses, cutting grass, or cleaning up barns, my brothers friend pretty much does all three of those for the elderly lady that lives next door, and he makes a little money that he used to buy himself an I pod, maybe you can do that for a phone. You'll get one eventually either way, you just have to wait.
So change that, put forward a positive attitude, be bold, and don't let that guy who liked you slip. Find a perfect time to talk to him, and tell him that you like him. You've had some bad luck with guys, but don't let that define who you are, because it's not who you are, don't let your past get in the way of your future, you can move on.
That sucks....
You can still talk to your dad, call him, and even visit him sometimes. Try to make amends with your mom, she's still your family, even if it doesn't feel like it. Maybe talk it out with her?
Anyway, feel free to pm me if I misinterpreted anything or you want more advice or anything.