by Kira Akuma » Fri Oct 29, 2010 10:40 am
Well... since I chose to reject God, I only became angrier. I was always an angry individual, and I still am, but I figured out the only thing that curbed it was God. And when I shut him out, I was only tormented with how angry and depressed I was. My aunt, whom is also a Christ Follower pulled me aside and with tear filled eyes asked me to do one last thing... watch a religious program and pray with her. Out of my unconditional love for her, I did. And I felt God speak, it was like a whisper asking me who I will serve... him, people, or Satan. I told him people. He then told me to put his stamp on all the good I did... give him credit for my good works, and recognize him as my savior, then that would be enough. I agreed to it and let him back into my heart. Since then, I have felt him speak to me, and I have been able to help several of my friends already. I've also been less angry and less depressed. I feel lighter... And even though I'm still very much me, and hold to a good bit of my previous beliefs... I can no longer deny that there is a God. And I cannot deny Jesus any more. Yes, life is hard. Yes, God allows a lot of bad things to happen. But that's part of our punishment for disowning him. He still has not disowned us. He loves us all. We don't have to change to go to him... we don't have to stop drinking, doing drugs, or liking "satanic" music. All we have to do is accept him as lord. Then the rest is history. He will continue to change you. Who knows? Maybe eventually you won't want to drink anymore... or do drugs. -shrug- Anything's possible. And I was using "you" as a universal term, by the way. XD But anyway... I'm happy to tell this story. Thank you for asking. <3
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