|TheComfortCorner| v.3

[Amethysts]

☁I still need comfort; I'm broken. I still want to cry. I think I'm un-repairable..

I may look happy or even act it.
But in all honesty, I am miserable beyond belief.

[~stories untold.]

I don't know what the hell happened to me but I think i developed a thing for punching mirrors -_-
Why must I be this stupid and this bad of decisions? I'm going to have a tough time explaining this one...

[leverage]

☁I still need comfort; I'm broken. I still want to cry. I think I'm un-repairable..

I may look happy or even act it.
But in all honesty, I am miserable beyond belief.

You are always fixable.
Things will always get better.
Though it might not happen today, or tomorrow, and the road to comfort might be long and painful, you can always get there.
Just stay strong, like you have been. Keep going. Don't be afraid to ask for help.
Just keep going. You can make it.
It might be hard, pretending to be happy, but don't be afraid to let it out. There's no need to bottle up your feelings, just let them out every once in a while.
Keep your head high.
I believe that you can do it.
PM me if you would like to talk <3

[Hollibomb]

Screw it, I'm just gonna let everything out in a huge rant.

Well, middle school has been horrible. I'll start my story from the beginning, so get comfy and grab a bag if popcorn.

At The beginning of the year I was sick. Doctors thought something was wrong with my kidneys. So after months and months of tests, including multiple medications and strict diets, we never found out what it was. It kinda just disappeared.

So towards the middle of the year, I started feeling upset al the time. I wasn't quite sure why, but I never felt good enough. To add to that, I finally got my period. Yay. Emotions. So pile that on top of depression and it isn't fun.

So durning this last stretch of the year, I've been feeling horrible. I have already been thinking if scuicide possibilities, but after reading tons of "don't do it we love you" quotes on Pinterest, I'm not sure what to do. One of them in particular stated: "so who is gonna clean off the blood and brains from the wall after you shot a billet through your head? Your mother, whom you have left traumatized and depressed?" These are the kind if quotes that make me want to die. SO, they are telling me that even if I have to go through pain to cause happiness, I never will be happy since I will give others the pain, therefore, I should prison myself in this pain for the security of others. Yup.

So I can't die but I can't live. What can I do? I'm honestly not sure. Keep living and hoping it gets better, or die. I honestly don't know.

There are so many more things to say. Like all the things I have been hiding from my friends, and everything I want to be. It's just so hard to live with myself knowing that I can never be what I want, because life is weighing me down.

I hope somebody understands. Because I can't keep scratching at my wrists and thighs, and I can't keep crying every night. Please save me somebody, because I'm dying.

Thank you for reading. Btw I didn't do any of my homework. I was to insane. Lol, I think I'm done with school for now. Maybe if I get held back, it will give me an excuse to...ya know.

Much love, JellyMuffin



Somebody pm me?

[rena.]

there's this guy that i thought i could call a friend.
but then i explore and find out that he's been talking crap about me. { my friend and i were bored and on a story making site blah blah }
so, i see what he said and it really hurt me.
im literally here crying, shaking, feeling sick.
hug pwease?

[Dragon Reine]

there's this guy that i thought i could call a friend.
but then i explore and find out that he's been talking crap about me. { my friend and i were bored and on a story making site blah blah }
so, i see what he said and it really hurt me.
im literally here crying, shaking, feeling sick.
hug pwease?

Hug I'm so sorry. :c Hang in there.
He's just not a real friend, but don't let him bring you down.
I know you can find some amazing people to be your friends. <:

[sky dancer.]

i feel so bad.. My friend and I play a game called minecraft. Of course there is a survival type where you can die. I texted one of her friends { slightly Frenemy to me.. } and was joking around saying "*name* was going to commit suicide, please call her now." On the game she was going to jump off a high tower, we were being silly and thought it was a huge joke. Well apparently her friend took it serious and was balling. Now she's mad at me, when it wasn't even MY idea... I feel bad, but aggravated at the same time... Bad because she took it serious - aggravated because she's mad at ME! And my friend wouldn't tell her it was her idea, not mine. >.< I hate being a teenager where I think something so small can be a joke... But really it's a big deal..

[deideloo]

of course my pc crashes just as i finish typing up what all of the shimeji screen labels mean. //cries in towel corner
this is more of a big deal than you think that hurt my brain hand and eyeballs
and feels ;-;

[A Random Moustache]

Warning: A long post of rants coming up

Nothing actually makes me happy right now. Nothing. No, not even videos of cute cats or puppies, because I just get sad on the fact that I cant get one. I'm a pessimist. I always think of the future in negative thoughts, because my life is negative. Everything is negative.

I just found out my best best friend talks behind my back (I hacked her fb and looked at the conversations) to my other best friend (that I like more). No guys, don't say that she is not deserving to be my friend or lines like that, because we were almost a perfect match (of BFF's of course); we have almost the same personality and that's the quality I'm looking for my applying best friend. sigh. If I could just bestfriend myself, oh how I did that a long time ago.

I'm always excluded on stuff. My best friends make plans and do stuff without me, my friends always make me hold their phones when they take a picture with someone, my cousins play video games that I like without me, even if the consoles they are using are mine and A LOT of other situations. I always feel like I don't exist to people in normal days but I exist when they need something. I just feel kind of... used for their own good.

When my parents always talk something about me, its always negative. Me is lazy, Me will be not the valedictorian because she doesn't study, Me is careless, Me is fat, Me is ugly, Me doesn't have a fashion sense and a lot more. My mom always compares me to other girls to my age, that other girls my age spend a lot of time in the shower (Why would I spend a lot of time in the shower if I could be doing other stuff more important than showering.?) that other girls my age are thin (I was born chubby.. Its not my fault if your genes made me fat -_-) and blablabla other crap. My dad is a LOT negative-er than my mom. They are the worst parents a child could have because instead of encouraging them to be a better person, they just decrease my self esteem. Oh if I could just replace my parents with a new one,I wouldn't bat an eye and do so!

There are a lot more rants for me to let out... I'll just save them for the next time I post here. Farewell and thank you for reading my rants.

[fruitbat]

finally build up the courage to post again ~
but lately, a lot has been going downhill.
"stop going to sleep late" my mother will
say. oh, gee mum, that really helps me.
/.\ i just feel so worthless, school isn't
worth trying anymore, sleeping isn't
needed anymore, all i do is cry anyway.
is it possible to feel so empty, but i
cant act it? the only place were i can
let out my tears and feelings is in my
room, where im alone. alone, that's right.
no one needs me anyway.
/ sigh \
i feel like im not needed anymore...