|TheComfortCorner| v.3

[Silently-there]

I hate school. It's official.
I love my teachers, I really do. I'm not bullied or anything, which I'm deeply grateful for. I'm just such a perfectionist... And I always stress out about the smallest things...
One piece if homework not done, my brain goes into hyper mode and starts building up and building up anxiety and stress. Sometimes I just can't think and I break down... And I cry and I cry. I did that just some minutes ago. In front of my mom.
She tries to help, and really, she does help. She just doesn't understand... My school has so many higher expectations than hers ever did....
And I'm just so scared if disappointing people, or doing something that will make me start being bullied. My mom says that at some point in a persons life, they are always bullied. Unless they are the bully.
And I just... The idea that people might think of me as a bully scares the heck out of me.....
And if I'm not a bully..... I don't want to be bullied... And I don't want......
I just don't want to make another problem in my life... Cause I mean... One wrong move and things go spiraling out of direction.....

I get you. I was crying earlier because I had homework and it was a snow day and I didn't do it now I have a paragraph long essay due....... but it will work out fine. One time I had to do a paragraph long essay and I spent hours on it- then left it at home. I quickly rewrote it at school. I love my teachers too, just it's too much. What I normally do to get away from it all is just read for a bit. Calm down. I don't think your mom is correct. I am bullied myself, but that is my own fault, I act differently than others. But my friend Kylie has never been bullied, never was one, and I don't think she ever will be. It will all be OK! -gives hug and candy-

Thanks for the reply... It kinda calmed me down a little bit now, cause again I'm all stressed out.
Thanks for the reassurance on the bully thing too... It just, I tend to believe my mom because she always helps me so when she says something like that it's always scary.....
And yummy candy, btw.

I think your mom knows what she's talking about, because in a sense, she's right. In fact, sometimes you don't even know if you're being bullied. I've been bullied a lot, and in the long run, I promise it doesn't really matter unless it's really bad, which can be prevented and is now under your control, so you don't have to worry too much about that.
However, if you were a bully and other people considered you as one, you would know. Most of the time, bullies only are the way they are because of the way they were raised or because of personal struggles they're going through. It's not just because they feel like it and grr.
Also, I'm sure that if you ever snap at people or are rude, they'd know you're stressed out or have a reason. Most of the time, when we're upset, we tend to be a little less tolerant or patient to others, which is okay, if they're patient and tolerant of us. We're all human, we all have emotions, we all have those times.

[shade.]

I hate school. It's official.
I love my teachers, I really do. I'm not bullied or anything, which I'm deeply grateful for. I'm just such a perfectionist... And I always stress out about the smallest things...
One piece if homework not done, my brain goes into hyper mode and starts building up and building up anxiety and stress. Sometimes I just can't think and I break down... And I cry and I cry. I did that just some minutes ago. In front of my mom.
She tries to help, and really, she does help. She just doesn't understand... My school has so many higher expectations than hers ever did....
And I'm just so scared if disappointing people, or doing something that will make me start being bullied. My mom says that at some point in a persons life, they are always bullied. Unless they are the bully.
And I just... The idea that people might think of me as a bully scares the heck out of me.....
And if I'm not a bully..... I don't want to be bullied... And I don't want......
I just don't want to make another problem in my life... Cause I mean... One wrong move and things go spiraling out of direction.....

I think your mom knows what she's talking about, because in a sense, she's right. In fact, sometimes you don't even know if you're being bullied. I've been bullied a lot, and in the long run, I promise it doesn't really matter unless it's really bad, which can be prevented and is now under your control, so you don't have to worry too much about that.
However, if you were a bully and other people considered you as one, you would know. Most of the time, bullies only are the way they are because of the way they were raised or because of personal struggles they're going through. It's not just because they feel like it and grr.
Also, I'm sure that if you ever snap at people or are rude, they'd know you're stressed out or have a reason. Most of the time, when we're upset, we tend to be a little less tolerant or patient to others, which is okay, if they're patient and tolerant of us. We're all human, we all have emotions, we all have those times.

Thanks...... I think people may have bullied me, but I come from a family where teasing is common, and I don't think I realize it.....
And I know that, it's just... I'm scared of the alternative. Of it actually being bad, cause I hear of that all the time. My best friend-people on the internet-and more..... So I'm just nervous about that happening, cause I have anxiety.....
This was actually a good explanation... So thanks... I'm not good at lengthy replies or anything.... But I find reading these really helpful.

[eli ayase]

no... no... nonono

i've had SO Much homework today, I have a 250 point project die the 19th and i've only done two things out of, like, 17. I have more math homework, I figured out I have a webquest due tomorrow, and i just realized I have a quiz on 20 vocab words tomorrow and I haven't studied one of them. I have too much to do, my teacher bullies me, I have a C in class (i usually gets A's and B's) and I just


dont know anymore

I'm going crazy

[Thalassic]

I.. I don't know what to do..
Should I leave university? Should I study something else? Find a job?
I'm just.. so confused, I don't know what to do..

[evol]

What did I do now...?

[ghostley.]

i'm crying right now, but no one cares. no one ever will. i'm so upset i feel sick to my stomach: why am i so hideous? so, so undesirable? just someone worth ignoring? what did i ever do to anyone? be born? i didn't choose to exist, that's completely your problem. i just want someone to care. i feel like everything else is just advertisement and a road to disappointment and lower self esteem.

[Thalassic]

I.. I don't know what to do..
Should I leave university? Should I study something else? Find a job?
I'm just.. so confused, I don't know what to do..

[My Immortal]

No...

[Silently-there]

Each one of you are great.
You each have something to offer.
Take a look around; you, not your mind. Open your eyes to what's really there.
People love you.
People care.
You need to open your eyes. I'm not going to sit here telling you what you have to do. However, if you only knew how hard it is for us to see you right now, struggling, you would try your best to pull yourself out of this terrible mood.
And if you're crammed with homework?
Do everything you can. Give yourself alone time to finish it. Peace and quiet. Concentrate on your studies, because in the future it's going to help. Just stay in school, and you'll be good.
And if you feel like they don't understand you?
They probably don't. They aren't you. They aren't currently feeling what you're feeling, or thinking what you're thinking.
But they've experienced it.They've had the same thought process.
Open up; see with the others eyes.
What's bothering them?
And you are all worth it. You are always good enough.
We can help, or at least try our best.
If you fall, stand back up again.
You'll learn.
You'll make it out alive.

[apollo.]

no... no... nonono

i've had SO Much homework today, I have a 250 point project die the 19th and i've only done two things out of, like, 17. I have more math homework, I figured out I have a webquest due tomorrow, and i just realized I have a quiz on 20 vocab words tomorrow and I haven't studied one of them. I have too much to do, my teacher bullies me, I have a C in class (i usually gets A's and B's) and I just


dont know anymore

I'm going crazy

*hugs*
start now, and don't stop for cs breaks, or anything really, you can get it all done if you try really hard and stay up late. Im sure your teacher doesnt mean to bully you, some teachers just have a little bit of a messed up sense of humor. If it really bothers you, maybe you could tell your parents, or the principal.
good luck.

I.. I don't know what to do..
Should I leave university? Should I study something else? Find a job?
I'm just.. so confused, I don't know what to do..

Leaving university 99% of the time is a terrible idea. If you paid so much to get started, and worked so hard to get your grades up its a bad idea to leave. Unfortunately, I cant answer your question. No one can. We don't know you well enough to, and even if we did we wouldn't know what to tell you, its your life, you need to look at it, and do what you think would be best for you.

What did I do now...?

Hey camillion, do you want to rant to me? my inbox is always open to everyone.

i'm crying right now, but no one cares. no one ever will. i'm so upset i feel sick to my stomach: why am i so hideous? so, so undesirable? just someone worth ignoring? what did i ever do to anyone? be born? i didn't choose to exist, that's completely your problem. i just want someone to care. i feel like everything else is just advertisement and a road to disappointment and lower self esteem.

I care. *hugs* I'm sure a lot of other people do too, try to take a deep breath and calm down, you're not hideous, there's always someone worse than you. People are cruel, they say mean things, but they don't mean it. Their taking out their anger and stress out on you, and that's not fair or right, but it happens all the time.
Stay strong. Remember theres always someone who cares about you.

No...

Whats up my immortal, do you need to rant? My inbox is always open if you do.