by geinkotsu » Sat Sep 11, 2010 10:07 pm
Kyrasael sighed when he thought he was finally off on his own. His heart slowly shattered in his chest, hidden away by skin and silky black fur. He should have kept his mouth shut… or at least gone about his usual personality around them. He didn’t want to be attached. He didn’t want to feel the burden of pain that came with it. Kyrasael lowered his head, nose sniffing the ground as his eyes trailing up to the trees.
But he was interrupted in his thoughts by something touching his tail. He immediately stopped and his head turned back. Kirsten… He stared at her with his golden yellow eyes. But his gaze fell away when she said to him that she wished to know what he wanted to say to her. What a mess… Kyrasael looked away eyes lingering on the floor for some time. “If that is what you want…” He whispered in reply. Kyrasael turned to face her, sitting down, head held high. But his eyes held hesitation, longing…
He held his silence for a while, as if to gather the courage or to find the words to string together. He gazed into her eyes that reflected like a pool of green jewels, his sights unfaltering. “Kirsten, ever since the day I saw you… I knew I would fall for you… and I have. It is the only reason I stayed so long… because I was selfish and wanted to stay. But I am afraid if I stay I will bring along with me my past and it will hurt you and the pack. My past is not a memory, it is a vile monster that pushes at my back and steers my path. I do not want anything to harm you. I couldn’t live with myself if anything happened to you because of me… Kirsten… I love you…”
Tears finally began to gather in his eyes. Memories and feelings he had locked away bubbling up to the surface. His love, his fear, his sadness, his hatred, the feel for revenge. All of it came crashing back to him at once. And his tears overflowed, falling down his face and dripping to the ground.
((Le gasp~! lol, I love this twist <3. OOooo, I wonder what I should twist into his past to make it as cruel and as gruesome as possible... *rubs hands together and plots mass evil in background))