|TheComfortCorner| v.2

[c a l a m i t y]

So.. this sounds stupid and I know you guys have no proof of this so most of you won't even believe me but..
Today is Halloween {That's not it. x3} and I've been here, in the Children's Hospital/Ronald McDonald House since last night and found out I need to stay another night for more tests and crap like that tomorrow and I'm missing almost three days of this Halloween event and can't possibly get online enough to get all the candy I need to get all the pets and items/outcomes because I will be spending most of tomorrow getting blood tests, x-rays, MRI's and exams. xC So, if anybody is able to help me out with the tokens, maybe..?

Also, I've gotten to have another visit with the police yesterday. .-. In the ER with my mom. Because my dad beat her in the driveway when she was going to leave to pick me up for my appointment from school early {The place we are staying in is 2 hours from home.} for no reason. Restraining order for 5 days was placed. My dad went to jail for it but bailed for whatever before he even got there. So.. yeah. x3 hug?

-Hugs and squishes-I will try to get some stuff you you!

[ghostley.]

♔

i know i'm stupid
i know i have add
i know i'm failing high school &&
i am trying, you know i am
you know that i'm getting better
well, at least trying to
yet you continue to bash me for my grades
i'm already bawling my eyes out
it makes me wasn't to die
when you yell at me for my grades
tell me that you aren't
then say
"do any of the other kids fail class?
huh?? do any of them doodle
stupid pointless, meaningless,
drawings that won't get them anywhere in life?"
some do, yes
i don't doodle in class anymore
stop hurting me
please
you don't know how much i want to
cry each day
you don't know how much
i sit in class
praying to god for love
for someone who cares
because obviously you don't,
mom

[nagema]

So.. this sounds stupid and I know you guys have no proof of this so most of you won't even believe me but..
Today is Halloween {That's not it. x3} and I've been here, in the Children's Hospital/Ronald McDonald House since last night and found out I need to stay another night for more tests and crap like that tomorrow and I'm missing almost three days of this Halloween event and can't possibly get online enough to get all the candy I need to get all the pets and items/outcomes because I will be spending most of tomorrow getting blood tests, x-rays, MRI's and exams. xC So, if anybody is able to help me out with the tokens, maybe..?

Also, I've gotten to have another visit with the police yesterday. .-. In the ER with my mom. Because my dad beat her in the driveway when she was going to leave to pick me up for my appointment from school early {The place we are staying in is 2 hours from home.} for no reason. Restraining order for 5 days was placed. My dad went to jail for it but bailed for whatever before he even got there. So.. yeah. x3 hug?

-Hugs and squishes-I will try to get some stuff you you!

Thank you so much. <3
I just finished updating my wishlist with everything I'm missing. x3
I've been pretty caught up on everything up until yesterday, and even
just 1-3 of each token would do so much for me... ♥ I need bats most
right now I think. I'm just trying to deal with everything else in life and
am hoping for the best results from the doctor tomorrow. x3

*Hates blood work and needles* ugh. My mom said either way, I'll probably
need to have surgery again and now I'm falling behind in school again. I hate this. xC
We were expecting to go home tomorrow and I was supposed to finish my math test but.. *shrugs*

[mandalorian]

.. My cat ran away last night.. D:
And now i'm freaking out because there are coyotes where I live and shes not a outside cat.. I've had her since I was little, I would die if anything happened to her.

Still not back.. ugh.

[elliej1995]

I dont know what to do...
Im in college 3 hours away from home without a car.
The group of girls I hung out with at the beginning of the semester dont even talk to me anymore and one is my roommate.
The one other friend I made outside of them is a commuter that lives at least 45 minutes from campus.
I have headaches a lot lately
Im hungry but when i go to dinner I can only eat a few bites before I feel sick to my stomach.
Campus is in a small rural town so we dont have anything other than a Subway, McDonalds, and Dollar Store.
I can't go to a school closer to home because my major isnt very common and only 3 schools in my state have it.
All I do is go to classes and then sit in my room.

I dont want to drop out and disappoint my family but I dont know if I can go another semester feeling like this.....

[ghostley.]

♔

i'm crying again
why can't anyone just love me for me
instead of pointing out all my flaws?
now i have to sit here in darkness
because that's probably the only thing
that appreciates by presence

[nyah,]

♔

i'm crying again
why can't anyone just love me for me
instead of pointing out all my flaws?
now i have to sit here in darkness
because that's probably the only thing
that appreciates by presence

aw, sweetheart
we all love you, i love you c:
they're just jealous of you, and i mean it
they wish they were as beautiful and as unique as you
don't let the bullies bring you down
because we all believe that you are perfect.

[ghostley.]

♔

it feels like my heart has been ripped out
i want to die
my mom hates me because i'm stupid
my classmates all of a sudden turned on me &&
harass me for no reason
here on cs people just look at me as dirt
i'm extremely stressed because of about a thousand
personal issues
my head is now in excruciating pain from tears
crying is going to be my death
why don't i just lock myself if in bathroom?
nobody will notice i'm gone
nobody will even care
this mental pain is indescribable
tears and salt are now dripping down my face
continuous lies are told to me:
"oh i love you! i'd care if you died or moved!
i won't judge you for you!
you can
trust
me."
i......i.......
have no purpose
my only friend right now is god:
even my dog will avoid me
what did i do?
why am i the massive disappointment in everyone's life?
why can't i just be told for once that someone loves me? &&
it not be sympathetic lies?
why can't i have friends and family who love me
just like everyone else does
i wish i were dead right now
because then
nobody will care
yes, nobody
not even me
because i won't have to deal with anyone
ever again

[Cosmi]

I hope my friend didn't stand me up.
She was suppose to call a long time ago.
I was just... looking forward to this so much.

[Banette~]

First of all, whenever I work really hard on my form for a give-away, something always goes wrong with the pet I'm entering for. I enter for a prized dream pet- they end without a winner. I enter another give-away- don't realize that I have to send a freakin' trade, and when I go to do that, they've already traded it off to someone else. And that person didn't even enter the give-away. Plus, it's in their trade group. I mean, can't I enter a give-away for once, work hard on my form, and actually get judged on it? Without them trading the pet away, or closing it? I know, it's their pet, their decision, but still.... I have the worst luck.

More good news; my anorexia is getting worse. Just when I thought I had it under control, I have to go bonkers again. Now, I can't even make myself eat the banana that I used to eat in my lunch, or a small bag of 94% reduced fat microwaveable popcorn. Not even a glass of milk. No, I can't even do that. A few weeks ago, I was losing a pound a week; somehow, last weekend, the scale said I had gained a pound. Truth is, that scale isn't always that reliable, but seeing that broke my resistance. Now it's back to being hungry for nearly two hours before supper, and going to bed with an empty, growling, aching stomach. Now, when I get hungry she just wants to nap, I'm going to get angry again, and on the verge of tears. Why? I don't know. It consumes me. And I wonder if I've lost that one pound I supposedly gained.... probably. Probably lost more. I was doing so good, not losing as much.... now I'm probably going to end up with a dietician. They'll probably lecture me on how I'm not eating nearly enough... and they will make me gain weight again. As if my self esteem wasn't low enough already. Wow, I think I may be finally losing it. How sane was I before, I have no clue. But now... there's junk food everywhere, desserts everywhere. Watching her eat all that horrible, heavenly tasting junk... that will be the death of me. If I get even one bite of something bad like candy or dessert, I won't be able to stop. Hilarious, how I used to eat so much dessert and junk food, and now just the sight of it makes me curl up into a defense-less ball... nobody understands. Even after telling her, she still thinks I can just stop thinking about it. That I can just stop, and go back to normal. That I could eat a cupcake without feeling a tremendous sense of guilt, without making myself go hungry to make up for the extra calories I consumed. That I could go to a party without any anxiety, without having to lie about my stomach hurting, or how I had a big lunch and am full when I'm really not. Nobody understands. Funny, how I managed to ruin my own life in such a short amount of time... if anybody has advice, I would appreciate it. Preferably from someone who has gone through this, or can at least try to understand, and not think I'm insane. Thanks.