Write a Letter you Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[chick magnet]

Dear Mom,

I don't understand you at all. First you say you love me, and are all smiles...and then your cold as ice the next. You want me to grow up, and get a job, when I'm still trying to make sense of everything. I always thought everything was so crystal clear....I wanted to be a veterinarian. Graduate early, and intern at a local veterinarian clinic, but now everything seems so foggy and I'm not sure what to do with my life anymore. I'm so depressed all the time, and I know that when you lecture me and scream at me when I expose another ugly problem I have, you're wondering why I'm not the perfect trophy daughter that you wanted me to be. Careful years of training me up, only to have me turn out to be an ugly mess? I don't know what to say anymore, but don't worry, mom. I'll move out soon enough, and I won't be a burden to you anymore.
I wish I could have been your perfect daughter.
- S

Dear Dad,
I'll always love you, even though I shouldn't. I should hate you, and never want to see you again, but I wish I could so badly that it's eating away at me. I think I'm not bitter and angry about you leaving because at the time you left, I was only a small child who barely knew you, yet I remember the idea of a dad. I remember certain things that you did, and how you weren't there most of the time because you had work overseas and how I thought it was gross how you and Mom hugged all the time, and I used to squeeze in-between you to try and break you two apart. I was so hurt when you left, and I wonder if you miss your four children, two who never knew you, and now call a different man their dad. And the other...my younger brother who still misses you, even though he doesn't show it. He's so bitter, Dad. When he and I fight, sometimes he breaks down and yells about how you weren't there, and I see the genuine pain he goes through even though he's so young.
I need to come to terms with the fact that you aren't coming back and you never will.
You'll always be my daddy, even if I never got to know you.
-S

Dear N,
I love you and I have the feeling the affection is mutual. We only got to see each other once at camp last year but I fell in love at first sight. You weren't the cutest guy there, and I don't say this to be rude, but I say this because I fell in love with your personality more than anything else and that's pretty special to me. I love your nervous twitch that happens when you smile, or when you talk. I loved how you danced with me when we were paired up for dancing lessons and how you were too embarrassed to ask me to dance the next day. I could see you watching me from across the room. And I loved how on the last day of camp you complained because I didn't give you a 'full hug' from the front. I ended up hugging you three times before I left. But you know what I hate? I hate that I'll never be able to tell you I love you, because...how do you tell someone that? I'm not 100% sure of your feelings for me so for now...I guess I'll never be able to tell you. I'm so sorry that I felt that I had to mask my own insecurities about you by teasing my best friend who also had a crush on you. Funny enough, I wasn't jealous at all. I just...I really do love you, and I'm sorry I won't be able to ever tell you that.
-S

[Wesley]

Dear _______,
Dude. Why do you wait for at least 30 minutes to respond to me?
It kills me when you go to bed without saying goodnight.
I'm really attached to you.
Do you not see that?
Maybe I'm crazy. —A

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Dear ___, _____, and _____,
Why don't we talk anymore like we used to? I always did feel like the outsider in our friend group, because I know that I wasn't ever able to get online as much as you guys. But I love you guys so much, it's crazy. I can't believe I have this kind of connection to people I've never met. It's just that, we've talked about everything. Insignificant things and significant things alike. ___, you know everything about my love-life right now. And _____, you shared with us all of your struggles. I'm glad that you still occasionally ask me for advice. You're such a sweetheart. Lastly, _____, I know you never did like me as much as the others. But I was there for you when your real life friends betrayed you, and I miss talking to you. You're a really unique person, and I love that. I miss you guys so much, even though you're all right here. Why aren't we close like this anymore? No more deep, late-night conversations? Staying up until 2 am together on a chatzy? CS truth or dare? :c
Love you guys <3 —Wes

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Dear ______,
Court. You went to court. That's how far you took it, just to get away from this godforsaken school?? I applaud you for that. Please take me with you. You're my only friend left here. You're one of just four people keeping me from falling into full depression, do you understand that? We've had our ups and downs. Yeah, I remember that conflict we had back in grade 1. And in 5th grade, you sent me an email telling me I was a suck up that everyone hated.
In 6th grade, you banded together with all of my 'friends' and excluded me, stealing away my best friend.
Now we're close. Texting and lab partners and and I'm going to miss you, okay?
I'm happy for you that you get to transfer.
Take me with you.
Love you, KK. <3
—A

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Dear ____'_____,
Do you remember when you promised to text me on your first day of school and tell me how it went? I'm supposed to know all about your crush by now!

We were friends, on and off of the court. We played basketball together, volleyball together. Volleyball, our winning streak, it was crazy! And basketball? We lost so much that it wasn't even funny! I didn't realize you meant so much to me until, with hysterical tears streaming down my face, I had to say goodbye.
We haven't even talked since! We have so much in common. It's a shame to lose you. Love you, girl <3
—A

[pillowsandcake]

Dear Girls,
I'm not a wh*re, I just hang out with guys. I don't flirt with them, anything, yet you call me these names. I hang out with them because they aren't dramatic. They don't call me those names. They accept me as their friend, not a target to pick on. In their eyes, I am one of them. Not judged on what I wear, or my hairstyle. They are fun to be around. So shut up and leave me alone.

[Tripp]

Dear, ________

We have spent six years together. We have seen each others hardships, and high points. We have even shoved it in peoples faces about things. Your an amazing father, and person. But I have noticed you drifting away. You show less interest in whats going on with us and more of an interest in things they you'd rather do alone or with our son. I feel as if this relationship holds no real love anymore. If you are bored of us, or rather me. For the love of god, just tell me. Stop putting me throw depression and anxiety. I understand how much of a pain in the as$ i can be, we have talked about my ptsd as well. Just wish you were more up-front with me about the issues that seem to draw you away.

~that guy whos slowly becoming a memory

[selenite.]

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dear J,
I had a dream last night about the first time you asked me out.
Wait no,
you never really did as me out...
But that night when you texted me "we should date" (yeah so romantic js)
well I was so shaky, I didn't want a boyfriend, especially you.
I didn't want to loose you if we broke up, I couldn't.
However, at the time I was so afraid to say no, I know you hate asking people out
You're always afraid they were going to say no...like the girl you asked out last year.
When I heard she said no I felt so bad, I just wanted to give you a hug..But really
we weren't off to fantastic terms as it was.
Anyway, it was relieving I got around your question, I was able to lead you away from
the topic.
and then I remembered how you came over the next day..
It was weird, despite the night before I felt completely comfortable around you.
In our silence, everything, and it was the first time you even came over.
And how you dragged me over to the bean bag because it looked so comfortable.
I was actually okay with you putting your arm around me.
And over time, how it just escalated, and we just started dating.
and i'm okay with it.
Because now, I'm in love with you.
And your everything, and I hope to wake up in your arms one day.
And go to sleep watching your perfection glow in the dark.
xx.

[Wesley]

Dear ________,
Don't you understand that I'm always there for you? Why don't you tell me things anymore? It's really important to me that we talk... I tell you everything. You know all about me, except for these thoughts right here, the ones saying that you've forgotten about me. I don't want to be right about this. Did I do anything to lose your trust?
—A

[Sandra Dee;]

Dear _____,
I want you to understand that, no matter how much I spend time with D., that your still my bestfriend . Sometimes, when I try to talk about him with you, you just ingore me or get this look on your face that says 'I really dont care about what you have to say about him' . I just want to talk about him sometimes . You of all people should know how it is to have a boyfriend . You say, oh well, I dont like anybody, but then get on to me like im making you jealous or something . This is my first boyfriend, and you know that . So forgive me when I talk about him, when I spend time with him, or anything else, because I love him, and he loves me . Sometimes I just want to talk about him, and how awesome he is, and how I wish we could spend more time together, and stuff like that . I love him, ok . Please, pkease, please understand .
Your im-love bestfriend,
Mira

[Wesley]

Dear _______,
Do you even have any idea how angry you make me sometimes? You don't think before you speak, and that bothers me.
God, I hate myself for hinting at anything.
I don't want you in that way. I just wanted you to stop ignoring me.
Please stop obsessively texting me.
If you ask me out, I'm saying no. My heart belongs to someone else. I seriously love him.
And the remark you made about gay rights... I have the right to believe that love is love, we can agree to disagree, but you had better have an accurate reason as to why you don't support it.
Don't just tell me you "hate gay people."
You know what I hate, _______?
You.
—A

[lululizzy23]

dear friend,
i've always been there for you
even when i could hardly breathe
but whenever i need help
you turn away and give me the cold shoulder
why?
-lulu

dear K___,
i understand that every girl in school obsesses over you
and i think the only reason you flirted with me is because i didn't seem interested
well i am
extremely interested in everything about you
you are just too blind to see that
but i've fallen head over heels for you
and now, you saying that you won't be on the bus
it hurts me
because that was the only time i could talk to you without M____ interrupting us
please tell me you'll stay
for me
i know you like me
at least i think i know
but i like you
a lot
just please don't let me down
i've had my heart broken enough these past years
all by boys like you
with their pretty faces
and cute smiles
i've never had a boyfriend
but you don't need to be dating them for them to break you
you're doing that to me
-S

[Wesley]

Dear _____,
If I have to sit though one more composition class period full of you telling me how gorgeous she is and how much you miss her, I might bite off your head.
--A