Crushes, Boyfriends, and Girlfriends | V4

[kaminari]

Okay, I need some help, I guess...
So I there's thus guy I've been best friends with for about four or five years, and I um... kinda started to like him... a lot.... He lives a few states away, like 14 hours, so I see him about once or twice a year. Despite that, we still keep in touch really well. Anyway, I get to see him tommorow for the first time in a year, and I should be excited, but I'm really freaking scared... meep

[tennisbutt]

Okay, I need some help, I guess...
So I there's thus guy I've been best friends with for about four or five years, and I um... kinda started to like him... a lot.... He lives a few states away, like 14 hours, so I see him about once or twice a year. Despite that, we still keep in touch really well. Anyway, I get to see him tommorow for the first time in a year, and I should be excited, but I'm really freaking scared... meep

I'm not sure if this'll help as I'm new to this advice stuff but I kind of had this problem before with this guy from tennis as I had moved and I only really saw him in the holidays and sometimes not at all but I'm not sure if you're looking for him to ask you out but since you're already really good friends just enjoy it and make the most of your time c:

[hiraethe]

this is more of a very extremely long rant i suppose. or personal clarification.. sorry about that.
though if anyone has any thoughts, that would be really appreciated. but feel free to ignore.

*sigh* things are now very confuddling. so i have this guy (pick the random letter of j) who i have liked for about 6 months. and after a rather revealing internet convo about 3 months ago (i met him at a on-time event and haven't actually met him since as we are both very busy) told me he liked me as well. and although we're definitely not going out at the moment i thought we probably would end up finding a regular time we could catch up with another mutual friend even if that was only once a month or something similar. and maybe end up going out. but then. he hasn't been online for nearly a month and we were going to find a day where we could actually see eachother during the holidays which are now over and i'm worried, although it may not be his fault. he may have gotten grounded or someone hacked his internet or he got dragged with his parents to some ranch in the middle of nowhere. i don't know. but the thing is he didn't say anything about it. at all.

now for the confuddling bit. a week ago i realized that i really don't care. i don't like him so much anymore. i don't know if that's because i don't know what's happened and why he's not online, and if i'll like him again if he comes online tomorrow and apologizes that he couldn't even tell me why he wasn't going to be online, because he was abducted by aliens. or something else. i suspect it's some of both. or that i just like this other guy more.

cue further complications - guy #2! (say, m). so two or so weeks ago i met (uh, re-met?) m who used to be in one of my extra-school classes and was the youth leader (with me as deputy) until last year when he turned too old to stay. instead of linking to the next group up he quit the class altogether. i did like him some at the time but tried not to get to like him too much because he almost definitely didn't like me and i knew that he wouldn't be coming back once he left. problem being he just came back. we had a group camp and we were short on numbers so him being the teacher's son he tagged along even though he's not a part of the group anymore. and he seemed to treat me differently to when he was. could be 'cos i took over when he left and i'm not a proper leader; one of the leaders' club? but it's just like we're so similar in so many aspects. we're both the tallest (he's tallest; i'm second) we're both the strongest (i haven't arm-wrestled him but i think he just might be stronger, being a year-and-a-half older and playing sport like he does) and we're very competitive. we can both shout really loud though he usually uses his talent all the time whereas i only use it when necessary. we're both very competitive; hence the shouting competitions! neither of us get cold very easily; we can sit in a short-sleeved shirt on a 40-degree night without getting cold, when everyone else is in about 2 windcheaters and still freezing. oh yes, and we both like the top bunk on bunk beds.

so on the camp i was next to m on the two-person-wide top bunk. rather nice. sharing candy and flint-and-steels (oh ye, we're both pyromaniacs). i was sitting on the end of the bunk (because it doesn't have rails at the foot) playing with my flint and he told me to shove over so that he could do the same. and then he asked if he could try my flint and then decided that he thought he liked it better and stole it for the rest of the camp. i got his of course.
and one night we were all playing cards (by candlelight.. because.) and he was sitting next to me and he kept blowing on my candle to be annoying, but not actually enough to put it out. just enough so that i couldn't read my cards, of course. and he was poking me, also to be annoying. he started because i didn't realize that it was my turn and so he poked me on the arm as in ' it's your turn' but he started randomly poking me as well after that.
seemed like we were general friends for the whole camp. i think we make a good pair of leaders. we work really well together.
and he said he might be coming back to the group for his age next year, having had a year's break. which would be the same time i link to the same group.
he definitely enjoyed the camp. i'm pretty sure he wants to come to camps all the time but his dad doesn't let him. he was like 'well i'll come to the next sleepover' and then his dad gave him a look and he added 'for the first hour or two maybe?'
now the great debate starts all over. he likes me, he likes me not..

but all of this leads back to j. he still likes me, i guess. hell, before he liked me enough to reject two other very pretty girls (prettier than me) who asked him out. and i think i like him as well. and i think we have something. but.. at the moment he's just gone and disappeared on me. and i don't know what to think.

ahh that feels better..

Okay, I need some help, I guess...
So I there's thus guy I've been best friends with for about four or five years, and I um... kinda started to like him... a lot.... He lives a few states away, like 14 hours, so I see him about once or twice a year. Despite that, we still keep in touch really well. Anyway, I get to see him tommorow for the first time in a year, and I should be excited, but I'm really freaking scared... meep

I'm not sure if this'll help as I'm new to this advice stuff but I kind of had this problem before with this guy from tennis as I had moved and I only really saw him in the holidays and sometimes not at all but I'm not sure if you're looking for him to ask you out but since you're already really good friends just enjoy it and make the most of your time c:

pretty much. it can work if you both really want it to. skype is good c;

[thunderofthedrum]

Ah yes, new thread smell. Like fresh sheets. c:

My boyfriend is going to be at camp for 12 days, with no phone. :c when he gets back, he'll have marching band practice monday-friday, 2 to 5pm, and he'll be at his moms during the weekend. After that, he has marching band camp. Dx when he's done, he'll have somewhere around 2 days of summer left, and we're going to different high schools. Ughhhh. :c
he also has a huge secret yo tell me the text time we hang out. He usually only tells his girlfriends after 3 months, but we've only been dating a month. He said he trusts me more than anyone else. <3

I find this weird. Why would he be talking about some 'huge secret' and I'm wondering what it would be if he has already told multiple other girlfriends. That's great that he trusts you, but this whole secret thing smells weird to me and a little suspicious.

Also, is that seriously how short the band practices are?! I had band practice like 8am - 6pm !!!!! Only three hours is RIDICULOUS to me. O___o'
-is still bitter-
-this many years later-
And they wonder why I didn't sign up again my senior year. xD I ENJOYED MY SLEEP, THANKS.

Camp isn't the end of the world. My boyfriend's phone is broken (apparently it got rained on) and I wasn't able to see him for 3 weeks due to my schedule right now and being out of town on the weekends so we haven't even hardly talked the past week or two. And yeah, it sucks. But then each day ends, just like the previous did, and you are that much closer to seeing him. Besides, as I mentioned, 2-5 pm is NOTHING; that leaves PLENTY of time to see each other. You guys could get lunch together or hang out in the evenings. Marching band is the kind of thing where you practice hard while you're there but there's not much work to do at home unless you want to practice the music.

[amethyst,]

Oh wise people of CS! Save me from my confusion!!
I met this guy at band camp last year... first impression = geekyawkward but we got to know each other a little better and I thought he was a nice guy.
AND THEN he magically turns up in my orchestra.... so we became really good friends. And yeah fast forward a couple of months later I realised I liked him.... Quite a lot. O.O but I didn't speak up because I wasn't sure if it was long term or anything or if I was just being ridiculous. Well the feels stayed on, but at the same time we became really close (friend-wise)... I looked forward to orchestra more than anything every week, and it was awesome... until he decided, the musician that he is, to go to the state band and leave us. We then decided to meet up during the holidays, where my friends and I first saw more positive signs from him. He leaned his head against mine, offered to shout me lunch, ridiculously long/tight goodbye-hug, etc, etc. So YAY, right?
Sort of.
The holidays ended and we both had such busy schedules such that we didn't have time to see each other again for six months... but we kept near-daily contact over facebook so it wasn't so bad... we had a couple of interesting dnm sessions (why do girls post selfies saying that they're ugly, what makes a good hug), and yeah. Though someone tell me what it meant when he told me about his past interests? D:

The next time we saw each other was band camp this year (end of june). He asked me over fb beforehand if he'd get a hug when we saw each other, and :3333333 feeeeeels
We actually ended up having the same rec time, meaning we got to see each other every day and essentially hang out for an hour and a half without interruptions. We got even closer over camp, and had several more dnm discussions, and he got to know my friends and he and his friends came to hang out with us. At some point we were watching a movie and we were sitting together and he started doing that dude thing were they jiggle their leg up and down..... anyway i got slightly annoyed so I put my palm on his knee in an attempt to get him to stop... instead he looked at me and kept going, and he laughed and IDK HOW THIS HAPPENED but somehow I ended up with my legs slung across his knee... he finally stopped moving and just smiled at me. EEEEEEEE *swoon*
Fast forward to more important bits. End of camp concert, we swapped jackets, and later he lent me his.. Also offered me lipbalm when I mentioned that I'd forgotten mine. (note: I did not accept. I like the guy, we're tight, but that's still kinda weird)
Camp concluded with several warm/long/tight/ZOMGAMAZING hugs, and he asked if we were to meet up in the hols.
So anyway we did meet in the hols, and it was so much fun, I had a really good time and he told me he did as well, as did the others who were there. Again, several gazillion positive signs, eg repetition of leg-slinging, almost-back-hug as a result of tickling game, etc.
HOWEVER.
THERE IS. A CATCH.
dun dun duuuun.
While we were on the train together (just us two), we were having a discussion about a guy we both knew who liked me. He then proceeded to tell me, with my legs on his knee and his arm half-around me about A GIRL AT SCHOOL THAT HE LIKES.
So I was very confused... he started asking me for advice, how do I talk to her? she's so beautiful, I find it hard to say anything, blahblahblah... I wasn't really paying attention at the time, I'm ashamed to say. Anyhows once that conversation faded away he had to make it more awkward and ask me who I liked.... I tried to evade the question and begged the right to remain silent but he persisted.... and asked if he knew the guy. I didn't have enough time to come up with a witty answer of sorts, so I said yes, yes you do. Then he essentially reacted the same way I did when he mentioned the other girl (who I know for a fact isn't some sort of story). WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? D:
Just to confuse things further on the way home it was essentially the same setting + my bestie.... And it was like none of that ever happened, we were just laughing and doing tongue twisters and it was really... er... close? I guess? and when we had to go we hugged (report from bestie was that it was something like a 30 second hug)... and then I moved to go and he PULLED ME BACK... and after that one we hugged again... and I was like, okay, I really need to go now... *walks away* and he did the cliche thing where you hold onto each other, stretching out your arms until you're juuuuuust holding hands... *swoons*. But that mystery girl still bamboozles me completely.
Lastly we're seeing each other at a band eisteddfod next monday and his bestie (who I'm friends with) says I should let him know how I feel because it'll be worse for our friendship if I don't... I know when my close guy friend did that I was really shocked/hurt for ages, so i can kinda see her point. But at the same time I know he likes someone else... But if there's something I value most it would be our friendship.. I don't know what I'd do without him... and from what I've heard he's started to suspect me. I just don't want to ruin anything. Also I can't have a bf until I finish school (two years) so I'm not sure if I should wait till then?
Thoughts? Advice? Something? HELPPPPP D:

...okayy I am so sorry O.O obviously have not been talking to enough people about this issue lately.

girl... HE'S GIVING YOU THE SIGNS!!!in my humble opinion, you need to tell him how you feel about him. and the other people who have said the girl could be fake are possibly correct. he could have been talking to his bestie about it to make his story seem more real. and it is possible to like more than one girl at a time. i think he likes you, or at least that's how it seems. anyway, my point is, TELL HIM. and you guys could secretly date. O.O

[Lya]

Oh wise people of CS! Save me from my confusion!!
I met this guy at band camp last year... first impression = geekyawkward but we got to know each other a little better and I thought he was a nice guy.
AND THEN he magically turns up in my orchestra.... so we became really good friends. And yeah fast forward a couple of months later I realised I liked him.... Quite a lot. O.O but I didn't speak up because I wasn't sure if it was long term or anything or if I was just being ridiculous. Well the feels stayed on, but at the same time we became really close (friend-wise)... I looked forward to orchestra more than anything every week, and it was awesome... until he decided, the musician that he is, to go to the state band and leave us. We then decided to meet up during the holidays, where my friends and I first saw more positive signs from him. He leaned his head against mine, offered to shout me lunch, ridiculously long/tight goodbye-hug, etc, etc. So YAY, right?
Sort of.
The holidays ended and we both had such busy schedules such that we didn't have time to see each other again for six months... but we kept near-daily contact over facebook so it wasn't so bad... we had a couple of interesting dnm sessions (why do girls post selfies saying that they're ugly, what makes a good hug), and yeah. Though someone tell me what it meant when he told me about his past interests? D:

The next time we saw each other was band camp this year (end of june). He asked me over fb beforehand if he'd get a hug when we saw each other, and :3333333 feeeeeels
We actually ended up having the same rec time, meaning we got to see each other every day and essentially hang out for an hour and a half without interruptions. We got even closer over camp, and had several more dnm discussions, and he got to know my friends and he and his friends came to hang out with us. At some point we were watching a movie and we were sitting together and he started doing that dude thing were they jiggle their leg up and down..... anyway i got slightly annoyed so I put my palm on his knee in an attempt to get him to stop... instead he looked at me and kept going, and he laughed and IDK HOW THIS HAPPENED but somehow I ended up with my legs slung across his knee... he finally stopped moving and just smiled at me. EEEEEEEE *swoon*
Fast forward to more important bits. End of camp concert, we swapped jackets, and later he lent me his.. Also offered me lipbalm when I mentioned that I'd forgotten mine. (note: I did not accept. I like the guy, we're tight, but that's still kinda weird)
Camp concluded with several warm/long/tight/ZOMGAMAZING hugs, and he asked if we were to meet up in the hols.
So anyway we did meet in the hols, and it was so much fun, I had a really good time and he told me he did as well, as did the others who were there. Again, several gazillion positive signs, eg repetition of leg-slinging, almost-back-hug as a result of tickling game, etc.
HOWEVER.
THERE IS. A CATCH.
dun dun duuuun.
While we were on the train together (just us two), we were having a discussion about a guy we both knew who liked me. He then proceeded to tell me, with my legs on his knee and his arm half-around me about A GIRL AT SCHOOL THAT HE LIKES.
So I was very confused... he started asking me for advice, how do I talk to her? she's so beautiful, I find it hard to say anything, blahblahblah... I wasn't really paying attention at the time, I'm ashamed to say. Anyhows once that conversation faded away he had to make it more awkward and ask me who I liked.... I tried to evade the question and begged the right to remain silent but he persisted.... and asked if he knew the guy. I didn't have enough time to come up with a witty answer of sorts, so I said yes, yes you do. Then he essentially reacted the same way I did when he mentioned the other girl (who I know for a fact isn't some sort of story). WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? D:
Just to confuse things further on the way home it was essentially the same setting + my bestie.... And it was like none of that ever happened, we were just laughing and doing tongue twisters and it was really... er... close? I guess? and when we had to go we hugged (report from bestie was that it was something like a 30 second hug)... and then I moved to go and he PULLED ME BACK... and after that one we hugged again... and I was like, okay, I really need to go now... *walks away* and he did the cliche thing where you hold onto each other, stretching out your arms until you're juuuuuust holding hands... *swoons*. But that mystery girl still bamboozles me completely.
Lastly we're seeing each other at a band eisteddfod next monday and his bestie (who I'm friends with) says I should let him know how I feel because it'll be worse for our friendship if I don't... I know when my close guy friend did that I was really shocked/hurt for ages, so i can kinda see her point. But at the same time I know he likes someone else... But if there's something I value most it would be our friendship.. I don't know what I'd do without him... and from what I've heard he's started to suspect me. I just don't want to ruin anything. Also I can't have a bf until I finish school (two years) so I'm not sure if I should wait till then?
Thoughts? Advice? Something? HELPPPPP D:

...okayy I am so sorry O.O obviously have not been talking to enough people about this issue lately.

If you ask me, you should only talk to him about it if you feel like it's damaging your friendship. I have been in a similar situation with by best friend. I was (and am) deeply in love with him, but very early in our friendship we were having a conversation about how neither of us would sacrifice an important friendship for the possibilty of love, so I pretty much had to keep silent about my growing feelings for him. Long story short, due to certain circumstances, I felt forced to confess to him - not because I thought I had a chance (which I never had and still don't have) but because it would have destroyed our friendship completely had I kept silent any longer. Now, it has taken half a year but we are on a normal basis again. (After he broke up with his girlfriend which nobody knew of, but who has partially a reason why he rejected me - at least that's what he told me.)
I'm just saying, what I see right now from your story is that he might have feelings for you, but you're too precious for him and/or he likes the other girl more.
If he really likes the other girl, then it's only you who has to know if you feel like you're able to surpress your emotions and smile at them if they actually get together, or if it's better for you to confess to him. In any case, if you confess to him because you feel pressured into it because he told you he likes another girl, then I, personally, would tell him right that and give him the reason why I felt like I needed to confess now. Make clear what intentions you have with your confession - if you want him to think about your feeling and if he feels the same, or if you want to save your friendship - whatever is the case when you confess.
If you confess and he really cares about you, you will eventually be able to remain friends (if he doesn't return your feelings that is - but that would lead to an even more positive outcome, right?).

[bast,]

Ah yes, new thread smell. Like fresh sheets. c:

My boyfriend is going to be at camp for 12 days, with no phone. :c when he gets back, he'll have marching band practice monday-friday, 2 to 5pm, and he'll be at his moms during the weekend. After that, he has marching band camp. Dx when he's done, he'll have somewhere around 2 days of summer left, and we're going to different high schools. Ughhhh. :c
he also has a huge secret yo tell me the text time we hang out. He usually only tells his girlfriends after 3 months, but we've only been dating a month. He said he trusts me more than anyone else. <3

I find this weird. Why would he be talking about some 'huge secret' and I'm wondering what it would be if he has already told multiple other girlfriends. That's great that he trusts you, but this whole secret thing smells weird to me and a little suspicious.

Also, is that seriously how short the band practices are?! I had band practice like 8am - 6pm !!!!! Only three hours is RIDICULOUS to me. O___o'
-is still bitter-
-this many years later-
And they wonder why I didn't sign up again my senior year. xD I ENJOYED MY SLEEP, THANKS.

Camp isn't the end of the world. My boyfriend's phone is broken (apparently it got rained on) and I wasn't able to see him for 3 weeks due to my schedule right now and being out of town on the weekends so we haven't even hardly talked the past week or two. And yeah, it sucks. But then each day ends, just like the previous did, and you are that much closer to seeing him. Besides, as I mentioned, 2-5 pm is NOTHING; that leaves PLENTY of time to see each other. You guys could get lunch together or hang out in the evenings. Marching band is the kind of thing where you practice hard while you're there but there's not much work to do at home unless you want to practice the music.

Yeah. He's brought it up before, but he wouldn't tell me. When I told him whatever it was, I'm sorry, and he said it's all in the past now. He has thought about suicide before, he's told me, so I have a feeling it has something do do with that. :c

Gah, I typed that wrong. I meant 2-9pm, sorry! That doesn't leave very much room to hang out, unless he want's to hang out for like two hours. :L Also, neither of us can drive yet. So lunch really isn't an option.

[thunderofthedrum]

Ah yes, new thread smell. Like fresh sheets. c:

My boyfriend is going to be at camp for 12 days, with no phone. :c when he gets back, he'll have marching band practice monday-friday, 2 to 5pm, and he'll be at his moms during the weekend. After that, he has marching band camp. Dx when he's done, he'll have somewhere around 2 days of summer left, and we're going to different high schools. Ughhhh. :c
he also has a huge secret yo tell me the text time we hang out. He usually only tells his girlfriends after 3 months, but we've only been dating a month. He said he trusts me more than anyone else. <3

I find this weird. Why would he be talking about some 'huge secret' and I'm wondering what it would be if he has already told multiple other girlfriends. That's great that he trusts you, but this whole secret thing smells weird to me and a little suspicious.

Also, is that seriously how short the band practices are?! I had band practice like 8am - 6pm !!!!! Only three hours is RIDICULOUS to me. O___o'
-is still bitter-
-this many years later-
And they wonder why I didn't sign up again my senior year. xD I ENJOYED MY SLEEP, THANKS.

Camp isn't the end of the world. My boyfriend's phone is broken (apparently it got rained on) and I wasn't able to see him for 3 weeks due to my schedule right now and being out of town on the weekends so we haven't even hardly talked the past week or two. And yeah, it sucks. But then each day ends, just like the previous did, and you are that much closer to seeing him. Besides, as I mentioned, 2-5 pm is NOTHING; that leaves PLENTY of time to see each other. You guys could get lunch together or hang out in the evenings. Marching band is the kind of thing where you practice hard while you're there but there's not much work to do at home unless you want to practice the music.

Yeah. He's brought it up before, but he wouldn't tell me. When I told him whatever it was, I'm sorry, and he said it's all in the past now. He has thought about suicide before, he's told me, so I have a feeling it has something do do with that. :c

Gah, I typed that wrong. I meant 2-9pm, sorry! That doesn't leave very much room to hang out, unless he want's to hang out for like two hours. :L Also, neither of us can drive yet. So lunch really isn't an option.

I don't mean to sound negative/insulting/offensive, but I find it very strange, like getting to know it is a reward for being with him a certain length of time. And that just seems very bizarre and not right. I understand wanting to make sure you can trut someone before you blab your life away, but to have already told you that there IS a secret, that others have been told, and that there is a length of time associated with it.. is really dumb, in my opinion. That's not to say I handle every situation correctly!

You might have to just wait for the weekends to hang out, as much as that sucks. I know you said the weekend between camp and band camp isn't possible due to him staying with his mother, but maybe the weekend after that? Really, in life there are going to be those times where you simply don't have time for fun. I wasn't able to come over to my boyfriend's place for 3 weeks because I've had class every morning and would have to commute a half hour from his place after staying the night. Weekends weren't an option because I've been out of town every weekend, mostly for field work and free time needs to be spend catching animals for this class or studying. We are both adults with vehicles, but it just hasn't been feasible to visit each other during this time. Also, neither of us have any money to be sparing on gas to see each other, and that just plain sucks.

You just.. have to get through it and use that time apart to get you own stuff done, whether it's spending time with other friends, family time, work, chores, projects you've been putting off, whatever. I think it's good for you to experience being apart (as much as it sucks) and using self control to use that time for other things instead of just pining for him. Find at least one productive thing to do every day, and one relaxing thing, such as vacuuming the living room or working on a story you're writing, and then reading a book or hanging out or just pigging out on freshly baked cookies. Setting those little goals will help the time go by.

[Lya]

Ugh... I've been contemplaiting if I should seek advice here for over an hour now, so I guess I should just do so to get it off my mind.

Sooo.... I have been in love with my best friend for one and a half year now. At least I'm only aware of it since then because I only met him two years ago.
Anyway... I kept silent about it 'til february this year, because I didn't want to damage our friendship and because I simply didn't get the feeling that I have any chances with him. ^^" Then, december last year he met this girl from a lower class at our school and he started being with her pretty much, and he told me they talked every single day and he only ever did something with her on the weekends, and I got jealous really badly, causing me to be a pain to be around (I've got a bit of a temperament that nobody was used to) and in the end, when I realised that my jealousy will only damage our friendship, I confessed to him, right before a one-week-holiday started, so I was away from him for a week, being at my mom's, because I knew he would reject me and I needed some alone-time to get over the hurt and not appearing as pathetic as I am in front of those that know me (I kinda hate to appear weak in front of anybody but a chosen few who I trust very deeply). Anyway, when I got back to school, it was really awkward between the two of us - especially because he said he didn't feel anything awkward at all and that I should 'just calm down and relax'. I still don't know if he really didn't feel anything strange or if he was just saying that.
Anyway, while I was dealing with my heartbreak (being rejected hurts a lot even if you saw it coming ;_;) and the consequenses of my confession, there was another guy from my school who helped me through it... and in effect fell in love with me - as if it wasn't complicated enough already. Thing is, heartbroken as I was, I kinda made myself believe I was falling in love with that other boy and only one month after I had confessed to my bf, we got together. That relationship lasted only for a month because my female bestie made me realise that I was only running away from my heartbreak and not really in love with the other guy. (I still feel horrible about that.) So.. I didn't have much contact with my bf apart from in class and when summer holiday started, we didn't have any contact for about seven/eight weeks.
Then, last week on monday, we kinda went around town ('we' meaning my bf, the other guy, some friends and me) and in the end there were only 'my' two boys and me left and we spent the whole night at the riverside. Throughout this whole encounter, my bf was just like always, the awkwardness completely gone and after there were only the three of us left, he actually became really sweet. For example, when it got late, he put his head on my shoulder, until I told him that he could simply lie down in my lap if he was sleepy... which he did - something I never expected because he always kept his distance around me even before my confession, heck, he wouldn't even tickle me when a girl we were both friends with did that to me (I always tickled him together with her however xD), and suddenly he was okay with lying down in my lap; way to confuse me and make me stupidly getting my hopes up again. It was like this the whole night - either he was lying down in my lap or I was lying down in his lap and he actually stroked my hair and held my hand and stuff (I wish he knew what he was doing to me and my poor heart ;_;).
At first I thought that was a one-time-thing, because we hadn't seen each other for a long time and he actually missed me (he told me), but I have met with him in private yesterday again and.. it wasn't any different. He even put his arm around me when we were walking and all the while I'm just like 'calm down, this means nothing, don't get your hopes up, he doesn't see you this way' in my head, especially because he just broke up with his girlfriend (which nobody knew off, because she apperently didn't want anybody to know that she was going out with him) and it would be easily possible that he is just seeking comfort and I'm one of his closest friends...
I don't quite know what to do now. My head tells me that I should not meet up with him if not nesseccary, as to not get my hopes up and crashed again, but truth is, I'm still in love with him and I don't think I can actually stay away from him for too long, especially after half a year of little to no contact.
God, why must love be so complicated?

[Wild.One]

So...there is this guy, lets call him c. He's really cute and nice and cool. He does an event in track with me. He is really good at it too. He's really easy to talk to too! But, he's two years older than me and is alway surrounded by girls. he also goes to a different school. Thing is, I don't want a boyfriend but I do like him, even though I don't have a chance. He's easy to talk to so atleast there is that. But lots of girls like him. They are prettier than me too. help? I'm pretty shy too...