Asuras Journal

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Childhood development

January 1st 1997,

I Was told by momma that i should keep this thing called a Journal, she told m that when i am sad that i should write in it or even when i am feeling happy. She say that when i get older and bee a big boy that i will not has a hard time riting and spelling like i do nao. She sais all adults are good spellers eggcept my papa. She sais she misseds him and tat she wants him to come bak from a place called heaven. I love my momma. I played tag with her and my big sister today but my sister ended up pushing me over and it hurted me a lot.

-Asura

PS, momma sais i should always makes sure i put my name on these

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January 28 1997,

Momma put me in a spelling class so that i would write just a bit better but she said that i need to work on my punctuation and that learning how to write proper words seemed to make me forget how to write in things called commas and periods but im not really sure what they are anymore. Momma said that i am a very good son to her because i got sad the other day when big sissy took away all of my toys and stole my uno cards and she said that you can not play go fish with uno cards but i swear that you can whether sissy says i can or not. She made me sad but when i am older i will be more successful than her

~Asura

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August 22 1997,

I have worked on my punctuation quite a lot lately and have improved quite a bit. I have been starting to get into Japanese culture and art.I really like the pink trees they have that momma calls cherry blossom trees. Sis makes fun of me because I like pink trees and it still hurts my feelings when she calls me names and now she is starting to beat me up more. She threw a walnut at my forhead today and it hit me between the eyes. It hurt me really bad and made me want to cry, but i held in my tears. Besides that everything seems to be just about okay.

~Asura

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February 15, 1999

I seemed to have lost my Journal for quite a long time and I have a lot to write about and i mean a LOT! I lost my first tooth last year i guess i hadnt gotten to write that down ere. Also i have a few new friends but they are kind of mean to me. My mom says i have to get homeschooled from now on because one of my friends at school accidentally ripped of a chunk of my ear when we were play wrestling. When we were wrestling they kept yelling things at me though. I dunno but it was strange. Also sis stopped beating me up when i accidentally fell over on her and im quite a bit bigger than her know. Mom says ive grown to be very big and fluffy in a nice way.Also my sister taught me how to play uno the right way now! That was exciting! Well i have to go to bed now i will write later c:

~Asura

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June 13. 1999

I havent written for a while. I have not been up to writing in this but my friend tells me that i have problems and that i need someone to talk to about it or else i would go crazy. I havent told my friends yet but three months ago momma passed away. Right before she left me she told me that she was going to go live in heaven with papa and that she would be okay and so would i. I have resorted to art and music to keep my mind off of her. I have decided i will have to be a big bean now to take care of sis so that we can both be successful. Sis said everything will be okay and that she is here no matter what but i wont talk to momma around her or she might cry. She gave me this thing called an oreo and said that chocolate helps to sooth sadness and i guess it is kind of true but not all chocolate. I am not too much in the mood for it now so i will talk later. Coping with death is hard. I guess you cant strike a deal with the devil huh?

~Asura

TEEN YEARS

December 25, 2004

Merry Christmas! I found my Journal Again while digging all the oreo wrappers off my floor, whoops! I do not get presents for Xmas but me and my sister spend that day together to celebrate mom and dad instead and that is enough form me. We play uno and we eat oreos so i have a good time. Me and my bros have been working out a bit to beef up so maybe we can get some ladies but it really isnt working out for me they dont seem very interested when my fur is all dirty from running and jaw lifts. I got in a fight with a guy who thought he was tough (And boy he sure was!) and when he asked if i even lifted i told him i lifted oreo cookie wrappers and he called me a lazy punk and tried to beat me up but i put him in his place for sure! Ill write soon!

~Asura

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January 2, 2005

Im thinking about getting rid of this old journal people make fun of me and say its a diary. I am in shape now and people still dont like me so maybe if get rid of this thing they will take me into the cool group too. I am going to stop studying too and think i might start going out to parties more often and maybe they will call me a Party Animal instead of that jerk Chad that always challenges me. They make me run on errands for them a lot and thats how i got in shape. They said when i take initiation i can be one of them and be cool. Ill see what happens they said they like my name. Well I am going to throw this out now, i think ill bury it.

~Asura

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BIG BEAN YEARS

October 31, 2012
I have finally gotten this Journal back from the dead. It took me ages to find it. I dug up every inch of the area in desperacy. I have done quite a bit of growing up, and after reading my old entries i would like you to know Journal, i have changed a lot. I ended up being beat up, and thrown in a river for initiation so i never talked to them again, but that was the past and is highly unimportant to me now. I am a scholar now and am much more intelligent, but I've no one to share my knowledge and love with. I am now 15 years old and this will be my last ever entry, but i will always hold on to this. Last month my sister died and ever since then i had desperately been searching for comfort and this is what i found. Luckily inside i found an old box of oreos and they never seem to go stale so i had some comfort food. Despite this i am mourning for the family i have lost and could almost wish i was more greatful as a child. I am quite lonely and helpless now and long for someone to be my friend, but i lost all of them when i was a young teenager after my mother died and have ever since shut them out. I am now a professional artist in multiple subjects and it is the only way i have to cope with my situation or really anything anymore but i am looking for things to keep me preoccupied. I would love to have someone to talk to out loud now so maybe people could hear my voice just as my mother and sister tried to do. I wish i hadnt been so stubborn. I am sending out an SOS to God if there is one out there. If you see me praying please, i beg of you, bring them back to me. I wish for nothing more than a task as simple as that. Please. Please.

~Yours Truly, Asura Oreo

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