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[Snowseph]

5/22/13
10:39 PM EST

Dear Journal,
Apparently Divine is not going with Neptune. She asked me after Neptune was said to have a date for the prom. I had to reject her since I'm going with Berlin... but we made plans to hang out there.
I have given up on Rayne. I will have to accept that she will never date me. Oh well.

- Neige

[Snowseph]

5/24/13
9:40 AM EST

Dear Journal,
I want to scream at other Jewelies "I. DO. NOT. HAVE. A. CRUSH. ON. RAYNE.", but I won't. (Now I want to start singing Scream & Shout ._.) I don't, really — I've given up. We are simply friends, same with Divine. We are not dating, she is head over heels for Neptune. I accept that, Nep is a nice guy.
Well, I was talking with Spice (Pepper and Speck's child; Sugar's sister} and she hates me. Why? Because Ricky still likes me. Spice has a crush on Ricky, like I do. Expect that — according to her — that Ricky is hetersexual. I assume Spice is bisexual, but I am not certain. Spice says I can "make a move" after the prom. Plus, she gave me a tip.

- Neige

[Snowseph]

5/24/13
12:10 PM EST

Dear Journal,
I have only two crushes and a minor one on Divine... One is a slight crush, whom is Berlin. The other, is the one my heart beats for Rebecka. Yeah, go ahead, Spice... Feel free to slap me now. ._______. I will be talking to my sister after the prom. Charlie may be the only one to help me... maybe Spice, but that will probably happen in a billion years at the least.

- Neige

[Snowseph]

5/29/13
5:07 PM EST

Dear Journal,
Two winners won the contest. Ara and Rebecka. I don't know Ara too well, but she is friendly so far. Ara and I are on a date in a forest, which is in England. England ia where Ara's roots are. It's beautiful there! I admit, I have a small crush on her. I am also on a date with Ricky. We are going to Disney, the place everyone raves about. So far, it's great!
So. Many. Girls. Are. After. Me.
HELP.
I should just have my own fanclub, if this going to happen. It's annoying. I wish they could give me my personal space. I don't mind Ricky or Ara so much, but when there's a whole posy following me around... it's right down annoying.
Help.

- Neige

[Snowseph]

5/30/13
11:33 PM EST

Dear Journal,
I am going to Divine's summer bash, then on a trip with her. I am praying it will only go in a friendly manner.
Snow. Is. Such. A. Trekkie.
She won't stop rambling about Star Trek. What's so good about it? Who's this Chekov? Tribbles? Dunno. Poseidon likes it, though. He is taking me to see the new Star Trek movie: Into The Darkness I think it's called. Oh well, lets see how that goes.

- Neige

[Snowseph]

6/10/13
10:26 PM EST

Dear Journal,
I will be locked in my room. I am locked in my room. Things are way to confusing. I need to think everything over... all my crushes have dates to the prom — expect Ara, I think. Ricky and Spice are going together, duh. Rumor has it Divine is going with Jason.
Be right back, dying.
Okay back. I need to think ***this*** over.
Although, I've come to this so far: Ricky or Divine seem... right. Ara is somewhere in there... that's it.

- Neige

P.S. I don't want any "ship" to set sail yet. Why? I will tell you why.
I HAVE THE RIGHT TO LOVE WHOM I CHOOSE.
NOBODY CAN CHANGE THAT.

[Snowseph]

6/7/13
9:14 PM EST

Dear Journal,
I'm dating Divine. Yes, I love her.
About Ricky... I will say this loud and clear.
I DO NOT WANT TO BE "BULLIED" IF I WERE TO EVER HAVE A FUTURE WITH RICKY.
Spice would hurt me. She loves Ricky. I don't want to get hurt because of her uncontrollable love. I don't want my life to be like that. Do people not understand? ;A; I would LOVE to be her friend — as well as Ara, Berlin and whoever's friend. That's fine!
Shippers.
They pressure me.
Like I am a piece in their game.
I am not.
I am me.
I have my choices.
If they don't **ship** who I love...
They are greedy.
Yes, I said it.
No offense to anyone, but it's ridiculous these days.
I hate to say it, but it may get similar to what happened to my dad and my owner.

- Neige

P.S. I will repeat.
I HAVE THE RIGHT TO LOVE WHOM I CHOOSE.
NOBODY CAN CHANGE THAT.

[Snowseph]

6/20/13
1:19 PM EST

Dear Journal,
I am still confused. I know I love Divine, but... is it possible I still love Ara? I don't want to be cheating on Div... yet, Ara is so sweet and almost... my soul mate, as well as Divine. Is that possible? To have two soul mates? I don't think so... I'm overly confused.
Anyways, I went over to Ara's house and saw her new kittens. They're precious! I especially love Atlas. Atlas is like my old cat, Nemesis. At least I still have my dog...

- Neige

[Snowseph]

6/26/13
1:38 PM EST

Dear Journal,
My soul mate?
Her name is Divine Penombre.

- Neige

[Snowseph]

6/28/13
8:47 PM EST

Dear Journal,
I know who I love... She is the key in my life. I cannot stop thinking about her, she appears to be my life... I have been on many dates with her, but does she love me? I think she does... I know Ara loves me, but her friend is who I speak of. The love of my life, my soul mate. I may still love Ara deep, down inside my heart, but I've known Divine much longer. I didn't know Ara until recently, until our blind date. Divine may have been confused, I've been overly confused... I do believe we are meant to be together... I have a secret. I will not tell it.

- Neige