i have to say, i think having a crush for seven years is one of the best things that's ever happened to me.
whilst reflecting on my life in the shower, as i believe a lot of people do, i was thinking about this topic.
i think having a crush is something to hope for. something you personally want to attain,
versus school work and good grades, while you may want them, you're hormones/attraction to someone is probably more interesting.
i get very happy even when i just see my crush, look at his picture, think about our short conversations that may be meaningless to the next person.
i feel at peace. and the only time i can honestly devote to thinking about someone like that is when i'm falling asleep.
and i think that's the best time, because night can often be an awful, twisted place. a time where it is dark, and you are alone and sometimes your emotions can take the best of you. like for me, sometimes i find myself crying at night and i can find no apparent reason for why i feel the need to.
but thinking about my crush and seeing his face give me smiles. they keep me at peace and with something good to think about.
although i know we cannot really plan out our dreams, thinking about him usually has him in my dream, as a bystander or a main character.
and in my dreams, although they are nothing more than PG13, i feel safe and secure. i feel like i have control and like life is going the way it should be. and then i wake up, and it felt so real. all of the dream with him felt so real that sometimes i'm jolted awake because it seemed so real.
i dunno what this was. a rant, if you will, or maybe a reason to get my mind off of everything. by thinking of him and expressing all my jumbled ideas into one post, flitting from one topic to the next.
if you read this, you can comment on it.
whilst reflecting on my life in the shower, as i believe a lot of people do, i was thinking about this topic.
i think having a crush is something to hope for. something you personally want to attain,
versus school work and good grades, while you may want them, you're hormones/attraction to someone is probably more interesting.
i get very happy even when i just see my crush, look at his picture, think about our short conversations that may be meaningless to the next person.
i feel at peace. and the only time i can honestly devote to thinking about someone like that is when i'm falling asleep.
and i think that's the best time, because night can often be an awful, twisted place. a time where it is dark, and you are alone and sometimes your emotions can take the best of you. like for me, sometimes i find myself crying at night and i can find no apparent reason for why i feel the need to.
but thinking about my crush and seeing his face give me smiles. they keep me at peace and with something good to think about.
although i know we cannot really plan out our dreams, thinking about him usually has him in my dream, as a bystander or a main character.
and in my dreams, although they are nothing more than PG13, i feel safe and secure. i feel like i have control and like life is going the way it should be. and then i wake up, and it felt so real. all of the dream with him felt so real that sometimes i'm jolted awake because it seemed so real.
i dunno what this was. a rant, if you will, or maybe a reason to get my mind off of everything. by thinking of him and expressing all my jumbled ideas into one post, flitting from one topic to the next.
if you read this, you can comment on it.
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