-cluttered- wrote:NEED....HELP....PLEASE!
I've been trying to familiarize myself with paganism, but it's been pressed into my face too fast, and my mom snaps at me when I start to ask about it...so i've started to walk away from it...but I love it all the same. I need help choosing a path. I'm not asking that you suggest something, but give me insight on what you practice maybe? I've been toying with the idea of the greek side of things, but I feel like an idiot out in the field of religion. Saying so because I started trying to converse with loki, and he answered me, but not in the nicest way. And when I told the kindred, they all scoffed and laughed at me. Grown men, not realizing how much their comments hurt me. There are two people who's patron Deity is loki, and they understand were i'm coming from, but that doesn't change that the fact that i'm lost and walking in circles. [Might I mention that I was Mormon? It's not my thing. I love you if you are Mormon, and if so I wonder why you're here, but still being respectful. Just rubbed me the wrong way.] Thirteen, and still trying to find something to believe in. My inner goddess [I called her that before the author of Fifty shades of grey did >.> Mah friends told me about....strange friends, I know.]is encouraging me to just wait, be atheist for awhile because the matter is almost....stressful. Makes me want to scream at something because there's no one to turn too.
Short story for ya', that might help you: [Dunno how it would, but whatev']
I have grounded with the star Vega, and it told me it was dying. It needed someone to just release too, and so I stood there [ignoring my mothers drunken "Harness it's energy". I had already connected to the star, and was practically having a chat with it when she told me that.] It got to the point were I started crying because the energy was too much. But I couldn't look away. The star is so old, and I feel like it's a living being, out there watching everything pass, looking down on me. So now I look to said star when i'm troubled. [And when my friend Beth's older sister said they named Vega 'Sadie', I apparently punched her. Don't remember it.] So...um..dunno how that would help you, but there you go! That's all the grounding i've ever done, and it came to me very easily. But something in my head broke and no matter how hard I try, I can't ground anymore.
All I know is that there is something out there, but I feel all alone. Everyone [from the kindred] says they talk to the gods, but when I try to, I feel blocked and tethered to the earth. Hard to explain, and extremely frustrating.
It can be extreamly difficult to find the path that is right for you. I'm still having difficulty defining mine and I'm more than twice your age, so don't be discuraged and don't let others push you away from what
feels right to you. Keep trying to talk to your star and if Loki didn't act kindly to you move on, though he is a god of chaos and a mischief-maker.. Blockages can be lifted given time, this one may simply be a result of all the stress you have in the subject currently, relax, just give yourself the time you need.
Preparing to quit
I will try to check for messages occasionally before I do
but I might not be able to reply immediately.
Paranormal Help⬅️not how you show respect. Just saying. I'll be leaving very soon too, so don't worry. When I have some time between Adulting I'll rehome my pet and notify y'all. Bye CS.
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