by Kirache » Thu May 09, 2013 5:17 pm
Dear Cen,
We never got to say goodbye. You told me "see you tomorrow," but tomorrow still hasn't come for me. You were important to me, and I regret doing anything that may have caused you to dislike me. Perhaps you've forgotten me by now, your little, confused little Loveheal. I still remember when we first met. It was in the Brynhilld sewers of old Secret of the Solstice. I spent many hours waiting, soloing and healing, wondering if you would come on. Sometimes weeks went by before I got to see you for a short time, then months, then almost a full year. Perhaps even now, I am still waiting for the impossible.
I know I will never see you again, and will never be able to tell you this. But you were important to me, and our friendship was special. When you were gone for months and I left for Windslayer, I had no idea I would see you there as I PvPed on my archer. The last time I truly saw you, the Cen I knew, was in Amakusa, when I was attempting to level and you were there, blocking the hits from the mobs for me. I had to leave, whether it was to play piano or eat. You told me "see you tomorrow." Tomorrow still hasn't come.
From then on, months would pass. I saw you again, but I am unsure if it was you. You didn't know me anymore. Had you really forgotten me so fast? Or did you simply give your account away? You would be on for hours, pvping as the Mage with purple hair. I still remember you as the secret of the solstice apprentice with orange blonde hair who leveled just as slow as me. I still remember going through the sewers together, talking on the private chat together, and even hunting for the materials to make a pet together! I made a pet after you left. An orange poyo pet. Nothing special in terms of value, but very special to me, as it was a pet made from our time together.
Do you still remember our time together? Perhaps it was awkward for you, having a little girl say she loved you. It's been so long. Was I 8? 10? I can no longer remember. I can no longer remember if what I felt for you was love, family love, or admiration. I do remember that you were important to me, and you still are. It's been at least three years, as I remember from the last time I was counting. I stopped counting two years ago. You are now nothing but a memory and feeling in my heart. No longer someone I can talk to outside of my dreams.
My cousin used to joke around and claim you were Nick Jonas, because your name was Nick and you had brothers who played instruments. Was it violin you said that day in the PvP arena? She also claimed that you could be him because you were always gone during his tours. It was a funny little thought, and I never got to share with you the hilarity of my cousin's teenage wishes.
After these years... Has it been 3? 5? I can no longer remember. After these years, perhaps... Perhaps I am still secretly waiting for tomorrow.
Sincerely,
Loveheal
Or Priestia, as I was in Windslayer days
Hoarding all Bunnies!
2034ish/9999
