by R0be0 » Sun May 05, 2013 11:04 am
Spring break had been hell; though he’d be telling everyone the exact opposite. He’d make up something fantastic – oh, what about a cruise that his father ordered specifically for his family? Or what about a trip to Europe, Africa, and all the good places? It needed to be something that would blow everyone away, and that made them envious to be him. In truth he had spent most of his time avoiding his drunken father. People from his hometown knew him as that trashy kid whose father was a booze-hound, but when he was outside of it he was the rich kid that no one knew outside of school. He spent all his money on clothes to make sure that he looked the part. When asked about further details he went with the story that his father was a brain surgeon and made top line money. His mother was an unknown actress that played in a lot of movies and had little to no time at home with her lovebird father, and her loving son. But his mum – well... he didn’t know. She left one night when Caesar was just a little boy, and he had no memory of her. He never asked his father about it, as he knew no good would come from it. He hated the thought of his mother, and so Caesar would never ask.
Walking the senior kept his head up, holding up a diligent and confident look. Anyone who looked at him would think that he was on top of the world, while in his head he was begging that no one would notice that he was wearing clothes that he had before. Rich kids never reused clothes, oh well; he’d just say he was protecting the environment or something. Yeah, that’d work. Coming into the common room he noticed that many people were already here. “Hello all!” He said, raising his hands in a victorious arc. “Who missed me?” There was a wolfish grin on his face that probably looked like he was some kind of demented pervert. Of course he was not quite up on keeping his ‘cool’ image, as the time he spent wiping up his father’s stinky vomit had removed all his previous knowledge from his head. All he knew was that he was slick, and there was no way that he would be able to be seen as ‘un-cool’.
Of course he was trying to impress everyone, and there were a lot of people here that he didn’t like. Few of which he’d go as far as even saying that he hated, though those were only few in number. He sometimes thought that he heard people call him a jerk behind his back, though he figured that he must be hearing things. How could someone not love someone like him? Well... There was father, who could care less about his son; but that didn’t count. He didn’t care much for his father either (a lie that he was telling himself. In fact Caesar longed for attention from his father, and wished that he paid more attention to him than his whiskey). Caesar would never realize this though, well – at least not for a long while yet, at the moment he was convinced that he didn’t need attention from his father, and that getting love from him was not something that he required.
Caesar was complex like that, when someone looked at him, you might just think “oh there’s that sports lunatic who probably makes love to his reflection”. But Caesar was much more than that, it was just something – or someone that he had invented to keep his true self at bay. Coming out as a kid with a rough home life and who seriously had no one (other than himself) to love him was not something that he was even considering doing. What madness! No, for now he’d remain as he always was.
A ghost of someone that he was not.