by autumn magpie » Mon Apr 29, 2013 9:19 am
Dear H,K and A,
I hate the way things went between us. I know it wasn't your fault, it wasn't your choice your parents moved to another continent A, but that was the start of us falling apart. As I watched your car drive away, with H and K in tears beaide me, I knew that it was the beginning of the end. I'm sorry that it happened, and I wish we could just go back to the good days when us four would sit and chat and stay up late watching films till we all fell asleep, but I know we can't. I accept that.
But it doesn't stop me missing you.
Then again, I am almost glad you can't see me now, see how I'm stuck still while you're all moving forwards. I wonder if, in that final year, you'd ever glance my way and see how low I had fallen, ask mutual friends how I was doing just to check I was okay- like I did with you. Then I wonder if you would have seen through the smiles and the laughter I put forward to the world like you used to, or if you'd have been taken in aswell. I doubt I will ever know, but I wish I could just say this:
Just because do not talk, does not mean I don't care.
Yours in spirit if not in person;
The Elf,
The penguib buddy,
S