by ika; » Tue Apr 23, 2013 8:32 am
Dear C,
If only you knew. You're the 'it' guy- the popular, athletic guy that loves children and animals, you have your pick of the beautiful girls at college; they're all in love with how perfect you are. You're gentle, sensitive, funny, and just so normal- normal in a really, really good way. And then there's me. The ugly girl with no friends, every depressive condition under the sun, and the anxiety so bad I can't look you in the eye. But I make you laugh. And the way you laugh makes me feel special. Only, I know I'm not. Don't worry, I know a girl like me doesn't have a chance with someone like you- I won't embarrass you by saying how I feel. I want to be your friend, not just someone that you talk to in class. Your friend. But you have too many of those already, and I guarantee I'm not good enough for you, even just as an acquaintance. Do you know how painful it is for me when you have a conversation with me? I'm sorry about today, when you tried talking to me and I just couldn't look you in the eye. I couldn't, C, I couldn't do that. Because if I did, I might fall in love with you- and I don't want to do that to you. I really hope you have a happy life, you know. You deserve it. You're amazing, and I am not. You're going to be someone, you're going to make it- and I wouldn't dream of holding you back. Don't worry about me.
-Ika

/semi-quit cs, find me on flight rising
here/
trading all pets & items for flight rising stuff