My Sister is now my niece, you see, I am fostered, and my older sister adopted my 5 year olf sister, and now she is going all the way to Oxford to live with her ="(
For my sister:
For my sister:
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I so feel you!BrOkEn_OnE </3 wrote:I was up for two hours listening to my mum and her boyfriend fight. A few weeks ago I was dumped for my best friend. I'm singing depressing songs. Spent three nights crying over an old boyfriend I used to have. He keeps on talking to me. Not knowing how sad he is making me. Yeah, I'm smiling, but inside, I'm dying. I keep on being bullied. Being called 'emo' and 'goth'. My best friend is being bullied, but she says she's fine. I can't stop crying at night. I don't think I can do this any more. I can't fake a smile. I can't carry on and tell everyone I'm over him. My friends say it's good I don't write anything depressing. I do it everyday though. Going back to my diary. Holding that piece of paper and crying. Writing down the date my old boyfriend broke up with me. Argh. I can't do it anymore. I'm falling apart. I tell everyone 'Im fine.' But I just really, oh I just really want someone to look me in the eye and say 'Tell me the truth.'
music7 wrote:I was bullied what feels horribly today. And these are basically all of the kids in my grade. All of them... My school had an assembly for character traits, and I won one. (The only reason I won it, probably, was because I stood up for myself for being bullied...) When I was called, few people clapped for me. I shrugged it off, and was alright about that.... Though it still hurt.... I then went up with this super smart kid (And I'm smart too) and said congrats. He didn't say anything back. When we went to get our picture taken, I was hidden behind this older guy, and one of the oldest, most popular guys asked him to move for me. Which was nice of him. The dude in front of me only moved slightly, so you could barely see me, one of the two girls who got this character trait. The other girl, who is in the oldest grade at my school said, "I didn't know that girl got it [the award] too." really meanly. It hurt my feelings. But then, when I went to sit down, everyone was telling the other (really smart) guy in my grade congratulations, and they only glared at me. It was pretty obvious too. I basically started crying...
One of my older friends told me that everything was alright and said that they could go do ... something inappropriate... And then one of the oldest people at my school who is nice and in my arts class with me congratulated me and gave me a pat on the back basically, and a hug. It was really nice of him. Nobody else but one of my teachers said anything. And my friends. One of the teachers that I'll have next year and knows who I am smiled at me though....
And this is why I cut myself. I did it last night.... It's really a bad thing to do; I know that. I just.... do it.... It's hard to explain... And the thing is, I don't know why I'm targeted for their bullying. I'm not pretty, I am not the smartest, they shouldn't be jealous of me, they're rich kids, and more. I just don't understand why I have to be their victim. I don't want someone else to have to go through this, but I don't know how to stop them. I've told teachers, my mom knows, my psychiatrist knows, and yeah.... I just don't understand. It's just plain terrible for me.music
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