Wow, a lot of people...
I'll try to respond to everyone not responded to on this page.
*~Dark Sharni~* wrote:I feel so guilty and selfish for being sad :(
I don't know why it's upsetting me but it is...
I just feel like my boyfriend doesn't want to spend time with me sometimes...
I know it's not true, but that's how it feels...
Last year we planned to go to Comic Con in may of this year
He was gonna be Ash and me Pikachu
Last month he tells me he can't go because he has to revise
Then the easter holidays came, I thought I would actually get to see him...
He tells me he will only be able to see me about 3 times out of the two weeks...
There are 5 days of the easter holidays left... I have only seen him twice so far so it doesn't seem like he was joking
Then the other day he tells me he wont be able to see me on my birthday because it's the day before study leave for him.
It's apparently an awkward time for him...
2 days after my birthday I plan to go to the cinema with him and some friends
I asked if he was still going and he sounded unsure...
He said he'll make it up to me and see me all the time in the summer holidays
No you wont.
Two weeks of it you will be sailing, then your dad wants to take you on a two week walking trip. That's a whole month gone.
Then you will probably be working one week at least.
Your family might go on holiday
I might not be able to see you at all...
I feel so selfish for getting upset, I know how important his exams are... He is a grammar school student...
He is a A* student, he is dedicated
I'm just a normal, untalented girl, I didn't have the stress of having to get A* grades...
I feel like a terrible person who only thinks of herself :'(
You don't just think about yourself, I would feel the same way if I was you.
This isn't exactly the easiest for me to offer advice on, as I honestly haven't been in this situation. If you really do feel like he isn't bothering to make much time for you any more, I would straight-out tell him.
And you're not untalented. Grades don't always mean everything, I bet you have tons of other talents. ^^
Fascai wrote:I don’t think she quiet understands the severity of what I put myself through.
I don’t think that she cares to hear it because I’m a teenager and being emotional is what teenagers are supposed to do. I can’t stand it anymore. I can’t. I can’t handle coming from an A and B student with no detentions to an F student with in school suspension and detentions all in one month. I can’t do the work. I don’t want to tell my teachers about it. They won’t care and they won’t listen. I can’t even be approached about how my day has been without bursting into tears. I can’t do it. I don’t want to be here anymore. Life isn’t happy for me anymore. I’m not happy. I haven’t been happy. It’s impossible for me to even make it through the counselor’s door without crying anymore and I can’t take it. I need something. I need help. I need someone. Someone to listen even when I don’t have anything to say.
I'm always here to listen if you need anything, ever. <3
I know exactly how it feels, adults not being able to relate to you in any way and don't understand you at all.
If you're not happy, then make life happy. Something has to be making you unhappy, change that. I can't give the best help from this point of view since I honestly can't see the full picture of your life, but I can give you any support you need. My inbox is always open. ^^
jesus of suburbia. wrote:i broke the lcd on my laptop
because i was mad at netflix.
and it's all my fault, because i could have just looked at the sign in on fiefox.
i shouldn't exist.
Of course you should exist!
There's a future out there with your name on it, you can't just abandon it!
And the whole broken LCD issue, it'll get fixed one way or another eventually. Stuff happens, and it can get easy to hate yourself. Just don't. Try to think of all of those really good memories that you've shoved in the back of your mind and forgotten about. Those can certainly help. ^^
It may be your fault, but it's not going to do anyone anything if you beat yourself up over it. As cheesy as it may sound, just keep looking forward. Don't dwell on what's already happened, as that's done with.
●Evil Angel● wrote:i really have no idea what I'm doing anymore. i feel like I've been kept in the dark for my entire life, and I've only realized it right now. i'm tired of not knowing anything at all. being kept secrets from; living a lie.
i was born outside of marriage, when my mother was considerably young. my father left when I was eight years old. my mother never told me about the fact that I was born outside of marriage, but rather let me believe that I was born in marriage, and that she meant to have me. I don't know why it feels as if I've been slapped in the face knowing that. perhaps it's because I found out because my grandmother accidentally blurted it out, instead of my mother actually telling me that herself. and would you like to know what I just found out today? that not only was I born outside of marriage, but that my father was married to another woman when my mother became pregnant with me. he was married. that's something I never knew. i was a mistake. and even if my mother meant to have me, how can I ever trust her? what other things has she lied about to me? she's an adult and I'm a child. frankly she doesn't have to tell me anything at all, but it's really made me question my life. i'm not sure if I miss my dad anymore. he wasn't really that much of a father to me or my brother.
sometimes I think I'm the only one coming to terms with my fathers absence, but I guess I was wrong. my friends came to the door yesterday, scared out of their minds. you see they had just had a fight with my younger brother, and my brother had a total mental breakdown, and started crying, mumbling over and over again, 'My dad's dead! He's dead. He's not coming back."
i don't know what to do anymore, sometimes I think that talking to a therapist will help me, but then again, the last thing I want is my mom micromanaging my life and trying to 'fix' things for me.
i'm done.
Yes, it's overused. But you're not a mistake. In any way.
Plus, if you want to look at it this way, a mistake is an action that you didn't mean to do.
You yourself are not an action. You're a person with a life, and a future.
You're only a mistake if you want to say you are and not do anything in life. Then you're a definate mistake. But you have a life, I'm sure you do. It may not be perfect, but it's something. As long as you think you're a mistake, then you are one.
If you go out and make something of your life, you are in no way a mistake. In fact, the complete opposite.
My inbox is always open if I screwed this up, or you just want to talk. ^^
{Sorry guys, I'm trying. There are a lot of you... If I really messed this up, I'm sorry. o_o;}
