|TheComfortCorner|

[tbow.]

Hey guys c:

So I normally don't come around here very often, but i've just been feeling so emotionally hit recently, and I just don't know what to do. I was hoping if I just wrote it all down, then maybe I'll feel a little bit better. Ok, here goes.

For a few years now, I've wanted to be a singer. Yeah, I know it's really unlikely I'll ever actually get there, but we hey, what's life if you don't have something to strive for? The only thing is, I'm just so frustrated. I'm musically frustrated. I love to write songs, but lately I just feel like everything I've been putting on paper is total crap. Maybe it's because I keep listening to Taylor Swift songs and reading about how prestigious her song writing is, but I just don't know. I keep trying and trying, but everything just gets jumbled up and flows terribly, and I just... I feel like I can't. I just can't. I compare myself to everyone, especially people older and better than me, and I just feel like total crap. Like I'm worthless. It sounds like I'm about to do something drastic here, but really, I understand that some things you do you can't take back, and I would never self harm. I just wish that I had more to write about, you know? Song writing would be easier if I had something or someone to sing about. I have no one in my life worth singing for.

Lately, I've just been feeling really alone. Like no one understands me. I do have friends, quite a lot actually. But all of them are starting to bug me. It all goes back to comparing myself to people again. My best friend in the whole entire world is always talking about how all these guys are flirting with her and telling her how hot she is and I know she enjoys it way too much. I don;t blame her, she's lost 70 pounds since last year and feels awesome now. It bothers me when other people tell her how tiny she is because again; I compare myself to her, and I don't feel as worthwhile as everybody else. Heres another thing; I've never had a boyfriend. Ok, I know that's not a terrible thing since i'm only in highschool. But I apparently compare other people too, and I have way to high standards for almost any guy that isn't in One Direction, and honestly that's just sad. Like, really pathetic. One Direction kind of ruined my life, but then theyre there to save it again. That's another reason I want to become a singer. So I wont be "just another fan" to them. Maybe if the world knows who I am, so will they.

I've been thinking of starting a journal almost, something that I post on CS. Whenever I just need to write something I can go on there where I will just be another chicken smoothian and no one will actually no who I am. I really like this whole anonymous thing a lot. I can write what I feel without getting embarrassed. But now I have to touch back on the first real paragraph about feeling alone. I almost don't want to be anonymous. I see all these people on Chicken Smoothie with links to all their best friends on here in their signatures. It honestly makes me feel sad. I feel a physical longing for someone to recognize me, to think of me as a friend. I probably sound like a weirdo talking about how I want some friends, but I just don't know where else to go.

So here I am, just venting my feelings to you guys. You probably didn;t even read all of it, and honestly, it doesn't bother me that you didn't. Sometimes what someone needs to feel better is just to get everything out, and that's what I'm doing. You can PM me if you want, I would love to talk with you c: Don't feel like you have to though; I'm ok ^^ If you did happen to read every little bit, thanks for hanging in there with me <3

I read the whole thing and first of all *hugs* I can honestly relate to a lot of things you wrote about. You should strive for your dream of being a singer! Even if you can't write your own music at first, just stick with it, you could still come up with results. Plus, a bunch of singers don't write their own music, what matters is you. I can't say much so I'm sorry but I really hope you just hang in there with these things, hey even I still want to be a veterinarian with my allergies and asthma. I'm sure you can make it. It may sound real cliche but just don't give up 'kay? c:

Oh and I also think that journal thing is a great idea. c; You can pm me if you want to any time.

[Foxanna]

@Fox.: Thank you, that means a lot! <3
@camiecat03: Thank you so much! I'm sorry if your brother is like that too. *hugs back*
@LuvFinnick123: Thank you, although I don't think it will get better any soon. I don't want to bother you. ^^'
@foxywolf<3: Aw, I'm sorry for you too! *hugs back*

[ArashiiUchiha]

My uncle had a mini heart attack....he is a drug addict and I love him a ton....we are close....I burst out crying when my mom told me....I am just really sad and need a hug.....

[MenheraCollie]

My uncle had a mini heart attack....he is a drug addict and I love him a ton....we are close....I burst out crying when my mom told me....I am just really sad and need a hug.....

*hugs* my grandma has a liver failer

[- ; bonk!]

My uncle had a mini heart attack....he is a drug addict and I love him a ton....we are close....I burst out crying when my mom told me....I am just really sad and need a hug.....

*Hugs* Mu grandpa has been in the hospital a lot from Cancer, so I know how you feel ^-^ My grandpa used to smoke a lot, but now not anymore after he got cancer from it.

[blueh]

This happened a few months ago-- but I still want to rant about it.

Okay, so my uncle, who I love so much has this girlfriend of his. It's not what you think-- I LOVE his girlfriend. She is amazing, she likes to help out with everything and lets me do anything that I want. No, me and her have a good relationship. The PROBLEM was the US government. You see, she is from Mexico, and all her family lives there still. So she has to make round trips to go from the US to Mexico. Her and my uncle run a business here, and it's really cool c:
A few moths ago I had my Bat Mitzvah, and my Uncle's girlfriend was suppose to help with the baking and cooking and we were suppose to have a great party-- but then my mom told me that she couldn't come because she was having some issues. When I asked about it, she said that the Government was keeping her in Mexico while she was visiting her family. She couldn't come to my Bat Mitzvah and she couldn't even come to America to see my uncle! She did nothing wrong! They said that she was 'coming to America too much' or other crap like that.
SHE HAS A FREAKING JOB HERE!

Sorry about that </3
I kind of just ranted ~

[- ; bonk!]

This happened a few months ago-- but I still want to rant about it.

Okay, so my uncle, who I love so much has this girlfriend of his. It's not what you think-- I LOVE his girlfriend. She is amazing, she likes to help out with everything and lets me do anything that I want. No, me and her have a good relationship. The PROBLEM was the US government. You see, she is from Mexico, and all her family lives there still. So she has to make round trips to go from the US to Mexico. Her and my uncle run a business here, and it's really cool c:
A few moths ago I had my Bat Mitzvah, and my Uncle's girlfriend was suppose to help with the baking and cooking and we were suppose to have a great party-- but then my mom told me that she couldn't come because she was having some issues. When I asked about it, she said that the Government was keeping her in Mexico while she was visiting her family. She couldn't come to my Bat Mitzvah and she couldn't even come to America to see my uncle! She did nothing wrong! They said that she was 'coming to America too much' or other crap like that.
SHE HAS A FREAKING JOB HERE!

Sorry about that </3
I kind of just ranted ~

*Hugs*

[SilverShadeDragon]

OOOOH MYYYYYY -censored- GOSH!
I WORKED
3 -censored- HRS ON THIS
AND NOW, bam
OEKAKI CRASHES JUST AS I WAS -censored- SAVING

-cries- it was one of my best drawings yet T.T

so i drew it again... and

BAM crashes right as i was saving. t_t

i really -censored- hate this computer... i want my old one back T.T

[Lake Petal]

OOOOH MYYYYYY -censored- GOSH!
I WORKED
3 -censored- HRS ON THIS
AND NOW, bam
OEKAKI CRASHES JUST AS I WAS -censored- SAVING

-cries- it was one of my best drawings yet T.T

so i drew it again... and

BAM crashes right as i was saving. t_t

i really -censored- hate this computer... i want my old one back T.T

This happened to me three times in a row.. I wonder if it is not just your computer...

[SilverShadeDragon]

D= im'm so sorry!
i drew it in non-floating mode this time... it worked... t.t but it wasnt the same as the time before...

(i love your siggy)