|TheComfortCorner|

[glitter.]

So, I don't exactly like myself. I'm not going to lie and say I love myself because I don't. Truly, I hate myself. I think I mess up everything and I just ruin things. I had been self-harming for a while, but stopped because of how much I had been hurting my friend by doing it. I have been clean from cutting for about a week or so but today I snapped. I just couldn't handle it anymore and I did it. I don't think I should go into anymore detail but now I feel even worse. I promised my best friend that I wouldn't do it again because she went through the same thing and didn't want me to have to experience it. I just can't stand myself anymore. As if that wasn't enough, I have been having horrible anxiety attacks lately and today in fifth period it was the worst one yet. I was sobbing and I just sat in the back of class away from my group while some guy was saying things about it. I just dislike it so much. I know I need to stop because it does more hurt than good but I really don't want to. I just felt the need to post here so I could just vent a bit without my friend finding out what happened. I can't stand hurting her again.

[wicked;]

So, I don't exactly like myself. I'm not going to lie and say I love myself because I don't. Truly, I hate myself. I think I mess up everything and I just ruin things. I had been self-harming for a while, but stopped because of how much I had been hurting my friend by doing it. I have been clean from cutting for about a week or so but today I snapped. I just couldn't handle it anymore and I did it. I don't think I should go into anymore detail but now I feel even worse. I promised my best friend that I wouldn't do it again because she went through the same thing and didn't want me to have to experience it. I just can't stand myself anymore. As if that wasn't enough, I have been having horrible anxiety attacks lately and today in fifth period it was the worst one yet. I was sobbing and I just sat in the back of class away from my group while some guy was saying things about it. I just dislike it so much. I know I need to stop because it does more hurt than good but I really don't want to. I just felt the need to post here so I could just vent a bit without my friend finding out what happened. I can't stand hurting her again.

Sending you a PM right now! D:

[DragonLoverHere]

I... I need a hug... I feel so betrayed right now, so utterly bare of defense and upset... I would talk to my RL friends, but they were either the trigger of the problem or someone I don't want to hurt with an outburst. I... I just... *holds back tears and sobs* I feel so awful and so cold, so dang cold. I feel so mad at myself, so weak and stupid. I can't stop questioning myself and if I am that monster again...

I promised I would never ask for help and I'd only give it, but... *smacks self* I am so unfaithful to my promises to myself...

DLH

[SilverShadeDragon]

I'm ridiculously pissed off
so ridiculously pissed off i think i'm going to quit CS
i know the mods are just doing their jobs, but this is just ridiculous.
these things are the last thing i need when i need to be emotionally stable to finish all this work. just leave me alone! all these accusations are just making me feel like a horrible person, so i think i'm just going to quit.

[[.Book Owl.]]

I... I need a hug... I feel so betrayed right now, so utterly bare of defense and upset... I would talk to my RL friends, but they were either the trigger of the problem or someone I don't want to hurt with an outburst. I... I just... *holds back tears and sobs* I feel so awful and so cold, so dang cold. I feel so mad at myself, so weak and stupid. I can't stop questioning myself and if I am that monster again...

I promised I would never ask for help and I'd only give it, but... *smacks self* I am so unfaithful to my promises to myself...

DLH

Just let go. That's it. Just breath in and get over it. It sounds like I'm being stupid and you need real advice, but take it from me, it works.

[BuffyWolfie]

Hey everyone. So, I haven't really spoken to many people about this except for my parents and an online friend or two. I haven't even talked to my best friend cause she's been out of town and will still be out of town for another week.
Soo... I have been out of high school for half a year now. I am not in college because I am unsure of what to do and I don't want to put myself into debt by acting prematurely and dropping out. I also haven't been able to get a job, although I'll admit I haven't tried very hard. I do want to work, but I have some issues...

See... I'm scared of people. It sounds so strange because I communicate fine with the people I know, and I am polite to the people I don't know. But the fact is, they are always the ones to approach me, not the other way around.
I was bullied throughout my entire childhood and at the beginning of my teenage years. Those bullies have scarred me emotionally and mentally to the point where I am scared of people. I am scared to talk to them and to open up to them. However, communication is required when you get a job...

... and that is why I haven't been trying very hard. Now, being scared of people, out of school, jobless and unsure of where I will end up in life has caused some sort of depression. I was in depression before during the bullying, but since it ended (which required me to go to a private school before moving out of the country, by the way) it's been gone. But these past few days it's come back. I wake up and go to bed feeling generally sad.

I need to get a job, and I need a social life. Besides my best friend I haven't hung out with any of my friends since I graduated high school. I've barely been in contact with them cause I am actually shy and have isolated myself. I find comfort in TV, movies and books now, where a normal teenager would have friends.
Now, my parents are going to try to help me, and I am going to try to reach out to my friends, but it's hard... I'm scared all the time.

I don't know if anyone has any advice to give, but I would honestly just love a hug and some good thoughts because I am actually feeling so miserable. I only seem to forget when I watch a TV show or movie, or read a book. And that's basically all that has been keeping my spirits up these past few days.
So please, send the hugs. And I'm sorry I typed so much... I tend to ramble...

[Hekomi]

:< Can I just have a hug?

[Zah'raji]

:< Can I just have a hug?

Virtual hugz

[Cuspid]

:< Can I just have a hug?

*Hug*
I hope whatever's bothering you clears up soon! l:

[Amethysts]

I really don't need a hug..
I just wanted to vent here since my other-half is in school right now~

I got on fb since I go on it everyday through my ipod..
But I went to see if my babe PMed me. [cause he usually does that]
Instead, my ex of a friend [HATE her so much] PMed me.
Why must you PM me when you know I hate you?
At least realize that before trying to talk to me.
I don't like you at all.

Okay anyways..
I go on and see my ex [who i was madly in love with]
Sent a PM saying "babe??" .. I miss him.
I don't know why I did what I did, but I couldn't be with someone I fight with everyday.
It hurts. PLus, I couldn't repair the relation we had.. It was completely destoried from my past.
I hate myself for it, but I must forget him.

I sometimes feel my old-self coming back.
I don't want that side of me here. Never.
I found myself and to realize it. Hurts to think of me losing myself like I did.

I need my friends. I need White William.
I need to contain who I am.