Dear J,
Uggggggggggggggggggh~~! But I mean that in a Good way. In the Past I cried over you. I was jealous of A__. I admit it and I'm not afraid to. You gave her something I never got. I got treated Bad, I thought I was being treated Kindly. I thought they cared. I thought they actually l____ me. Obvisouly it was lies. A bunch of lies, in the end we both know what happened. And We not dare bring it up again. I'm not afraid to tell you anything. I know you'll listen, care, and even give me advice. I feel that I can be myself around you. Which is weird. Honestly, I can never be myself, not even around my family. I'm going through lots and no one understands nor cares to even try to. No one but You. People ask me why I don't listen to anyone but you, They ask me why "I don't care about anyone but you". But Can they not see? You gave me something I never got. Something that was missing from my life. Yes, I'm bad at being Social. I'm bad at bringing up conversations. But around you, i put that all way and just be.. Me. People ask me questions like :Why him? :Why not me? :Why do you only care about him? Etc. Honestly, they don't know anything. Which is good and bad. They must never know anything. Which is also good and bad. And It means they'll never understand, but, Its not their worry for them to understand. its my life and I choose what I'll do with it. They no need to worry. Honestly, You healed all thoose broken scars. You know, The ones that T___, B_____, J_____, N_____, and R__ left. I know you know half of them. Now that I'm gone they regret everything, Which is good, because they should. Honestly, they lost someone that actually cared about them. Obviously all they wanted was to brag about it. They want me to seem like the bad guy. Why must they attempt to ruin my life. Deep down inside they know they made a mistake, but Its obvious that no one must know their true feelings. Thus it may make them weak. We've been through lots. When you told me certain people were not people I should've hung out with. I didn't believe you. Twice. It only happened Twice. Now I believe you. Every time. Because of the consiquences that happened. Of course I regret everything. I should've listened to you. Now I've learned, So Hey, I do learn from my Mistakes. Which is good rather than Not learn, You know? *Sigh* Know we put that all behind us and Focused on our true friends, Squiggles, C__, E____, and G____. I may be forgetting some people but Hey, At least we got each other<3. I never knew what real Emotions felt like before I met you. All I knew before was :Pain, :Anger, :Depression, and :Death. But I learned new emotions, Thanks to you. I've learned Love, Hapiness, Faith, Courage, Hope, and Bravery. I never thought I'd ever know what thoose ever felt like. But You taught me. and I am forever greatful that you introduced these things to me. I feel like Nothing can go wrong, I feel like when I'm with you I always am happy, I feel Love. Never felt it before. and Now, when your gone I miss you. A lot. Hopefully We'll see each other again soon. And lastly, as I end this Post, (Because I'm taking up a lot of the room.) I'd just like to say one thing and one thing only, and I mean this with all my heart, and Hopefully It shall never once more be broken...
I love you Sweetheart<3
- +Nightmare+
Dear CS members,
Sorry for taking up soo much Room<3
- +Nightmare+