







Dear J,
We haven't spoken face to face in 2 years and yet you called me your girlfriend and said you loved me on facebook, I just don't understand how that was possible. I wanted to break up with you because I didn't feel anything anymore, but the day I was about to, turned out to be your birthday. And so I waited about two weeks, the day before yesterday, my friend brought you to me so I could end it. But as soon as I saw you, I knew I still really liked you. And I did the most stupid thing and said "Never mind" and rushed off to my friend again. And so I still like you. But I don't feel like you do. Because if you did, you'd come here and speak to me by now. Why are we so messed up? I want to actually go out. Not "go out" and never see each other. Plus, haven't you noticed that as soon as we started "dating" it just grew awkward? How does that even work? I want to be myself with you. Not my awkward self. Sure maybe I'll act a little different but I would want to generally be myself.
I know we were trying to be 'secret' or whatever because we didn't want our siblings and parents to know, but I don't care about that anymore. I just want to be open so we can actually speak.
So, I don't know how this is going to work out. What I'm going to have to do. Or how I'm going to do it.
Please understand. Because I don't.
Dear A,
Your really sweet. I get the idea that you like me, considering all the glances and smiles. I really like you too. But I don't get butterflies like with when I saw J. Not yet anyways. I love how you actually speak to me and you're really sweet. But I have a boyfriend right now, and it's J, since you are new and he's in the other half of the year group, you may not know him. But I do have one. At least, that's what he says.
I may not look it, but I'm lost. I don't have any clue what to do.
Please understand. Because I don't.
Nathan Sykes wrote: Everyday is like a blank page, you never know what is going to be written.
- Nathan Sykes, The Wanted.
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