Write a Letter You Cannot Send

[Shiver.]

That is some heavy stuff, I have heard of tough love but...
Just chin up, learnt to fight for yourself- it is the hardest thing you'll ever do, and it may seem like he doesn't care, but sometimes they think it is just kiddy fights, others think it is good for you to get used to it. But some, very rarely, just don't understand.
Stiff upper lip-I know you can do it.

SOme one you don't know.

If you were talking to me, it was the hardest battle, I have ever lost. It was the hardest place i have ever been. And the hardest thing I have ever seen, but to fight a losing battle is misery. a feeling you will never truly understand untill you have truly reached a breaking point. Yes lets give a fake smile and a cold laugh and try and forget the past. Though it never truly ceases does it? So find an outlet and let it go, but it will always find its way back.

[.: ḀиɢⒺḸ ~ ɧȺwk :.]

Dear Goose

Yes you can tell I have a major crush on you and you know you like me back
so why not? why do you delay it? you asked me once before and I said yes why will I not say it know

LOTS of love
kitty

Dear Jessie & maddie

first off maddie you parents cannot control if you go out with someone
so just say YES you want to and he wants you to
now jessie just keep asking shes bound to ignore the rules at one point trust me
we may not know each other well BUT haha who cares you guys are in LOVE
CUTENESSSSS!!!
blob blob blob

From
kitty

[Moceanu]

CUTENESS BLOB BLOB BLOB FOR NO APPARENT REASON

Grrg.

Dear Kitty,
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
So I can put the dagger away then?......
Or do I still need to savagely attack him?
-MMEEEEEE

[Thief.]

Yeah, I meant you. A lot of stuff will be so hard, I have faced a lot. I am not just trying to say this to make you feel better cause' I know that you will get sick of people saying
"let it go"
it will all flood back in a rush every time you close your eyes or try to dream.
So accept it. I had to. We shouldn't take for granted that we will have some one to be there
You can't say that others haven't had that same hard time, so it's ok- others understand you and there are others that can and will help.

[Moonskye]

Dear _________,

Why do you always bother me? I wish you could go bother someone else... I'm not even sure why you bother me and my friends. Aren't there other people you can go bother?

[Shiver.]

Yeah, I meant you. A lot of stuff will be so hard, I have faced a lot. I am not just trying to say this to make you feel better cause' I know that you will get sick of people saying
"let it go"
it will all flood back in a rush every time you close your eyes or try to dream.
So accept it. I had to. We shouldn't take for granted that we will have some one to be there
You can't say that others haven't had that same hard time, so it's ok- others understand you and there are others that can and will help.

I heard this so many times. I know I am not the only one. I am being helped out, but the one who can only truely help is the one who hurts the most. I am not ready to lose the battle ten times over. I am not ready to win a battle I have already lost. I am ready to find a second to dare to dream, but when I even dare to close my eyes and dream, I shudder. My mind is only filled with this darkness consuming my whole life, when there is a lightness, I cant belive its real.

I can not take the constant battle even if it has been won. I can not take the brutal fighting even if its already gone. Even if there is a someone to fly me away tonight, I could never truly trust them to take me into flight. So I am left with this consuming darkness, eating up my life. There is no real escaping even if I run at night. So I leave this battle constantly ragin even if within my mind, because I am too sure there will be another of this kind.

[Thief.]

Person.
Don't keep saying that. It will be a small portion of problems in your life-you will learn to leave this in a wardrobe. To see it, acknowledge it, then wave it good bye. Everytime you see it or feel this then just say
"I know this happened, It hurt. But I am not going to dwell-it won't conquer" and try lock it up.

That may sound stupid and you probably heard stuff along those lines, but make sure that YOU are there for Yourself. That's the most important bit.

[Shiver.]

Person.
Don't keep saying that. It will be a small portion of problems in your life-you will learn to leave this in a wardrobe. To see it, acknowledge it, then wave it good bye. Everytime you see it or feel this then just say
"I know this happened, It hurt. But I am not going to dwell-it won't conquer" and try lock it up.

That may sound stupid and you probably heard stuff along those lines, but make sure that YOU are there for Yourself. That's the most important bit.

You are truly right in every sense and I know I am probably making you angry, I have done it so many times before. You have to realize its hard to trust someone you meet only 2 seconds before. I do thank you for your kind words. I am trying so hard to let this go but it is so hard to forget. It hangs over me, ready to fall and crush me under the wieght. I have not shared to anyone how deep this really goes. I miss the seconds this wasn't there, if there were any before. This has my life time in the making and many will come after. I cherish the words of someone like you who is truly just kind and trying to help, but help is so hard to take when you are this far fallen into a darkness. A cut still being drawn out. This has not ended, yet it will never truly. Though the war still rages on and on and will be dying soon. Though I belive this will never end among us. Some may say tough love, others I am sorry, but it is truly more than that and everybody knows it. I cannot just lock it, for it is still coming crashing down on me, but someday maybe I will be truly able to leave it behind, though it will never ever be truly gone.

[Thief.]

Then just accept it. Can't forget it, forgive it or leave it so accept it and dwell on something good today,
did some one random smile at you, did you find a dollar coin did you pass a test did you get a gift or eat ice cream-just make somehting average amazing.

[Shiver.]

Then just accept it. Can't forget it, forgive it or leave it so accept it and dwell on something good today,
did some one random smile at you, did you find a dollar coin did you pass a test did you get a gift or eat ice cream-just make somehting average amazing.

I have never heard that beofre and for that I thank you. I will try this and see if it works. I will truly try. I can always push it away 'till I am ready to deal with it. You have been an amazing help, and I am so thankful you did not get mad at me, I have a tendency to make people mad at me. I will try to lock it up in a wardrobe for a day and we will all see, it just hangs over me so much. It seems as if it wil always crush me. Thank you again, I will dwell on something else, although i have had my fair share of relationships problems recently, long forgoten since this crushing darkness has hung over me for so long. I will dwell.