by ElevatingHearts » Mon Nov 05, 2012 4:41 pm
Dear ex. guy friend,
Oh, only if you knew how much I still missed you. It's a bit crazy, honestly, with how I can't get over you. I mean, it's been about two years since you've broken my heart, and it's pushing a year since we last talked. And think! When we last talked I couldn't even talk! You made a joke to me and gave me that smile that you know completely side tracks me, and then just grinned after. When I did finally talk, I was stuttering and looking down at the ground as my heart pounded. Think, I never stutter and I never even got nervous around you until that one night.
How could you just be so cruel? You saw me crying and you thought it was because we weren't with each other that night! The only way I got the truth to you a year later was by notes, and it took quite a few before you actually believed me. Did you feel like a jerk and an idiot then? To know that I was crying because I had a feeling I was going to lose you that night, and my own father paid $400 to never see me or my siblings again unless we made contact with him first? Because right now, I am litterally wondering how life has been going for you, if you're still single, and if you even miss me at all.
It's a bit crazy to think that I still love you, but I guess it isn't all at the same time. I mean, people say you never forget your first love...and I've tried everything in the world to forget you and to move on. You just have no idea how unbearable this pain is, and I wish you could be here with me so I could tell you exactly how I feel. But you're in the East Coast, and I'm in the West Coast. Not to mention, I really hope that you're okay from Hurricane Sandy being near you there, and I wish you could tell me how you're doing and what life has been like for you.
Are you even still the same, or have you turned out like the rest of the dirt bag guys there in that town?
I can't imagine you having pants down so low your boxers are showing, and the shirts are so baggy and huge on you they don't even fit. It just isn't in your nature, because I will always see you as the smart guy who cares about his grades and doesn't date, and as the guy who wants to become a Marine.
Just know that I will love you forever, and that I never want to lose you again if I ever get to see you. Maybe we'll cross paths again someday? If we do, I'd just have to call that fate since we're so far apart in our friendship and in our distance from our towns.
Please tell me you still remember me, and always will as I do for you? Maybe I'll forget about you some day, just like I want.
Hopefully I'll get a new guy friend and won't get a crush on him! And if I do? I'll definitely keep it to myself, because the last time I had a crush, everybody told him. AKA, everybody told YOU. Hope you know I haven't had a crush in two years since you, and I probably never will. </3
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The girl who has the broken heart still </3
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