Abster wrote:Aura wrote:/hugs/ He clearly doesn't deserve you.
But I want him...I'm weird. One second I'm about to call him a swear word, but when I picture his face I fall in love again. X(
Yeah, that's what happened to me with my past crush.
(Seat -> Code word, Aura will know) No-one liked him much, so I didn't really have a problem with my friends liking him etc. I didn't tell anyone at that school about it, but some of my friends from my new school know, as I felt safe telling them.
He would do stuff I specifically say
not to do, then I would get all upset and feel like punching him in the face, then he would say sorry, try to comfort me, and then I would look at his face and fall in love again. >.< I am a sucker for love.
Then I left that school two years ago now, and last year he left that school too. I went back to visit them one day (not knowing he left), secretly looking around for him, and I couldn't see him anywhere. My friend came bounding up to me and was really happy. She said hi, and I asked why she was so happy. She replied "Oh, (crush's name
Seat) left!!!" She was soooo happy, and I tried my best to look really happy, but on the inside I was screaming.
Since then, we've talked on MSN to each other, and he's gone off with some girl from his new school. I've also realised in that time, that I don't deserve someone like him. He's been avoiding me online, and telling me to go away whenever I say hi. There's also a lot of stuff that has happened inbetween to us, but I don't want to tell that part to anyone else.
Anyway, *hugs Abster* I know how you feel. It really sucks. Boys in books are so much better. XD