Dear QFP,
I cannot believe you at all. You incredible. This morning I woke up at 4:00 am, yep I forgot to reset my alarm. As I was finishing my breakfast, cereal, my parents started fighting, not physical just screaming at each other, and I hate it when they do that. So I walked outside to my buss stop like normal. All of my friends could hear them. So then as I get on the bus I realized that in all the rush to get out the door and not hear my parents screaming at each other, I forgot my lanyard. This is my fourth time forgetting. In the beginning when I was getting used to the whole new school thing I forgot it 3 times. I never forgot it again till this day. So now I have lunch detention. I go to the behavior specialist feeling like there was something wrong with me and he sits me down and he says that he will get me another lanyard so I can keep it in my locker, it was nice no lunch detention the forum was ripped up. Well now I am at lunch, both of my groups of friends don't have room at their tables, like usual, so I sit alone with RD and an awkward silence rests. So I turn around and stare at the floor minding my own business eating my pear with my bottom teeth because I can't use my top teeth {I ran into a wall and chipped the backs of them} and you walk up to me any say 'Having fun at the rejects table?'. My first reaction was staring at you and then you say 'Why you looking at me like that?' I thinks it's kind of obvious. Then I pressed my fingers into my forehead trying to get rid of the mental pain I was receiving form peer pressure. Then in front of everyone in the lunch room I start crying, people were staring and I was embarrassed but I couldn't stop, I could barley breath my heart was pounding, I had a major headache and everything was going wrong. So as I was sitting my eyes casting towards the ground with tears rolling down my face I realize that I don't want teachers to see. So I toughen up like I usually do and dry my eyes. I get up throw away my pretty much uneaten lunch and leave the cafeteria to go to the bathroom. It was an emergency. I ran to the mirror and my face was red and puffing my hair was a mess and I felt ugly. I wiped my face, blew my nose, ran my fingers through my hair walked outside. Of course you could tell that I was crying but I stared at the ground so no one would notice. Then you have the guts to take away something important to me. O.M. You quit our group we need one more person. I'm glad you joined after we showers you in attention because that's the only thing you respond to is being the center of attention. Later that day I get on the buss and my friends cheer me up I'm all better now. Not really I come home and no ones there and I feel the need to do something like cut my wrist. Don't worry I didn't. I'm not going to let you get to me and as soon as you learn to accept that the sooner I can get on with my life and stop worrying about you.
Love,
'The rejected'
I cannot believe you at all. You incredible. This morning I woke up at 4:00 am, yep I forgot to reset my alarm. As I was finishing my breakfast, cereal, my parents started fighting, not physical just screaming at each other, and I hate it when they do that. So I walked outside to my buss stop like normal. All of my friends could hear them. So then as I get on the bus I realized that in all the rush to get out the door and not hear my parents screaming at each other, I forgot my lanyard. This is my fourth time forgetting. In the beginning when I was getting used to the whole new school thing I forgot it 3 times. I never forgot it again till this day. So now I have lunch detention. I go to the behavior specialist feeling like there was something wrong with me and he sits me down and he says that he will get me another lanyard so I can keep it in my locker, it was nice no lunch detention the forum was ripped up. Well now I am at lunch, both of my groups of friends don't have room at their tables, like usual, so I sit alone with RD and an awkward silence rests. So I turn around and stare at the floor minding my own business eating my pear with my bottom teeth because I can't use my top teeth {I ran into a wall and chipped the backs of them} and you walk up to me any say 'Having fun at the rejects table?'. My first reaction was staring at you and then you say 'Why you looking at me like that?' I thinks it's kind of obvious. Then I pressed my fingers into my forehead trying to get rid of the mental pain I was receiving form peer pressure. Then in front of everyone in the lunch room I start crying, people were staring and I was embarrassed but I couldn't stop, I could barley breath my heart was pounding, I had a major headache and everything was going wrong. So as I was sitting my eyes casting towards the ground with tears rolling down my face I realize that I don't want teachers to see. So I toughen up like I usually do and dry my eyes. I get up throw away my pretty much uneaten lunch and leave the cafeteria to go to the bathroom. It was an emergency. I ran to the mirror and my face was red and puffing my hair was a mess and I felt ugly. I wiped my face, blew my nose, ran my fingers through my hair walked outside. Of course you could tell that I was crying but I stared at the ground so no one would notice. Then you have the guts to take away something important to me. O.M. You quit our group we need one more person. I'm glad you joined after we showers you in attention because that's the only thing you respond to is being the center of attention. Later that day I get on the buss and my friends cheer me up I'm all better now. Not really I come home and no ones there and I feel the need to do something like cut my wrist. Don't worry I didn't. I'm not going to let you get to me and as soon as you learn to accept that the sooner I can get on with my life and stop worrying about you.
Love,
'The rejected'
I went with two weeks not talking to u or your brother but u had to call me. Thanks!