Write a Letter You Cannot Send

[Amailia11]

Dear mom,

I finally start getting involved in finding colleges although I guess its still considered early but everyone else in my class has started looking already but when I look I find one I really like. It has the programs I am looking to go into, a nice looking/sounding campus, has boarding, it has a price I can aford and you don't have to pay a cent, and I am doing more research on it. I tell you about it and you laugh. LAUGH! Of all things and you tell me I couldn't take care of myself because I don't have a job or a car that I would end up becoming fat and I wouldn't be able to do anyhting for myself. Then you tell me to go make dinner if I can take care of myself to prove it and my reply is "I could if I had a car like you do mom but I don't and I am a kid I have to learn these things from you!" but do I say that nope but I sure do think it. Well you are the one who is ridding my butt to get great grades and take college classes in high school. I even took your advice to enjoy high school instead of going to college early and now I regret it. I could be ahead of the game by now. I could have aved thousands of dollars and you want me to go to that horrible comunity college that isn't well represented in the working world? Thanks mom your being so supportive in my goals. Well now I am determined to prove you wrong! I will get into that college and I will get a job and I will do my very best to support myself and not become such a negative person. I guess a thank you is involed there now. Weird how that stuff spins around.

-Amailia

[RainbowNova]

Hey guys, it's me again, letting out more rage and ranting and stuff. First of all, I want to say thanks everyone who gave kind words and advice. You guys got me through tough times.

Dear everyone,

I don't really know what to say. Life's getting worse. Not cutting is making life and surviving REALLY hard on me. I'm tempted to use a dang thumbtack to cut just to relax. I guess I don't have room to talk about issues. I live a life that people would love to live. We're in an alright budget. I get everything I want. I get good grades and I have a few friends. It seems really nice and all, but it's hard. You get high expectations on you. You struggle to get to those expectations and still have fun. Sometimes you only have fun and then you're yelled at. Then you meet expectations and you're yelled at. There's no middle. There's no limbo area. There's only fussing and yelling.

I guess I'm pathetic for whining about this. I seem like a really nice person to most. They think I'm goofy and hyper and jittery and pretty much a perfect kid. Truthfully, I'm being eaten up by paranoia and depression. My friend tried to cut and I can't help her. I can't help anyone. I try so hard but nothing ever helps. It makes things worse and then ruins my life. I wrote down EVERYTHING on a sheet for the counselor and now I regret it. My time's ticking before my mom finds out. When she finds out, I'll probably not be on for a long time. I hope I'm not dead by the time I come back, because I love you guys.

I want to just sink in a hole and block off all interaction, but it's the only thing keeping me sane. I'm just so tired and lonely and there's a big hole in my heart and mind that's growing bigger and bigger. I want someone to save me. Someone to just hold me and tell me that it'll be okay, even if it won't be. Just someone who's REALLY there and can REALLY comfort me and be able to make me feel safe. Because honestly, I don't think anyone can save me. I'm so close to the edge of suicide. I'm one foot in and one foot out. Guys, I think I'm going to suicide one day. I don't know when. Please help me guys. Just a few words.

I really want to be saved from myself.

With love and hope, Rainbow Nova

[-Ash's-Outlaw-]

Dear _____,
I love you, and I know that you know it.
You hugged me today after second...I thought it was perfect. Then, after third, you grabbed my hand like you know I love you to do, and we walked and you kept pulling me closer and closer and then you hugged me again. I think I died a little on the inside. It was so sweet and perfect...ugh.
After lunch, now my favorite time of day, on the way to fifth, when you walk with me? Yeah, I love then. I get to walk with you without worrying about my friends bothering us. You hugged me then, kissed me. I didn't want to leave your arms. Ever. You were all I could think about...your voice and your hair and your eyes and your smile and how you felt with your arms around me and your head on mine. And then how hugged me after that period. You pulled apart just so I could see your gorgeous face and told me in your perfect voice that you loved me. And then you hugged me and held my hand. I LOVE YOU. So very much. Walking out to the busses, your friend asked if I was your girlfriend...you said yes and pulled me to you...perfection. You rubbed my hand with you thumb, which drives me absolutly crazy. I love it. You pulled me to you and stroked my hair, put your hand on my cheek, hugged me. I wish I was on your bus, you always sit alone...
I wish you would text me. I don't know why you are so sad all of the sudden. I can't wait till I get to spend the whole day with you this weeked, all day with my perfect boy...I love you Charlie baby, your mine, all mine.

-LP, ily

*edit* You texted me!! Thanks love <3

[Crocigator]

Dear mom,

I finally start getting involved in finding colleges although I guess its still considered early but everyone else in my class has started looking already but when I look I find one I really like. It has the programs I am looking to go into, a nice looking/sounding campus, has boarding, it has a price I can aford and you don't have to pay a cent, and I am doing more research on it. I tell you about it and you laugh. LAUGH! Of all things and you tell me I couldn't take care of myself because I don't have a job or a car that I would end up becoming fat and I wouldn't be able to do anyhting for myself. Then you tell me to go make dinner if I can take care of myself to prove it and my reply is "I could if I had a car like you do mom but I don't and I am a kid I have to learn these things from you!" but do I say that nope but I sure do think it. Well you are the one who is ridding my butt to get great grades and take college classes in high school. I even took your advice to enjoy high school instead of going to college early and now I regret it. I could be ahead of the game by now. I could have aved thousands of dollars and you want me to go to that horrible comunity college that isn't well represented in the working world? Thanks mom your being so supportive in my goals. Well now I am determined to prove you wrong! I will get into that college and I will get a job and I will do my very best to support myself and not become such a negative person. I guess a thank you is involed there now. Weird how that stuff spins around.

-Amailia

Dear Amailia,
You go! Good luck! :3
Best wishes,
Croci

[briannna27]

Drama,
I'm done with the llama.
Leave me alone.
Seriously, it's over.
He's an idiot.
She's a backstabber.
They're perfect for each other.
Now go away.
- hope

[Ryuuko Matoi]

Dear Myself,
Keep calm and burn them all in your mind.
And don't give anyone a black eye tomorrow.
Once a week buddy.
c:

Love, You.

[Better Dig Two]

Dear mom,

I finally start getting involved in finding colleges although I guess its still considered early but everyone else in my class has started looking already but when I look I find one I really like. It has the programs I am looking to go into, a nice looking/sounding campus, has boarding, it has a price I can aford and you don't have to pay a cent, and I am doing more research on it. I tell you about it and you laugh. LAUGH! Of all things and you tell me I couldn't take care of myself because I don't have a job or a car that I would end up becoming fat and I wouldn't be able to do anyhting for myself. Then you tell me to go make dinner if I can take care of myself to prove it and my reply is "I could if I had a car like you do mom but I don't and I am a kid I have to learn these things from you!" but do I say that nope but I sure do think it. Well you are the one who is ridding my butt to get great grades and take college classes in high school. I even took your advice to enjoy high school instead of going to college early and now I regret it. I could be ahead of the game by now. I could have aved thousands of dollars and you want me to go to that horrible comunity college that isn't well represented in the working world? Thanks mom your being so supportive in my goals. Well now I am determined to prove you wrong! I will get into that college and I will get a job and I will do my very best to support myself and not become such a negative person. I guess a thank you is involed there now. Weird how that stuff spins around.

-Amailia

Dear Amailia,
You go! Good luck! :3
Best wishes,
Croci

Dear Amailia,

I might not know you but i know you a stron. Go prove her wrong and do your best. So if you fail here and there it makes you stronger person.

with <3

-Georgia Peaches

[StormieLove <3]

dear Amailia,
you go girl!
you get out there and show the world whos boss!

love, ~ angel :3

[Kyar]

Both of you,

Please let me go.
I just want to go.
I just want it to be over.

Ky

[Moceanu]

Dear,
Go away.