by autumnsoundtrack » Mon Oct 29, 2012 4:53 pm
Dear boy who is my friend,
I like you. A LOT. But the fact that you're dating one of my friends pisses me off, knowing that you two are just perfect for each other. I never even had a chance with you, did I? I mean, sure we tease each other and we have a stronger connection to each other than we should, but I'm guessing it will always be her over me, even if you break up. She's so lucky to have you - she really has no idea what she's got right now. Sure, you might not be the brightest, but you are an amazing athlete, extremely stupid (in a good way), but yet also serious sometimes; and boy are you really sweet too. I wish you were mine, I really do. And the only way I can act sane around you without blurting out this big secret I'm keeping from all my friends is to pretend to dislike you with a fiery passion. I just wish that I could tell you that without it meaning something, but it clearly does mean something, and I don't want to ruin whatever friendship I have with you, with your girlfriend, who is also my friend, as well as her friends too, since they're also my friends. If this secret gets found out, and is told to either of you, I'm left with no friends. So I just thought I'd get it off my chest for now, let a small portion of the weight be lifted off my shoulders, even though you'll probably never, ever know how I really feel. I just wish I could rewind time to last year, when she wasn't there, you dumped your bad girlfriend, and it was just you and me, so I could not be shy and try to actually build something without playing it too safe. I guess when you don't take risks sometimes, other people come in a decide to risk it all, pushing you out of the way without even knowing you were trying in the first place...
With many regrets,
Autumn </3
Dear Danny Phantom,
Aka, the guy in my science that I've been calling that for ages. I just got that message on facebook, and I'm wondering if that is just a joke or not. Do you really like me a lot, or was that just one of your friends screwing with you. I don't want to assume it was real, or else that would be embarrassing, but I don't want to think it was fake either, because I don't want to hurt your feelings. I wish that I could be bold when it comes to guys, but unless you say it to my face, I wont believe it or even respond to it, because I've been played like that once before, and it hurt badly. And if it is real, I don't feel the same way about you. I find it just like a normal, teasing, somewhat friend like friendship. I don't have any feelings for you like that, I'm sorry. Honestly, I would go out with you to make another person jealous, but I'm not that type of person as I wouldn't want to hurt your feelings and play you like a violin, since I wouldn't want that happening to me either. I'm sorry, I just don't know how to respond to this. With all of these emotions running through my head, I think it's best for me to sort them out without having to worry about a guy chasing after me. I'm sorry, I really am. >.<
~Autumn