by Guest » Sat Oct 20, 2012 2:53 pm
dear __________,
i just need to get all of this out, okay? it's not really a rage letter, but kind of a sad letter, and my mixed emotions about you, sometimes.
so, you've successfully made me cry two times in school, over a period of about two weeks. it just makes me really upset when you get angry at me, and when you are, you're laughing along with someone else. you never get angry like this at pat, why me? and i do understand that you get angry at times, and you can't control it, but please, don't take it out on me. i'm not trying to be annoying to you, but as you can tell, i really like you. without you at school, it would be.. ugh. the first time you got angry with me, for real, was when i lined that whole thing we were doing. i did tell you about it, and i thought you said okay. so i did it. but if you said i shouldn't, i wouldn't have. the next day, i asked you if you forgave me, and you told me to go away. so i went, and i just sat during world cultures. then during language arts, i cried. okay, next time. i drew the nose you did, a couple times, and i tried to alter the shape to make it my own. then you got mad at me. so then, i cried during seventh hour, which should have been happy, because we were outside. i had to talk to ms. graves too, while i was crying. then i had to walk away, because i didn't want anyone to see. i still didn't feel okay when you came over, because the teacher asked you. trust me. you don't want my life. it's not as 'cool' as you think, or thought, it was.
okay, now onto the next part. so remember i made that card for r, and you were like, "hashmarks, really?" i was feeling really good about those cards, and you made me crumple them up and feel like crying. and you always tell me i need to get muscle. I KNOW OKAY? you don't have to remind me. it already makes me sad, thinking about it. and you basically remind me every time you hit me. and while we're on the topic of hitting me, stop. you've made me bleed numerous times and i've only really 'hurt' you once, when i squeezed your cheeks. you punched me in the arm, and i couldn't raise it. you kicked me in my thigh, and it hurt to walk. you've hurt me so many times. please stop. get a stressball, or something, because i don't want to be your stressball anymore.
and also, when i draw something i'm really proud of, you have said, "what is that...?" in a weirded out tone. it just.... please. and always, you make me feel bad when i like country, or i, okay? i don't ask you 'why him?' everytime j walks by, do i?
have you ever heard of the saying, 'treat others how you want to be treated'? well, you hit me for squishing your cheeks, and then you said, 'it hurt!' WELL LET ME THINK HMMM... HAVE YOU EVER HURT ME? MAYBE....
sometimes you don't act at all like a friend. aren't friends supposed to help you? you wouldn't help me with tumblr, role play forms, or anything. it's not fair. i would help you.
remember when you asked why i say, 'please don't kill me'? i say it because i kind of mean it. you can hit me and hurt me, and i get kind of scared. i really do. when i said 'awww' to your dress at pic day, i was kidding. but you didn't have to punch my shoulder. I WAS KIDDING. take a joke.
and no, i don't 'force' you to do anything. i give you suggestions. forcing you would be 'OKAY SUN DO THIS AND THIS AND MAKE HER HAIR RED AND HERS BLUE' and really, i don't care if you 'don't like suggestions.' that's how i am, okay? i'm trying to help.
please don't get mad at me for writing this. i needed to vent.
muffincat
dear i,
arughhhh
why do you have to be so funny
and alright i'll say it
uhh
yeah i won't