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"don't waste your time. i'm not worth it."

full name; shane douglas ramirez; >> "yup. that's my name. don't wear it out babe. okay? good. only under certain circumstances do i not mind my name being over-used. now now- i'm sure you all are thinking dirty about that. get your heads out of the gutter- even if that's where i intended to direct it to by wording it like that. i'm sorry. it's just how i am. you'll learn that quickly i'm sure."
nicknames; shane or nash; >> "yeah i don't really have any nicknames. i like my name shane. it isn't horrible to be honest. my middle name is a different story though. i hate it with a passion. like who the f*ck would name me after a d*mn tree? oh right. my mother would. so yeah. if your looking for a fight call me doug once- that's all it takes. i do have a more 'uncommom' nickname. nash. how did i get that? well it's quite obvious actually. after being born in pittsburg we moved over to nashville, tennessee. i grew up there for a load of my life so you can imagine the type of accent i received from it. the nickname just stuck around as i moved to various other places. i like the name though- it has a nice ring. nash."
age; eighteen; >> "yup. eighteen. living the dream right here bud. now it's my time to shine.. okay not really. I just honestly want to get out of the house to prove to my mother i'm not the f*ck up she thinks i am. so yeah. age eighteen. born in 1993 so i'm actually having another birthday here shortly. joy. another year older. just another year to show my mom she was wrong."
gender; male; >> "isn't that obvious babe? .. oh? no? well then. moving on.. i am most certainly a guy. I have no cleavage so to speak and if i remember correctly- chicks don't have what i have so. of course if you don't believe me feel free to check because honestly i don't care. s'not awkward for me babe. yeah yeah i know. what a freaking tease. i'm sorry. that sh*t just comes effortlessly. .. oh god i'm just going to shut up and move on before i make things worse."
birthdate; october thirteenth; >> "me? a fall child? yup. you betcha sorry *ss i am. october. the month of ghosts, spiders, and just anything scary in general. yes ladies and gentleman i am talking about halloween. the time of the year where you get to dress up in random sh*t and get candy from strangers. my birthday wasn't on the holiday but it's close enough. the thirteenth was when i was born. on a friday to be more precise. quite ironic because my mother is big on religion and so it only adds to her resentment and hatred of me."
birthplace; pittsburgh, pennsylvania; >> "oh how i wish i had been born in the middle of scenic nowhere. that is if i wanted to be born at all. i guess i did. i mean- i have learned some things. not nessisarily good things about life but i've definitely learned. growing up in pittsburg there was always one thing that seemed to be on everyone's minds. football. the city housed the stadium for the NFL Steelers. as you could imagine i got into football at a very young age. it's one of those things that brings me a sliver of joy no matter where it is i am living."
personality; cocky, untrusting, flirty, witty; >> "ah. how i act. who i am. my personality. this should be quite an interesting discussion. where should we start? let's go with obvious first babe. i'm cocky. horribly cocky and i know it too. it's just because most people don't challenge me.. they just go along with whatever it is. i guess that's one of the downfalls to being one of those popular kids with rich parents.. everyone just agrees with you because they want your friendship.. well- more like your things but you get my point. that leads me to my next trait. untrusting. i don't trust most people. that's what the word means isn't it? yeah. it's hard to let people in and actually tell them the truth about my history and what's wrong with me when all everyone does is leave once they get to know me. that's why i don't get attached to people easily. it always ends bad. always. the next thing probably throws that all out of proportion though. i'm a flirt. a huge flirt. i can't help it. really- i can't. it just comes on naturally with me. which in turn makes me seem like a player which i'm actually not. shocker? yeah i saw that look on your face babe. seriously though. my flirting is intended to be taking lightly. i'd never intentionally fool around and end up hurting someone because i know how it feels. not good. at all. next trait- i'm blunt. i am quite straight forward about most things. if i don't want you knowing something i'm going to change the subject. that's expected. if a someone was to ask me if they looked bad in something and they honestly did i would tell them. rather have them get a little butt hurt now then go out looking terrible and get embarrassed, angry, upset, and even more butt hurt afterwards because i didn't tell them about it. lies hurt worse in the end. then again is some circumstances they can help out a bunch too. not that i'm saying it's a good thing but everyone does it eventually. moving on.. i'm a pretty witty person. despite my 'popular cocky bad boy' label i'm actually smart when it comes to school even if i hate it. i have to be in order to play football. hmm.. let's see.. i'm a smart*ss about most everything. sarcasm is a part of me. i use it daily- if not in every conversation i have. if someone gives me a stupid question or statement they're going to get a stupid response. i don't tolerate stupidity well. it gets on my nerves. use your heads people. sheesh."
likes; sunglasses, parties, sports, skateboarding; >> "ah. you want to know what i like. well for starters football but as we continue on i make that highly obvious. shoot me for it. it's just how i am. i like sunglasses. very good tool if you want to look at someone without getting caught. about nine times out of ten you can find me wearing them or at minimum i will have a pair with me. parties. i love them. something about crowded rooms with blaring music.. it gives me a rush. it gives me a high to some extent if that's logically possible. eh who cares. skateboarding is something i partake in if i don't want to drive somewhere. i do it when i'm bored too or if i'm going to the park or something. not to brag or anything but i'm pretty good. i've been at it for awhile now so that is probably why."
dislikes; being pale, meat, anything school related; >> "believe it or not i have a massive list of things i do not like. first on the list but not nessisarily the worst is being pale. i cannot stand it. like- i don't want to be a pale sparkly vampire or something. just no. i like having a little color in my skin. let's see.. oh. meat. don't like that. ..that sounded rather.. nevermind. anyways. i'm a vegitarian so that means i do not eat meat when and if i do eat. shocker? there's a lot of things about me that'll surprise you. lastly i'd have to say school sucks *ss. i can't stand it. all the pointless drama and girls dressing with far too little clothing all the time. sure it's great at first but you'll find that it quickly gets irritating. i figured that out."
secrets; substance abuse, self harm, anorexia, pyromaniac, vegitarian, bi-polar, sleep insomnia; >> "let the judgement begin. i can see it already. i know- i'm seriously f*cked up. it's just how i am and i have learned to live with it. i kind of have to seeing as i can't avoid myself. obviously. well- first on my list of screwups.. substance abuse. i've been known to drink- and smoke. the smoking is more dissreguarded by everyone seeing as i am of age to make that choice.. in the case of cigarettes at least.. i'd be lying if i said that's the only thing i've done. i'm not nessisarily a heavy alcoholic.. it's not like i go get drunk and wasted every single night. i'm not that dumb. ah, next thing. let the judgement continue. self harm. yes- i used to do it.  does that mean i still do it? no not at all. i don't. of course one look at my forearms and people want to tell me different. no. i would know myself better then anyone else. don't you think so? yeah? good. moving on. anorexia. yup. it's not just something only girls deal with. far from it. but yeah. i just don't eat much.. i don't really get hungry so it causes me to loose weight.. yeah i get judged for that too. just like everything else. just like everyone else. there isn't one single person in the world who hasn't been judged before. it's sad really but it's the truth. when i do eat it's always salad or random fruits and vegetables. why? well that one is pretty simple. you'd have to be really dumb to not realize it means i'm a vegetarian. i can have dairy too but most times that doesn't really sound good. except strawberry milk. that's my weakness. it's just too good. next topic.. something a bit more.. interesting. i'm a pyromaniac. if you don't know what that means it means i have an 'addiction' to fire in general. it's more common then you think actually. who knew this one would be the one to ruin my life the most. i honestly didn't mean it when it happened. erm. yeah. i'm done talking about that. lastly on my list of conditions is being bi-polar. is it legally diagnosed? yes actually. it is. i can switch emotions at drastic measures in the blink of an eye. that's probably where my short temper comes from.. again probably not a surprise there. lastly on my bucket of issues is my sleep insomnia.. you see- i don't sleep easily. without medication anyways. it doesn't bother me too much though.."
fears/phobias; open water; >> "yes. i am being legitimately serious about this. i fear open water. like superman or some sh*t were to fly over to my house and pick me up then take me out into the middle of the ocean and just drop me and leave me there.. i'd die. literally. not seeing land or anything would drive me completely insane. plus the fact that a shark or whale or some fish would come and eat me. yeah. it could happen."
goals/dreams; professional football; >> "oh is that a shocker? i figured as much of a reaction like that. but yes. that's my secret dream. being a professional football player. when i say football i'm not meaning soccer.. i'm meaning the game where you throw the brown ball shaped like a lemon across the feild and get tackled. understand now? alright great."

"go ahead and call me a freak. wouldn't be the first time."

Ｉ ＤＯＮ'Ｔ ＬＩＫＥ ＷＨＡＴ Ｉ ＳＥＥ

ＩＮ ＭＹ ＯＷＮ ＭＩＲＲＯＲ

"ＹＯＵ ＡＮＤ Ｉ ＧＯ ＲＯＵＧＨ, ＷＥ ＫＥＥＰ ＴＨＲＯＷＩＮＧ ＴＨＩＮＧＳ ＡＮＤ ＳＬＡＭＭＩＮＧ ＴＨＥ ＤＯＯＲ."

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"my life to put it simply- sucks. you'd be stupid if you didn't know that."

hair color; sandy brown with highlights; >> "don't touch the hair babe- it's worth more then a house. i'm totally kidding. totally and completely. i honestly don't care if people touch it.. a majority of the girls in the 'popular' group i have following me pester me constantly to touch it. i do have to admit when it becomes a daily thing it gets annoying as heck.. but other then that i'm fine. it's sandy brown with lighter highlights. i do take pride in it and actually take a bit of time to style in in the mornings."
eye color; green-hazel; >> "bleh right? my eyes? what's so cool about green hazel anyways? all my eyes are are an emerald green with a thin ring of honey brown around the rim. i mean i'm sure there a lot of people who have eyes better then mine. personally i wish i could have blue eyes.. just like my family always wanted.. though things don't tend to go my way so i'm okay with that."
height; six foot even; >> "am i giant? no no no. not by a long shot. i'd say i'm actually average for my age, gender, and weight. i've seen guys my age both taller and shorter then myself so i'm pretty much stuck in the middle as most cases go. i guess that's fine.. people seem to underestimate it in a fight though. just because your bigger then me doesn't mean i can't kick your *ss regardless. it isn't about the size of the dog in the fight but the size of the fight in the dog. yeah-quote time."
weight; 137 lbs; >> "erm. not really a healthy weight right? of course i did explain why.. i'd say judging by my height and age i'm probably about thirty pounds under a normal weight? not that i find it that big of a deal. i'm having no issues medically. well- regarding my weight anyways. you probably knew that though seeing as you're practically getting my life story."
piercings; ears; >> "yeah. only my ears. nowhere else. yet.. ..if you seriously think i'm getting that done your crazy. no. just no. i was thinking more of my lip sometime in the future. as for right now the majority of what i wear are white gauges. i don't remember specifically what size but i'm guessing somewhere between a twelve and an eight or so."
tattoos; none; >> "that is one thing i surprisingly don't have. tattoos. they aren't really my thing at the moment. it's a little weird when i'm participating in swim during the winter. i don't know. i guess i just have yet to get drunk enough to actually end up getting one with a stupid meaning. lucky me. i've done a lot of other stupid stuff though. you'll learn that quickly. maybe some time in the future i will get one but as for right now there is no permanent ink anywhere on my body."
scars; cuts, burns; >> "ah. this one is obvious is it not? it is talking about physical scars though however so that does take out a big chunk of what i was going to tell you about. good. less talking for me to do. the less you know the better as well. hmm.. well. i used to cut. i stopped about.. three? four years ago? something like that. i guess i found something else to take my mind away from the issues. if you've paid any attention to me talking rather then staring at my appearance you'd know that drinking happens to play a big factor in that. alright. moving on. burns. well. i like fire. so obviously i get burnt eventually. normally it happens to be small and on my hands but sometimes i'm not as lucky and it may nick my leg. plus as you will learn- my house burnt down. i can't say i went out untouched from it."
vehicle; dodge ram 3500; >> "my baby. probably the thing i hold closest to me.. well.. uhm.. yeah.. nevermind. anyways. my truck. it's silver in color and as it has been listed it is a dodge ram 3500. pretty legit i guess. it's in decent condition considering how much i took it mudding just this recent summer. plus not to mention i did hit a tree once. there isn't much of a story to tell on my truck.. the memories speak for themselves. if you weren't there then it obviously won't concern you."
phone; white iphone; >> "erm. you really want me to ramble on about a phone? nah. it doesn't work like that anyways."
living area; decent sized house; >> ".."
parents; allison and dallas remirez; >> ".."
siblings; brooklyn, cabe; >> ".."
pets; rottweiler, pitbull, and two cats; >> ".."
history; reckless, tradgic, and wild; >> "erm. oh god. i don't want to? can't we just skip this? can't i just go fall in public or something to make up for keeping my lips shut? .. no? oh.. uhm.. sh*t.. fine. i swear though- tell a soul and you'll wish you hadn't. life for me isn't swell. even from the day i was born. my parents- mostly my mother- is a bit of a religious freak. like- horribly. the fact that i was born on the thirteenth of october and it happened to be a friday did not sit well with them at all. apparently even at being only one and two i still caused much havoc an trouble. quite the disappointment i was as i grew up. at first i was the only child but as time passed a pair of twins showed up and i was completely pushed out of the picture. i can't really blame them. i wasn't the perfect son they wanted. i wasn't no blonde haired blue eyed perfect creation that did everything right. no. instead i got into trouble. a lot of it too. then one day it all went completely south. I had been sitting in my room just lighting old school work on fire and blowing it out due to pure boredom. when i had been requested by my little sister to help her with something i left the room. a page that was thought to be put out burst into flames and soon enough engulfed my room. i had grabbed brooklyn and my mother got cabe out safely but my father was nowhere to be found.. apparently he had been passed out drunk and now he wouldn't wake up.. ever. that day changed all of us. my mother flat out just hates me.. she only puts up with me because she has to until i graduate. the kids were of too young of an age to know what had happened but i'm sure my mom had told them something along the lines i was a 'demon child' and it was purposely my fault my father had died. so yeah. she was practically calling me a murderer. the saddest part was was that i was only eleven when it happened. ever since i've been living life inside a hallow shell."

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"finally had your fill on my life? i thought not. d*mn."

ＩＦ ＹＯＵ'ＲＥ ＬＯＯＫＩＮＧ ＦＯＲ ＬＯＶＥ

ＬＯＯＫ ＳＯＭＥＷＨＥＲＥ ＥＬＳＥ

"ＹＯＵ ＡＮＤ Ｉ ＧＥＴ ＳＯ Ｄ*ＭＮ ＤＹＳＦＵＮＣＴＩＯＮＡＬ, ＷＥ ＳＴＡＲＴ ＫＥＥＰＩＮＧ ＳＣＯＲＥ."

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"don't waste your time. i'm not worth it."

sexual orientation; pansexual; >> "gender doesn't matter. i'm not going to seclude a person based upon what they are physically. it's more of an emotional connection. although having seen my lack for better emotions i'm not necessarily the best choice to most. i'm okay with that. i honestly don't need love to function. i'm just fine without it."
love interest; nobody; >> "it's pretty hard for me to fall for someone when everyone just eventually leaves.. this would be the reasoning for myself being so in a shell about my past.. nobody understands.. and those who do would judge me for it. so yeah- forever alone status right here."
relationship status; single; >> "hah. no idea why i laughed but i did. probably because that answer is so obvious to myself but completely a shocking discovery to everyone else in this world. i'm going to be forever alone. i just know it. i mean- who could love a person like me? i'm so messed up- nobody likes to deal with a load of baggage."
fiance/spouse; nobody; >> "really? do i look like the person to get married at a young age without good reasoning? heck i don't even look like the type of person to have a relationship. nope. everyone just assumes that i'm one of those players that sleeps around with anything that walks. for one- eww. that's highly disgusting and a good way to catch a disease or something. and two- i have more dignity then that actually. surprising? perhaps. anyways. no. no fiance and no spouse. if i ever did get married it wouldn't be until later in my life. i doubt that'll happen though."
children; none; >> "pfft. no no no no no. no kids for me. not for awhile. if that even happens considering i'll probably be forever alone. i'm okay with that though. i don't think a child should even be a thought for me right now. i must admit there have been some close calls in the past.. okay- so maybe not so many. two. although most people think that's far too many anyways. yeah- maybe- but at least i don't go getting into everyone's pants. sheesh."
turn ons; nice smile, blue eyes, and a good personality; >> "woo. the stuff i find downright attractive. the fun stuff. first and foremost i'd probably have to say personality. not one person can be beautiful while having an ugly heart. i like someone who is a bit rebellious in the least.. seeing as how i am. well actually i just suppose a personality that can co-live with mine will do just fine. of course dazing smiles only add to the effect. despite my lack of doing so i like to see other people smile and enjoy themselves. as far as eye color goes it's not like i wouldn't like a person because they have a specific color of eyes. although i'd have to say blue is my favorite most times."
turn offs; party poopers, goody-goodies, too much perfume or cologne; >> "bleh. bleh bleh bleh. party-poopers? they suck to be honest. all everyone is trying to do is have fun and they have to go and be a big rain cloud and ruin it all. goody-goodies annoy me too. you know what i'm talking about. the kids who try far too hard to impress the teachers. baking them food, giving them unnecessary gifts.. like really? your going to be leaving them in a few years anyways.. so i see no point in it. too much perfume or cologne just kills me. it stinks. like- it's great in smaller amounts but when you spray on half the bottle it feels like i'm being suffocated or something."
other information; none; >> "at this current moment i have nothing more to ramble to you about. isn't that great? aren't you just so thrilled to have this done and over with? i know i am. why don't you go out and enjoy your day? go ride a roller coaster, buy a puppy, peddle a bike backwards up a mountain, feed a squirrel peanut butter, hug a tree, just do something productive. well- not necessarily productive but at least do something."

"go. run away now like everyone else. leave me be."



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Ｊｕｓｔ ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ ｈｅｒ ｅｙｅｓ ｄｏｎ'ｔ ｔｅａｒ ｄｏｅｓｎ'ｔ ｍｅａｎ ｈｅｒ ｈｅａｒｔ ｄｏｅｓｎ'ｔ ｃｒｙ.
Ａｎｄ ｊｕｓｔ ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ ｓｈｅ ｃｏｍｅｓ ｏｆｆ ｓｔｒｏｎｇ, ｄｏｅｓｎ'ｔ ｍｅａｎ ｔｈｅｒｅ'ｓ ｎｏｔｈｉｎｇ ｗｒｏｎｇ.

“I didn't want to wake up.
I was having a much better time asleep.
And that's really sad.
It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so relieved.
I woke up into a nightmare.”

Yoυr вaѕιcѕ

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naмe; farah vicki willbourne
She must admit, her name is a bit weird, but it's one the few things she actually likes about herself. Her first name is the total opposite of her though, meaning happiness or joy in arabic. It's pronounced Far - ra - h (h like you're blowing on glass or a mirror to shine it). Her middle name, Vicki, is short for Victoria which means conquerer or victory. It's more common than her first name. Finally, her last name, which she got from her family. She's not very sure what it means. Her family isn't all that sure either, not that she's asked them, she just assumed. It's not really a conversation they have sitting around the table at dinner. People sometimes call her Far, people don't really talk to her though. Or rather, she doesn't really talk to people.
age; seventeen
Seventeen, almost eighteen years ago Farah was born. The night she was born was a cold one. To be exact it was on, October 12th, 1995 at 2:49 am. She was a hard birth, her mother had been in labor for some hours before Farah finally was born. The world she was brought into was cold and not just because it was October. Her mother barely looked at her after she was born, let alone held her. She just fell asleep, forgetting her newborn baby. Of course at the time that didn't hurt Farah as much as it did now.
gender; female
This is pretty obvious, Farah would like to think. She doesn't love how she looks but she's pretty sure she at least looks female. If she looks male to you, maybe it's time for Farah to get a makeover, if she's up for it.

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Ｎｅｖｅｒ ｕｎｄｅｒｅｓｔｉｍａｔｅ ｔｈｅ ｐａｉｎ ｏｆ ａ ｐｅｒｓｏｎ ｂｅｃａｕｓｅ ｔｈｅ ｔｒｕｔｈ ｉｓ ｅｖｅｒｙｏｎｅ ｉｓ ｓｔｒｕｇｇｌｉｎｇ.
Ｉｔ'ｓ ｊｕｓｔ ｓｏｍｅ ｐｅｏｐｌｅ ｈｉｄｅ ｉｔ ｂｅｔｔｅｒ ｔｈａｎ ｏｔｈｅｒｓ.

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нeιgнт; 5'4"
Standing at 5' 4", Farah isn't too tall nor too short. She's actually at the average height for her age. This actually surprises her a bit though, seeing how stressed she is. She kind of thought she'd grow a little slow or something. Farah actually won't be growing much more in the height department, maybe an inch or two but not much.
weιgнт; 107 lbs
You've probably noticed, she's a bit small for her age. And it's probably because she doesn't eat a lot. No one has said anything to her about it though, they probably haven't noticed, so she doesn't think it's that bad. And it I guess it isn't, she could be a lot smaller. I don't think she'll be getting that much smaller though, she's been trying to put on weight, of course she is. All the girls around her have meat on their bones and they look a lot better than her. She thinks everyone looks better than her though, no matter their age, gender, or weight.
eyeѕ; blue
Another of the few things Farah likes about herself. She really likes her eyes, thinks their pretty even. They aren't too small or too big. And not too far apart nor too close. They're a icy blue towards the middle but as the go out, they become a dullish blue. Almost looking grey. She has very few green flecks scattered towards the center of them. In the light, they almost look like a clear blue. They're the first thing people notice about her, then they notice her weight.
нaιr; dirty blonde
Dirty blonde. Meaning her hair isn't totally blonde, it has a darkish brown mixed in with it. If she hasn't been in the sun in awhile, it looks more brown, as if she has blonde highlights. If she's in the sun a lot, it can turn a palish blonde. Her hair changes, but she can barely get a tan, always staying a palish color. She doesn't mind until she sees all of the beautiful girls with tans when summer is over.
pιercιngѕ; none
She doesn't have any at the moment, not even her ears. She'd like to maybe get snakebites though. She most likely won't, she's kind of scared it will hurt. Her pain tolerance is actually kind of high, even though, she's still worries a lot. If someone went with her, she'd most definitely get them. No one would go with her though, she's sure of that.
тaттooѕ; none
She doesn't have any tattoos and doesn't really want any. Maybe a little one on her wrist or back. Not anytime soon though, she's got too much too think about.

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Ｉ'ｍ ｔｉｒｅｄ ｏｆ ｂｅｉｎｇ ｎｉｃｅ ｔｏ ｐｅｏｐｌｅ ｗｈｏ ｄｏｎ'ｔ ｇｉｖｅ ａ ｓｈ*ｔ ａｂｏｕｔ ｍｅ.

deep down

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perѕonalιтy; reserved . insecure . pessimist . hopeful . sarcastic
You'll never catch Farah smiling. She's too depressed for that. Unless you've got some magic powers and actually try, she'll never smile. You'll never see her cry either, though. She prefers to do so when she's alone and even then, she rather keep her tears locked deep inside. Farah is a pessimist, at the same time she's hopeful though. Pretty weird mix, huh? It's not as if she's always hopeful though, only in spurts once in awhile. Sarcasm. Farah can be really sarcastic. Mainly to cover up how she really feels. She's definitely reserved, always keeping to herself and insecure. She doesn't like herself at all.
нιѕтory; it's nothing pretty
One cold night in New Castle, Delaware, on October 12th 1995, Farah was brought into the world. Her mother wasn't too fond of her. It was an instant dislike you could say. She didn't even know her newborn daughter and disliked her. Her father felt the same way, mainly because his wife felt that way. Four years after Farah's birth, her little sister Mckenzie was born. They loved her and so, even at such a young age, Farah began to dislike herself as well. Disliking herself would soon turn into hating herself.

Mckenzie was plastered with hugs, kisses and gifts. She was spoiled. Farah, she was just a background image. She was there but she didn't really matter. Her sister was absolutely beautiful. She was told so all the time. Farah, Farah was beautiful as well. Maybe even more beautiful than Mckenzie, she was never told that though. She couldn't see her beauty. Six years after Mckenzie was born, when Farah was ten, she started self-harming herself. Her sister, six at the time, even bullied Farah. She thought she was better than her, knew so. Everyone pretty much told her that, why wouldn't she think so. Mckenzie grew up spoiled, thinking she was the best person in the world. Farah couldn't tell if she hated Mckenzie or loved her. She definitely didn't love her. But she didn't hate her. She hated her family. She hated them for not giving her a chance.

When Farah was fourteen she became anorexia. It only lasted for about two years. She had had social phobia since she small, same with insomnia. When Farah was seventeen, she was sent over the edge. Seeing all of these wonderful people around her and being so imperfect. She attempted suicide. Just before she hung herself though, her father walked in. He felt guilty, that she felt this way and he didn't know. Her mother though, she felt disgusted and wouldn't look at Farah. Not that she did a lot of that before. Mckenzie didn't know what to make of it, so she followed after her mother, thinking that was best and acted disgusted. Then they sent her away, to get better and that's where she is now. Alone and even more hurt than before.

lιĸeѕ; she has a few
Some of the things Farah likes are, her puppy, Firefly. She loves him to death. She also likes, the sky, night or day. Music, reading, winter, snow, autumn and chocolate milk. It's not a lot, but the things listed she really likes. She would probably enjoy other things more if her 'mental' health was, well, more healthy.
dιѕlιĸeѕ; a few of these too
Farah doesn't have a lot of these either. The biggest one would have to be her family. She doesn't really like them at all. Especially her mother, she can even say she hates her mother. Some other things she dislikes is bugs, loud noises, summer, heat, sweating and wearing socks.
тalenтѕ; piano
Farah has been playing the piano since she was small. She learned on her own, by sound. Her parents had a music room and she'd sneak in there when no one was home and play around on the piano. Eventually she got quite good and practiced all the time. Playing the piano, it was good for Farah. She loved music and playing it got her minds off of things, while at the same time let her express how she felt. Her parents didn't say anything, but you could tell they weren't all that happy about her going in there. They definitely never congratulated her.
ѕecreтѕ; self-harm . depression . anorexic . insomnia . social anxiety disorder
Self-harm. The first thing on the list above and one of the worst. Farah has been doing self-harm since she was young and she actually still does it. She does it because she's depressed, the second thing on the list. Farah rarely tells people how she feels, so she takes everything out on herself. Blames herself for everything, even when it wasn't her fault. Next thing on the list is anorexic. This was pretty bad for about two years, but she's trying to get better, to eat more. Main reason this got so out of hand is because no one ever payed enough attention to notice how thin she had gotten. Fourth thing is insomnia, this isn't as bad. Most of the times, nowadays, Farah can fall asleep if she clears her mind. Clearing her mind is hard though, she's got a lot to think about. Last, but not least, social anxiety disorder, also know as social phobia. This is another one of the more worst things. "People with social anxiety disorder, also known as social phobia, suffer from an intense fear of becoming humiliated in social situations — specifically the fear of embarrassing oneself in front of other people. They worry that they will not measure up, or that they will mess up when talking, speaking to, or interacting with others." That is the true definition of it. Simply put, she has a hard time speaking to others, besides family and close friends.
ѕeхυal orιenтaтιon; pansexual
Farah is pansexual. She doesn't care if you're male or female or a mix of both. If she happens to fall in love with you or get a crush on you or something, your gender won't matter. She probably won't fall in love with you though, she believes everyone leaves her at some point, so she sticks to herself, lest she get more hurt.

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Ｉ ｃｏｕｌｄ ｇｏ ｏｎ ｗｉｔｈ ｍｙ ｄａｙ ａｎｄ ａｃｔ ｌｉｋｅ ｅｖｅｒｙｔｈｉｎｇ ｉｓ ｏｋａｙ.
Ｂｕｔ ａｓ ｍｙ ｌｉｆｅ ｇｏｅｓ ｏｎ ｉｔ ｈｕｒｔｓ ｍｏｒｅ ｉｎ ｅｖｅｒｙ ｗａｙ.

relaтιonѕнιpѕ

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ғaмιly; mother . father . younger sister
Farah absolutely hates her mother, who's name is Annie Lori Wellbourne.
Farah isn't too fond of her father but he's definitely better than her mother. He at least tries sometimes. His name is David Ronald Wellbourne.
Finally, Farah's little sister. She envies her deeply, but can't say if she hates her or loves her. I guess she isn't sure. Her name is Mckenzie Ashley Wellbourne.
peтѕ; one puppy
It's a pretty funny story on how Farah got her puppy, Firefly. Well, maybe not that funny, but anyways, Farah was walking down the street when she found Firefly. He immediately took a liking to her and started to follow her home. At first her parents were against it, but she begged and it was probably the first time she begged, no asked, for something in her life. So they said yes. Mckenzie, at one point, tried to claim Firefly as her own. Firefly hated Mckenzie though, he hated all of her family except her. Farah feels it was fate. That they were both abandoned by their family and needed each other to survive. Firefly is one of the few things she loves. She got him when she was sixteen.
вeѕт ғrιend; none
Farah doesn't have any friends, let alone a best one. She craves this thing called friendship that everyone seems to have though. She's got a social phobia. It's when you can't really have a conversation with anyone unless they're family or a really close friend. She's tried to overcome it but whenever words come out of mouth, it seems she only ends up only embarrassing herself and her family.
crυѕн; none
I'm sure Farah has had a small crush on someone here or there, but she's never really thought about it. She worries over other things. She's always trying to stay out of peoples way, her family's mostly. Then there's the fact that even if she had this feeling for someone, she wouldn't notice it. Not unless she's looking for it. She's got other things to worry about though, she's not going to run around being lovesick.
вғ/gғ; none
She'd have to have a crush first and, as stated above, she doesn't have one. She needs to get all of her problems straightened out before she gets in a relationship. There would also probably be no point in getting one, she believes everyone abandons her eventually. No one ever stays. So she'd be distant in the relationship, she wouldn't want to get hurt when it ended.

Hello Captain.

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[Captain.]

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