Blue.Leopard wrote:_Hawkeye_ wrote:
Tonna and Sammi J
Wishful Thinking
Dear Samm,
I know we've been friends for longer then I can remember. I know that you don't think of me any other way, but have you ever thought that maybe I liked you as more then a friend? Maybe I do. Maybe I'm enraptured by your deep blue eyes. Maybe I'm obsessed with your smile. Maybe... I love you. This probably comes as a shock to you, and I understand if you never talk to me again after this, but I need to tell you my true feelings. I don't know how to control them! Each time I see you, they get stronger and more passionate. Each time you look at me with those gorgeous eyes, I feel like I'm going to melt. When you need a shoulder to cry on, I'm always there for my girl. I know I'd be better for you then any guy you meet. I know I'd never leave you, like all those other boys did. They hurt you, I understand. I've been through that with you, and trust me, I would have hurt each and every one if you weren't there to hold me back.
I understand you like no one else does, and I love you for who you are, not for who I can change you to be. Please. Please read this letter, and don't hate me. I think I'd die. No. It wouldn't kill me, It would do much worse..
There you have it, my whole heart poured into one piece of paper. I hope you appreciate it.
I love you more then you know.
~Tonna
Tonna looked at the paper in her hands, silent tears streaking down her face. She'd never love me. If I gave her this, I don't think Samm would ever talk to me again. She though as hot anger suddenly raged through her. Tonna turned to glance at her mirror, and glared at her reflection. You deserve this, you deserve everything that's happening in your life. What you don't deserve is Samm. You'll never get her, so just give up! Tonna reached for her paper, and crumpled it in her hands. I'd never have the guts to give it to her, anyway. She though, as she tossed it into the trash. As Tonna looked at the crumpled letter, waves of pain and sorrow overtook her. She trudged over to her bed, and sobbed into a pillow. I don't deserve her, I'll never deserve her... She'll never be mine.
Tonna and Sammi J
Painful Realization(The day after the above story)
"And it was just so funny!" Samm said, laughing hysterically. Gosh, your laugh is contagious... Tonna thought, watching Samm's every move. "I love your laugh!" She said, instead. Samm blushed "Thanks!" She laughed, "You're a really good friend, I'm glad you're in my life." Tonna looked away, Gosh, you're killing me... She thought. "You don't realize how happy I am that we are friends, Samm. You're the only thing that makes sense in my crazy life!" Samm laughed, "Don't I know it!" She got up from off of my bed, where we were laying, attempting to stay on topic: Playing Truth Or Dare. Samm fished out a piece of paper from her backpack, and walked back to my bed. "This is my husband. Well, in my mind he is." She said, thrusting the picture in my hands. I looked down at it and saw a guy I could never compete with. "He's gorgeous! Congratulations!" I joke, knowing that's what she expected me to do. "I know, right?" She said, her face flushing pink. "He's so perfect! I bet he'd be a good boyfriend." That's it. I can't handle this anymore... I thought. "Samm, I need to go to the bathroom. I'll be back in a little while, those burritos did something funky to my system!" I said, making the first excuse I could to get out of this torture. "Eww! TMTH!" Samm said, laughing. "Okay, girlie, take your time!" I nodded, and walked towards the bathroom farthest away from my bedroom. When I got there, I leaned against the wall and slowly sank down until I had my head rested on my knees. Why does this always happen to me? I thought, as I felt hot, stinging tears in my eyes. I know I would be a better girlfriend to her then any boy would. I would treat her like she was as rare as a blue diamond. I looked in the mirror across from me, and started sobbing. I don't deserve her, why do I even try? She's so flawless, and gorgeous, and... Not mine. The more I thought about this, the more violent the sobs racked through me. She dreams of boys that wouldn't even second glace her, and yet she doesn't realize that Mrs. Right has always been by her side. She doesn't know that every time I see her with another person, I imagine I'm in their place. I love her, more then I've ever loved anyone. I wish she'd reali- A knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. "Tonna..? Are you okay, you've been in here for a while. I'm worried." It was Samm. "You...You're worried about me?" I asked, stalling so I could try and conceal the streaks down my face. "Are you serious, Tonna? You're my best friend, the best I've ever had! Of course I'm worried about you." I unlocked the door and Samm burst in. She took one look at me, then her face got serious. "Why were you crying, missy!" She asked, looking at me with those huge, gorgeous blue eyes. "I-I...Uhm.." I didn't know where to start. Do I tell her the truth..? I looked at the ground, then back at her. "I'm just lonely, I wish I had a boyfriend..." I lied, but I'm pretty sure Samm couldn't tell. "Awhh! Tonna, I'm so sorry. You could have told me, you know! I would have been there for you." You aren't here for me know, you can't even tell I'm lying! I've been lying for quite a while now, it's about time you noticed! I thought bitterly, "I will next time, Samm. Thanks for putting up with me, and for being such a good friend." I said, hugging her and cherishing every moment of it.
Tonna and Sammi J
Regrets (A few hours after the above story)
I could feel my heart hammering against my chest, I could hear it thumping through my thoughts, I knew I shouldn't do this, but I did.
"Samm. I..." I trailed off, looking sadly in her eyes. "I need to tell you something. Something that could change our relationship for good or bad." Samm's face grew white, as a million things I could say raced through her head. Today, this minute, is the only chance I'll get to tell her. She's expected home soon, so we won't have much time to talk about it after I tell her... I thought But how do I tell her..? Samm pulled a blanket over her shoulders, and looked quizzically towards me. "What is it, Tonna?" She asked. I pulled my hat over my eyes, and hung my head. "Samm..." I said, shifting my hat so I could see her gorgeous face. "I think... I think I love you." My heart rate grew quick, as her eyes widened. She laughed nervously, "You mean, like a friend?" She asked hopefully, her face still white with shock. "No, Samm. I mean more then a friend. More then a best friend, more then I've loved anyone, more then I think I will love anyone. Samm, I want to be with you for the rest of our short lives on earth. I want to stay with you even after that. I want you to love me too... Samm..." I trailed off, as her face grew cold. "I can't believe you'd do this to me, Tonna!" She snapped, "You were supposed to be my best friend, not a lesbian! Not some freak!" I winced, lowering my head as hot tears streamed down my face. "This will never work. Never. I don't think I can be around you now that I know you love me!" Her face reddened as I glared at her, which I rarely do, "I thought you'd stick with me, I thought we could get through this! That's why I told you, that's why you know..." My voice grew quiet. Samm turned to the door, "I have to go. This is goodbye, Tonna." She said firmly. I pressed my face against a pillow. "Goodbye, my love... I whispered, the words barely audible.
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Ooh, will you be continuing? <33
Awhh <333 thank you for commenting! Yes, I will be!
I hope you do decide to write one.
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