[[ Sorry if this is long. It was from a literate rp. xD ]]
↱ Dean Rockheart ↰
❝ That fabric softner teddy bear? Oh, imma hunt that little bitch down. ❞
┣ м ʏ • ρ ɛ я ƨ σ и α ℓ • ℓ ι ғ ɛ ┨
- ғ ʋ ℓ ℓ • и α м ɛ "Dean Rockheart, don't wear it out."
и α м ɛ • σ я ι ɢ ι и "Lawrence, Kansas."
и ι c κ • и α м ɛ "Just Dean."
α ɢ ɛ "23."
ɢ ɛ и ∂ ɛ я "I'm a dude. Wanna check?"
∂ ι ƨ ɛ α ƨ ɛ ƨ "No diseases, man, I'm clean."
м ι ƨ т α κ ɛ ƨ "Mistakes? Damn, there are alot of those."
м σ ∂ ι ғ ι c α т ι σ и ƨ "Only one tattoo. On the back of my shoulder. It says LUCKY."
ƨ ɛ ϰ ʋ α ℓ • σ я ι ɛ и т α т ι σ и "Straight. I'm perfectly straight."
- ┣ ω н α т • ι • ℓ σ ʌ ɛ ┨
- ρ ɛ т (ƨ) "Nope, not a one."
ғ α т н ɛ я "John Rockheart."
м σ т н ɛ я "Katherine Rockheart."
ƨ ι в ℓ ι и ɢ ƨ "My younger brother Sam."
c я ʋ ƨ н "Nope."
в σ ʏ ғ я ι ɛ и ∂ • ɢ ι я ℓ ғ я ι ɛ и ∂ "Love? That stuff is over-rated. I'm more of a one-night-stand kinda guy."
ғ ι α и c ɛ "Please."
ƨ ρ σ ʋ ƨ ɛ "Bleh."
κ ι ∂ (ƨ) "Kids? I have a life to live, man!"
н σ в в ι ɛ ƨ "Anything to do with nature. Fishing, hunting, stuff like that. I love being outside."
α и ʏ т н ι и ɢ • ɛ ℓ ƨ ɛ "Nope, that's it."
- ┣ ∂ σ и ' т • н α т ɛ • м ɛ ┨
- ρ ɛ я ƨ σ и α ℓ ι т ʏ "I don't have to explain myself to you." Dean is a hard one to decipher because he’s so fluently changing all of the time. One moment he may appear to you as completely approachable and friendly and at another time he might radiate the need to be left alone. A lot of that has to do with the fact that he’s rapidly adapting to the environment and situations that he’s being placed in, the rest is more focused toward the reality that he never really had the experience of socially adjusting anywhere. Dean was always on the move and he didn’t believe in long term friendships and bonds that extended past family until he was almost twenty-nine. He’s not an enigma he’s just gotten used to being the “foggy” guy in the room and he's never gone out of his way to change that. It’s still questionable as to whether he’s unsure of himself and where he in fact lies in all of this, if it’s his more definitive personality, or, what he’d like himself to be. Dean doesn’t keep to one standardized image and tends to vary between his personality flaws and habits.
The man is stubborn and biased when it comes to his own belief systems, he prefers to think that his opinions and his assumptions are resolute simply because he’s had to rely on only himself for so very long. It’s not an issue of elitism, he just knows his ideas and evaluations to be true in 90% of the situations that he’s faced. It doesn’t mean he’ll immediately cast aside an offering of ideas or leads but he’s one to always want and have the final say in expressing and acting upon them. This mule headed tactic is often involved in his social connections and family relations as well. Dean doesn’t like to surrender himself in an argument and won’t bend to anyone’s will. History has proven the only two to successfully get him to put aside his idea of the way things should be are his brother and his father, and even that wasn't without a struggle. Dean isn't fond of peer pressure or others swaying him into doing what they think is more preferable and has even gone so far as to do the exact opposite of their wishes if he doesn’t agree with it. His views on himself are treated very much the same. It's not without heavy evidence supporting another theory or standpoint that he'll relinquish his opinionated high ground.
Always the prideful creature, whether it comes to just his ideals or people that he respects he can’t see wrong in feeling the way he does about them. Dean behaves like he’s the greatest thing since sliced bread; he carries that ego in his posture as well as in the bridge of his shoulders and is so open about it that it's become very evident. He’s no stranger to what he’s done for everyone and everything and even though the aftermath has dropped this pig headedness down a great degree, it’s still there and true. He's learned to value himself as a person despite the scorn that he has for his mistakes.
He has a knack for making a crude comment or sardonic joke in the midst of a tense or emotionally stressful situation. While some might contribute this to immaturity in many ways it’s a coping mechanism. Dean doesn’t have time to take every heavy psychological blow that’s thrown at him and instead of allowing it he’ll turn it into a joke to make it easier for himself to deal with. He does this fairly often, despite circumstance, and it’s gotten to be a regular part of his personality.
It's not obvious at all or ever admitted but Dean’s very insecure, not just about himself, and not about anything physical… but more so emotionally. He is liable to snap, and, despite how he acts, he is able to be broken. He is very able to crack under pressure, even though he tries to manage being cool. He’s attempted to mentally separate himself from that side of who he is but he knows that it’s still there and it’s still a plausible piece of him and that realization hurts.
Outwardly, he may appear almost vainglorious in his reactions to people and things. Inwardly, this certainly isn’t the case. Dean is genuine in what he does and says despite the fact that he tries to shroud this part of himself away. It's with cocky superiority and incandescent sarcasm that he keeps the real struggle with who he is, and his trials and tribulations well hidden. He's always been good about keeping himself calm in the face of danger or distress and is very used to facing impending doom and severe situations. Throughout his experience with them he’s learned indefinitely to treat them with a placid recognition. He’s calm, smooth talking, deliberate in everything that he does in these circumstances and in many ways it helps him carry on through them. He doesn’t lose his head as easily and he’s better about accepting the ammunition that’s thrown at him when he’s involved in them. On that same note, Dean can’t be shot down when it comes to being involved in such an issue or situation. He’s head strong, strong willed, and determined. He can’t be diverted from what he’s doing and he won’t stop with it until he’s reached his goals and the priorities he had for what he’s dealing with. It takes death or near death to coerce Dean away from something he’s actively participating in or fighting. He’ll carry out an order or a task until it’s completely finished. He's never liked leaving things hanging and this is only supported by the fact that he’s never left a case at home open ended and always treks trough it until he’s completely finished, no matter how much the circumstances might bother him.
Regardless of how he feels about himself, or about something that he’s involved in, Dean is heroic and altruistic. He’ll put his life on the line to ensure the safety of another person or that they’re freed from whatever is tying them down. He spends hours of his time looking into the things that he’s facing and working against so that he has a better chance of defeating it and saving the people that are involved. You could say he is more cunning than he lets on, that he plays his stupid and arrogant jock routine to divert people away from the fact, but the things supporting this lack of intellect are usually replaced by the excess of street smarts and survival skills that he has in spades. While Dean certainly isn't well versed in book learning and has no college degree he's ahead of most when it comes to simply living and brilliant in his line of work.
It’s not easy to say whether or not Dean is who he claims to be, who he is internally, or everything therein. He’s adaptable, above anything, and changes with circumstance. He’s the kind of man you meet four years prior at the worst of his luck and then see again another three later on top of his game. There are pieces of Dean that are overall too simple to fit under the definition of ambiguous, though it's one that comes to mind more often than not, especially in the company of normal people. He's mysterious, he's intriguing, and he's hard to read. Dean is an ever changing labyrinth of cryptic personality traits and emotional responses. The composure that he displays is never exact.
Physically Dean has shown weakness to emotional situations and the memories of his past. He doesn't sleep well, most always having nightmares and it makes him irritable, angry, and promises the inevitable mistake. He's terrified of planes and plane rides. While it doesn't state in canon beyond "planes" that he's afraid of heights it's obviously tied into not having control of the situation or lack of control in what he's venturing into, a problem most people experience with roller coasters and sky diving- utilities for enjoyment. Dean has a small equivalent to a Jerry Maguire complex. Despite his isolative and closed off nature Dean cannot be alone. He needs to have the companionship of someone, anyone, or he'll fall into self destructive and self sabotaging tendencies- also of which is a large fault of his.
As said above, Dean is heavily repressed, and while it may serve him in harder situations this is also a flaw because he's seized himself emotionally to such an extent that he can't show his true colors in the appropriate situations and buries everything to a degree that's so overwhelming, that when he's at a breaking point or facing anything that opens him up to sensitive scrutiny, he snaps. He breaks and he falls into either fits of volatile rage or horrible agonizing bouts of depression.
Beyond this, Dean has a very visible crutch-type attachment to alcohol and food. He's indulgent and gluttonous with both of them. Obviously, for different reasons. He uses liquor as a coping mechanism and food of any kind (call him a food enthusiast) as an emotional pick-me-up. He's also very well attached to his play boys, using sex and foreplay as instant gratification between jobs and a way to feel good despite the heinous battle he's fighting in whatever circumstance he's forced to face. It's a way to feel connected to someone without the emotional baggage in his mind.
Dean is someone that you'd have to debate on the fact if he's just a normal trouble maker or if he's just so ignorant that he's in the class of his own. He's someone that doesn't care what kind of 'trouble' class you put him in though. He usually doesn't care what people think about him, and even though he is a badass, he has his attitude calm and relaxed, laid back to the point of annoyance. He's just someone that as soon as you walk into the room with him in it that's he's going to make it hard for you two to get along. He just loves making people fear him, or maybe he thinks that he's going to make them respect him. Whatever he might think, he just loves to get to the point were you will be annoyed. He can almost find out what kind of things annoy you, and he'll make sure that he'll use it against you. If you're annoyed by little kids, most chances are he'll act as immature as a five year old, and keep on bugging you, and bugging you...
Dean is somewhat of a leader, even though he doesn't set good examples, this does not cancel out the fact that he can't be a good leader. He makes good decisions when it comes to people that work for him. Surprisingly if people just realized that they have to stop working against him and that they have to start working with him, and he'll become nicer, everything would be much easier. Though for some people, to say that they'll work with him, after some of the things that he has done to him, is rare and highly unlikely. He just makes people see the bad part of him first, and makes sure that everyone knows everything bad about him before he starts to show any good signs of good qualites. He does have some, though they might be faded and even ruined at times, this doesn't mean that they are not there. He makes sure that everyone sees the small bit of light in his soul once and awhile. Though this is like Hailee's Comet, it doesn't happen often, though when it does, you can't wait to see anything like it again. That's because truth over his hard boiled case is a semi-sweet boy, who really does care about other people and their feelings. No joke. However, this isn't common to see this side of him, and most likely he'll be nasty and aggressive to you. Or a totaly douche, whichever you happen to stumble into first.
Dean happens to be one of the biggest players around. He looks at relationships as meaningless worthless crap, like cigarette's good in the moment, though he doesn't like the long-term effects. He has something about him that usually attracts girls to him, and it might be his smile, or the way his voice came become like a snake charmer, seductive and deadly, something that can lure girls into a unseen trap. He's a heart breaker for sure, and if you are with him for more than a week without him seeing anyone else than you probably broke the record for longest lived stable relationship. He's nice at first around girls, though after awhile he'll become just as big of a douche as he is with everyone else. That is unless he doesn't like you to begin with, and than well you'll be treated the same in the beginning as every other person. He likes to make girls think that he cares about them, and usually he finds it funny when he sees a girl run off crying. He usually actually makes sure that he captures it on camera and so he can see it over and over again. Just to have more and more laughs.
в ι σ ɢ я α ρ н ʏ "Not exactly my favorite topic."
ƨ κ ι ℓ ℓ ƨ "Flirting, and talking my way out of things."
ғ ℓ α ω ƨ "I'm not as much of a nerd as my brother, so I'm not too good at all that researching, technical stuff. And I don't have the sincere, puppy-dog-eyed quality that Sam has."
в α ƨ ι c • ∂ ɛ ƨ c я ι ρ т ι σ и "A beautiful son of a bitch."
ρ н ʏ ƨ ι c α ℓ • ƨ ρ σ я т ƨ "Hunting. Fishing. That sort of thing."
α и ʏ т н ι и ɢ • ɛ ℓ ƨ ɛ "Nope."
