...Comfort?...Insults?...Anything?

[rabbithaver]

Grr. Yeah. Grr. I've had the worst few months imagineable.

Here's what happened:
1) Most of my friends are calling me gross and running away screaming. I have no choice but to sit alone just about everywhere.
2) My grades suck.
3) I can't get a stupid honor roll at my stupid school because I'm a stupid person. (everyone else gets, like, 2 a year >.<)
4) I just realized how many people are going to hate me for existing at all.
5) I probably have very little keeping me going anymore.
6) I'm lonely pretty much everywhere, and the only place I like to be is downstairs writing stories that suck.
7) I can't see myself having much of a job or a husband or kids of my own. I really can't see myself in 10 years.
8) I've gotten myself into a position in which more than a few people on CS think I'm insane, a liar, a very stupid person (true, though), that I have no life at all, that I'm in dire need of attention (not dire...but I wouldn't mind a little comfort right now...), that I've got no friends, that no one loves me or all of the above.
9) My best friend hates my guts. (Okay, not Feather'sHelper or anyone else on CS)
10) I'm probably going to get banned for posting this, but at this particular moment I'm too depressed to really care.
11) I don't want to swear anymore. Really.
12) I've tried everything to make my life easier and it's not working at all.
13) I think I've got no willpower whatsoever.
14) I can write really well, but no one ever wants to read what I write so I don't write anymore.
15) Now that I think about it, writing stories is the only thing I'm good at. And no one likes it.
16) I annoy everyone on accident.
17) There's only a few people who care about me, and that's only when they feel like it.
18) I lost my pet bunny, who was the only friend who was always there for me, even when he was sick and before he died.
19) I'm failing in life so miserably that I doubt I'm going to ever not fail.
20) I sound like I'm whining...but I am. But I don't care about that anymore.
21) I see no reason to keep trying anything.
22) I draw kinda okay-ish, but... how's that gonna help me in life?
23) I feel like a complete jerk to everyone and everything now.
24) I also feel stupid, ignorant and like I'll never be able to survive in the real world.
25) This is getting so long and I'm realizing so much that I feel like crying. I don't cry often so this is a change.
26) The only thing I'm succeeding in right now is making everyone mad at me and thinking I'm a horrible person with no life.
27) There's a lot of people on CS who hate my guts.
28) I'm a problem to everyone.
29) No one seems to care about me much anymore when I need them most. (great, now I really am crying. Goodie.)
30) Most people call me ugly.
31) I'm annoying people on CS who actually have lives.
32) Everyone laughs at me when someone insults me.
33) This whole list has happened since late February and I could keep on ranting forever.
34) I miss having something small and furry and warm to snuggle up with (my bunny).
35) I won't care if anyone hates me more now.
36) I don't care how people reply to this, I just want someone to talk to.
37) People talk about me behind my back all the time and they're nice enough to let me hear how stupid or annoying I am.

Well...I could go on forever...I'm probably gonna get kicked off CS now.

I really don't care who replies or how, I just need someone to talk to.

[Minim1ght]

Im sorry to hear about your troublesD: *hugs*
And you can talk to me, I really don't mind, Im the kind of person who likes to make others feel happy:)
So Im always open to talk^^

[~Helix~]

Ever tried thinking something positive? ^ ^;

[rabbithaver]

Tried that...It didn't really work. Although that avatar makes me wanna watch someone fall down the stairs and yell, "DO NOT FALL DOWN THE STAIRS." O.o

[~Helix~]

xD Glad it helped some? *hugs my avatar*

Eh, do you have a school counselor?

[ghostboy]

Yeah, Able's avatar always cheers me up too. *Hugs* The best you can do is try your best to think positive (It may not work at first, but it will eventually), the school counselor idea of Able's, and get hugs! *Hugs more*

[rabbithaver]

*ponders the likelyhood of my school having a counsellor, much less food that doesn't seem likely to jump off your plate and eat your head off* ...This is my problem: I think too much.

...Okay, in making this thread, I've made myself look like a wimp with a short attantion span xDDD...

...What the...? *stares at newspaper stupidly* I should be laughing so hard right now.

[~Helix~]

This always cheers everyone up. 8D

[KoolAid&Cyanide]

Just try to keep a positive attitude. I know how hard it can be, but in a few years from now, you'll find out that everyting that was the root of your problems is behind you. Focus on the positive in life, and try to find a friend who you can relate to who won't talk about you behind yor back. Is there anyone at your school who might be going through the same thing as you? You'd be surprised. They could make a great friend. And don't worry, none of us think you're stupid. recognize your strengths and weaknesses and embrace your strengths. You aid you were good at writing. Well, try finding nearby writing seminars, or find writing competitions to enter. Finding something your good at and getting better at it and doing it makes you feel so much better about yourself. Try new things. You may find out you really like something or are really good at it, and this is good for your self-esteem. You might even find a new friend, one who will really stick bu you. Also, make a list of things you like about yourself. It works great for improving self-esteem. And if you ever need anyone to talk to, I think everyone who's posted on this forum would be happy to listen and maybe give some good advice.

[dasniu]

*hugs* Hang in there, it'll get better.

And you wont get banned, trust me.. It goes (insert some number) warnings, then ban

Unless you have (# of warnings) you're not going anywhere

*hug*