Crushes, Boyfriends, and Girlfriends

[__PawPrints__]

Haha so guess whose about to get asked out tomorrw?

[KoolAid&Cyanide]

I have an idea. If Kyle and I were meant to be,then we will be together. It may take a while,but if we were meant to be,it'll be fine. So,some advice for everyone,don't rush fate. If it was seriously meant to be,it would happen. <33
~~Warr

While this may be true, I've realised that you can't always rely on fate. A proper working relationship takes an effort from both parties, and, even if its destined, will never work out if you think that leaving everything to fate is acceptable.

Pretty much nothing but good news as far as Darren goes. We actually had a good deal of interaction today. Our school had its grand opening today (even though we've been in the new building for two months now, we had to have the political opening where all the important people make speeches while the students sit for two hours wondering if this is really worth getting out of class, and then we get an extended lunch hour and eat cupcakes), and our band played, so while he was in performing arts class, I was warming up and running around like a maniac trying to get chairs organized. Then we got a break, so me and some friends went to visit his P.Arts class (and in the process found out our library has a book called The Physics of Star Trek. YES!), and they were working on their final projects, and, although I really didn't get to talk to him, I saw he was doing his project on the saxophone, and he knows full well that I play and love tenor sax, which is really great. Then at the end of the lunch hour, I was hanging out in one of the classrooms with him and a bunch of our friends, just talking about dinosaurs and the gender of Tyranosaurus Rex and stuff, which was really fun (although he might have found out a little about my bleach sniffing, which wasn't exactly something he was supposed to hear). Then we talked after school, which seems to just be our thing now, we always end up seeing each other near the entrance of the D wing (where my locker is) and talking about whatever for a minute or so before he gets on the bus or goes to Justin's and I walk home or go to the rink. He told me I did a good job on the saxophone today, which he always does when he hears me play, which I think is incredibly sweet, and he made fun of me because Mackenzie scared me when I left the classroom at lunch and I kinda screamed (seriously, I've only started making scenes in the hallway since Darren found out I liked him. Let's hope this is not a bad sign). Then I asked him out to lunch with me and two other friends on Thursday, which one of my friends has been bugging me to do. He wasn't sure, he said he'd tell me tomorrow. Hopefully it's a yes. Hopefully.

So glad things are back to normal with us (well, me. I think it was always normal with him.)

[palmsprout]

whoops

I think I just feel in love with a guy that I haven't seen in 4 years.

it's going to be awkward when I see him on Wednesday.

[paradox.]

I don't quite know what to do.
I really, really don't.
I'm so lost.
Okay:: Here's the code.


D or Spain:: Crush, stuck in the friend zone ?
B or Game:: Crush's best friend, would rather rip me apart limb by limb than give a compliment
Z or Sov:: Best friend ? Apparently likes D.
Tyler, Jacob, Austin:: Guy friends
And Me, Gras.



So I've been crushing on D for a while now. We go to Chess Club together, walk each other to classes at times, sit together at lunch, walk around during recess[yes we still have recess] with B and yeah. D and B are super close.
Z and I are the only girls in our group.
B tends to..bring me down.
So.. basically, I've known Z for nearly two years. Had my back since we met. B I've known for four[?] and he's hated me ever since the beginning of the school year. D I met in August and I always have thought of him as..special to me. The other guys are just...guy friends.
I told Z in January about how I think I've fallen for D.
And ever since then, she's been manipulative, cold, and tends to ignore me whenever anyone else is around. Teases me about liking D.
D, however, is oblivious.
B has been making me feel like a waste of space, every day, for weeks. I can't help but wonder- if I'm important to D, shouldn't he be defending me ? I've been getting mixed signals for a while now, but I've officially come to the conclusion he likes anyone but me.
But every time I talk with him, alone, I feel like I fall even harder for him. And I can't help it, even though I try and force myself to focus on anything but him. I try my hardest, but I just want to spend more time with him, become..more than friends. I don't think I'm ready for my first relationship, but what really bothers me is how cold Z is getting towards me.
She's so..hateful.
Not to mention ever since I told her, the rest of the group[there's roughly eleven of us as of recent] has been treating me with cold shoulders lately.
They worship her.
I can't help but wonder why in the world, when I try to be nice, try to be the best I can be, B picks on me and D just laughs it off and does nothing.
I just..I don't know what to do.
I've got issues as is. I've got abandonment, trust, and social anxiety. Am I too clingy, because I hug D once in a while ?
Maybe it's because I cry too much ?
B has caused me to cry atleast ten times in the past few days.
I want to make him realize what pain he causes me, how horrible he makes me think I am...but D and the others will only take his side. Leave me behind, alone.
These are the only friends I've ever had longer than a week... I don't want to lose them, but the things B has told me constantly makes me feel like I am truely worthless.
I've even said, and what actually do, is wake up every morning and the one thing I tell myself is, "You are not good enough, worthless pest. You are never going to be good enough." Because of what I've been told.
Can anyone help me out ?
I don't want to deal with this any more. But I don't want to go off on my own and get bullied even more becuse of it. I don't know what to do.

I usually don't read things in small writing but for once I took a chance at yours and I am really glad I did. Listen to me. YOU are not worthless. NO ONE is worthless. You are beautiful and you are not a pest. You cant listen to what others say. You should have self confidence. Show B that he cant make you cry anymore. If he says mean things to you you can either hold your head up high and not care what he says, or get petty and say "Your mom." (I hang out with guys too much x.X), or you can let him get to you and show him that you are weak. You are probably an amazing girl and you should NEVER feel worthless. Everyone has a purpose on this world and while it all seems horrible now it will get better. Theres no where to go but up right?

And I really think that you should get better friends. If she gets all your friends to turn on you they aren't real friends. Honestly I had 2 friends named Grace and Victoria. I hung out with this other girl named Miriam. Grace and Victoria didnt like Miriam and told me it was either them or her. Honestly friends don't make you choose between them and FRIENDS DO NOT turn against you. They are not your real friends if they did this and you have abandonment issues but trust me when I say you are better off without them and with people who actually care about you.

I may have been rambling but the gist of this is: YOU ARE AN AMAZING GIRL AND THEY ARE NOT YOUR REAL FRIENDS IF THEY ARE TAKING HER SIDE INSTEAD OF JUST NOT PICKING SIDES AT ALL! (Honestly I've been in the middle of sooo many sides I don't even bother to pick anyones sides x.X) IGNORE B BECAUSE HE IS AN BUTT AND HE SHOULD SHOVE HIS INSULTS WHERE THE SUN DON'T SHINE! <---- I don't even know XD And honestly if D doesn't help are you sure he is the right guy for you? Your guy should be like a knight in shining armor who actually defends you when people say mean stuff. It could be that D is chicken but he should still at least try to say something

[paradox.]

Not just you Atom.

[Skrillex The Fox]

Okay, so, I think I accidentally developed a crush on this guy. I didn't mean to at all - i mean, he scared me so badly when I first met him. I thought he was creepy. o.o

But yeah. I think I like him. A lot. We talk all day, and he's waaaay sweeter than the guy I've been having problems with. By a longshot. My last boyfriend broke up with be because he was kinda with my best friend as well. Meanie. :c But yeah. This guy, is the sweetest. Ever ever ever.

If he ever hurts you again, let me know, ok??

^^ I finally told him about my ex; I don't exactly trust the whole story with everyone.

You're eyes are amazing. I know, it's corny, but whatever. It's true. YOU'RE amazing.

^^I squealed like a little kid in a candy shop when he sent that one. He's adorable.

There's so much more that I'd post, but my phone auto - deletes messages once I hit a certain limit just to keep it running fast. Oh well. :'c

But the bad thing is that one of my closest friends adores him. :c

She moved, but still. I don't wanna be a meanie and steal the guy she's liked since, what, last summer?

-sigh- I really don't wanna bring up that I like him. I mean, it's kinda obvious that he likes me, since he kinda told me, but... I dunno. I'm not the best when it comes to relationships. Boys in general. They complain about us girls, but gosh, they confuse me. c:

Whatevs. We'll see how this works out at school tomorrow. Thank goodness I didn't see him today; I think I would've been redder than a tomato. >.<

[Acidic]

Hey, what's it mean to have a dream about your crush?

[river1999]

Hey, what's it mean to have a dream about your crush?

That's what happened to me. I didn't have a crush on this ne guy and then I had a dream about me and him. We were sitting together after school and he said to me "I've had a crush on you forever"
It made me realize that I love him.

[paradox.]

I had dreams on my crush all the time. Don't anymore cuz my mind is confused on whether it's Ryan or Brandon. I did have a Ryan one a few days ago though x.X

[Malédiction]

Okay. So, I am in need of help right now. Sorry if I am wasting any of your time.

Sooooooo...... I like this guy at my school. He's in my class, and he knows. Well... I think he knows. My friend told him that I used to like him, and now he teases me about it. The friend who told him said to me that if he didn't like me, he wouldn't care, and wouldn't bring it up every single day. Whenever his friend tells him "But you have a girlfriend" in front of me, he keeps saying he's going to dump her. And then he does, and then the week after he's in another relationship with someone else. He always comes to talk to me, and I don't find it awkward at all, but I'm not sure if I should be... And then this morning, this other guy flirted with me for a whole hour, and I let him, not trying to ruin his fun. My friend pointed it out, and I told her I knew. That's when I started wondering if the guy I liked liked me back. He always talks to me, brings it up, and even steals my Ipod to mess with it. Does he like me? Or is it just something guys do?