Dear_______,
You left us in the most horrible way. You suffered and stayed strong through it all. Whenever you wanted to give up, your family was right beside you. We guided you through the tough times and helped you through it all. We gave you all of the support that we could and you gave us all your love. When poeple were upset about your condition, you told them it would be okay and that it was part of God's plan for you. You said it would all work out.
I tried my best to stay strong in front of you, but sometimes, I just couldn't take it. Seeing you suffer and hurt like you did, broke my heart.
When you died, I was devistated. The previous nine months, I had felt like I was closer to you than ever. When I was with you, I felt like nothing could hurt me and I was safe from all things. But when you died, I was exposed to something I had never expirienced before, losing someone who you loved with all your heart. The next four months were terrible. It wa the start of school and I couldn't concentrate and I was isolating myself from all my friends. I would eat lunch alone, sit in the grass at recess and watch everyone else play, and I would keep my feelings to myself. No one seemed to care about how I felt except for my cousin. He was the same way and he knew exactly what I was going through. We were the only two of his grandchildren that were mourning over his death for more than a week. When we had family get-togethers, we would sit together and talk about how much we loved him.
Finally, my grandmother realized that I wasn't myself. She talked me through it and made me feel a lot better.
After seeing my grandfather go through this, I'm noot afraid of dying anymore. I see how you can go in peacful ways. Although he was suffering and he wished he didn't die, he was ready to go and happy that his suffering was over.