-sigh<3-
Well right now it's 2:22 A.M. What better time to post? xD.
All day me and HD had been talking about hanging out. He was constantly talking about how much he wanted to hug me and kiss me and cuddle and just be with me, but planning it all out wasn't the easiest thing. I ended up not hanging out with during the day, but my other friend instead. Now, at 9:30 P.M he texted me and said we should hang out. I told him I couldn't. At about 10:00 I came up with a crazy idea:
I'll sneak out.
Now at first, I thought it was a good plan. But if my mom were to find out, she'd kill me. Especially if she knew I was out during the night with a guy a grade higher than me. She even knows that we've got a sort of "thing" for each other and that we really like each other and we're always flirting. So I decided that it was a crazy plan and I'd be grounded for life if I got caught which, since I'd never done this before, I probably would. Well, he replied and said that I should because he was with his friend for the night and he really wanted to see me. Turns out, this friend was my across-the-street neighbour.
Okay, less crazy.
Still, I didn't want to. But I really wanted to see him. So what do I do? I go and freshen up, put on a sweater and a hat, make some hot chocolate for us, and tell him that I'll come over. To clear this up, it was about 11:30 P.M (at night! xD, just clarifying) and I was going to leave my house to walk across the street to hangout with two guys, one of which is very attracted to me both physically and emotionally.
And what do I do? I go.
I sneak out of my house at 11:30, walk across the street, meet up on the porch, and go into his friend's house. We were all cuddled up on the couch, me leaning against him with his arms around my stomach, and I was playing games on my phone. I couldn't get past this level so he puts his hands over mine, tries to beat the level, and gets mad when he fails xD. After that we were all snuggled up laying down, me in front of him and him holding me. I rolled over so that I was on my back, him on his side facing me. He told me to turn towards him, and I did just slightly, and he kissed me very gently on the cheek. I didn't really want to turn completely towards him because I knew that he wanted to makeout and I have no experience in that category. A few minutes later he put one of his hands on my cheek and he turned my head so that I was face-to-face with him.
A five-minute makeout session later...
His friend told us to get a room xD. I said, "Well, technically we are in a room". And HD agreed and said that it was all the more reason for him to kiss me again.
Another five-minute makeout session later...
I must not be a bad kisser - he definitely isn't *mindblown* ^3^ - because he was pretty eager to kiss me and whenever I sort of rejected him playfully he seemed genuinely sad. At 1:00 A.M, I figured I should go home because my phone was dying so my sister couldn't text me if I needed to run home and I didn't want to get caught. He just literally jumped right up and insisted he'd walk me home even though I was only crossing the street. He made me go all the way around through the backalley so that we'd have more time together, which I certainly didn't object to. We stopped at least three times because apparently he hadn't had enough kissing back there, and right outside my house was the last time. When he pulled away he smiled and whispered, "You should probably go". I said yeah but went back into the kiss, and then when I pulled away he hugged me, kissed me one last time, said "I love you, babe" and then we went our seperate ways.
-walks the rest of the way home with a huge insane grin, glad that nobody is around to notice-
I don't really know what we're classified as. We certainly aren't just friends, but we aren't dating. He joked and said that we're friends with benefits, but didn't really give me an actual answer. I dunno... We act like we're dating. It's kind of like we are, but nobody knows and we don't refer to each other as our boyfriend/girlfriend.
Mostly I was just totally melted by the fact that he was so gentle and sweet with everything <3 All cuddly and hugging and holding me. Most guys would just go for a two-second kiss and that's it. But he was so nice and just, like I said, gentle with it. If I seemed reluctant or if I seemed to withdraw from him, he'd just kiss me ever so softly on the cheek or the nose or something and wouldn't persist. It was just... Heart-melting<3<3
Best night ever<3
So worth the risk.