Dear life&everyone else,
In my head, I`m saying to not post this here, but uhm. I haven`t been myself at all, lately.. I`ve been going through a bunch of drama.. My boyfriend broke up with me & It`s hard to recuperate that he`s no longer there. In fact, I started to getting bullied in school now, from all his friends, from this type of drama.. And knowing me, I am VERY sensitive for my age. I cry myself to sleep every night knowing you`re still out there, single, and you`re the most sweetest guy to where, you actually can get taken in a gif.. It hurts knowing that myself, but you have no clue, it does. I know you have a lot on your mind, you`re angry, sad, hurt, & etc; but that does not give you the right to make me suffer along with you. You are ALMOST "1*", and the way you`re changing toward me, is so not what I expected or wanted. :{.. I admit, I was the most horrible girlfriend you could ever asked for.. You didn`t see cause you were still blinded by love from me. I gave you the wrong impression & now as I continue to live & still realize you`re out there.. I keep in mind; "I wish I never met you, so that I can go to sleep at night.. Knowing that there was no one like you, out there." --It`s my quote, and always will be, my quote. My ego shines brighter than you think it does. I may be a little girl, who still in high school, but I can tell you this. I bounce, right back, like ALWAYS. I don`t let one guy, one break-up, nor one fight, hold me down & make me mope around to let everyone think I want attention. I can sometimes be that person, but I will never be like that, when I know there are tons of other guys out there, besides just you. <|3. I admit, I love you so much, still. & I do miss you a lot.. But if this means getting back with you, so you can just mess with my heart & get my hopes up, constantly.. Then leave me the next day? I think not. Remember, this.. I love you. But I am NOT your barbie doll. (:
Love,
Amber <3