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I'm crossing over. I'm changing, and I'm not so sure that it's a good thing.

I used to be such a perfect child. Every parent's dream. I worked as hard as I possibly could on every subject. Math and science were by far my favorites. I had an obsession with marine biology (hence my username) and spent most of my time either reading or playing with my little sister. I had a pretty good circle of friends, and liked 'normal' things to like for that time. Of course, a lot of the time I was fake. I basically spent my time trying to please other people to the best of my extent.

However, soon I moved. It takes me a really long time to make friends, and it was by a huge stroke of luck that I found people at my old school to make friends with. At my new school, I was and still am considered a sort of loner (well, now I have one-ish friend). I had nobody to talk to, so I did more of what I was good at- which was basically just reading when I wasn't at school. Eventually I ran out of good books to read, so I started playing computer games. After a while I somehow got to a forum, and through somebody's pet I got to Chicken Smoothie.

I dunno... I guess Chicken Smoothie seemed like another game at first, so I got hooked. (Just look at the disproportionate ratio of Forum Games post to others in my early posts). After a while, I got caught up in roleplays, and realized that Chicken Smoothie isn't a game; it's a community full of actual people. I got more hooked. Somewhere in there I discovered the oh-so-powerful Oekaki. After seeing some people's amazing drawings, I decided to myself that I could do stuff like that if I worked hard enough. So... I started to try. I spent time in class not listening to the teachers, but doodling on homework. My favorite subject changed from science to art. I spent, and am still spending, an unhealthy time on the Oekaki and on CS in general. Famous scientists are not longer my idols, artists are. I don't know why it made such as drastic change in me, but art is all I think about anymore. My poor books are kind of rotting in the corner. My parents are noticing, and are getting worried about me and their perfect vision of a child.

I don't know what to do. I don't just want to abandon my account here. Chicken Smoothie is like a lifeline to me. It seems like I can either choose the 'fun' route or the 'practical' one. Right now I'm heading towards the first, and I'm not sure it's a good thing.

(Sorry for massive ranting on about stuff. I realize my problems are tiny compared to those of you who actually do have bad things going on in their life. I'm just in a really, really low mood right now and have been holding this all back for quite a while now.)

[seep5]

We all have hard times I know I have. Just try to look at the bright side.
I love your drawing its neat and artistic.

[val velocity]

ChickenSmoothie actually changed me in a good way,it made me realize that life was actually good.
;u;
I promise you,I was going through the things your going through,now I feel like i'm going backwards because now when I draw I just.. ;_;]
Well anyways,you'll be alright ;u;

[cindy4213]

Your story is like mine. I used to be a hardworking kid, smart those stuff. Now I spend the majority of my time on Chicken smoothie. It's not really affecting my marks but I feel different and more carefree. Hope you also start to feel that way.

[calippygian]

i can totally relate to this. so. much
i love the art. the 'rant' was even more beautiful
science was my favorite subject. my parents wanted me to be an entomologist (still do but meh) but then i got hooked to chickensmoothie and my whole life changed too. i now draw like... three canvases a day and my parents are worried about me and my grades slipping. now i want to be a graphic designer. if that doesnt work out, then ill be an entomologist

[.elkie]

This is really true... Almost like me... But I'm trying to go the other way, from being imperfect to perfect. It's not working out. <:/

[teleport]

Woah. I came on here, and there's all these nice comments. <3 Thanks for liking my art, and dealing with my ranting.

[Guest]

I love your drawing! Very artistic! Do you use tablet or mouse?

[teleport]

I use a tablet, although I'm not very good with it.