To my friends,
Its funny, you call me your friend at school, but then on facebook you call me someone you use to know. On the rare occaions I do get on facebook, I see what people as said. Its not like I can't. Its online and public.
Any one can see it.
I don't care what people think of me, or how they think I look. None of that matters to me. I just want to know why you guys can't just tell me that. Instead you post on facebook about it, behind my back.
Though, I guess it really doesn't matter to you any way.
The way you talk about Drew, I get the hint okay. Yes Drew was emo, yes I am, too. I don't understand why you keep doing this. If you don't want to be seen with an 'emo kid' then don't hang around me.
I honestly don't care.
So just tell me you don't want to hang around me, thats fine. I get it. You guys care about your appearances, I don't. So by all means if you guys don't want to be seen with me, then don't be seen with me.
Another thing I find funny. You guys say you know me, but really you only know the painting on the walls I have put up. The amazing, happy painting of bright colors and simple designs. That is what you see, that is all you know. None of you can see the real me. You can't see the dark lonely space inside.
You don't know what its like when no one understands you. When you feel like you don't have a place in the world, or like some how you just don't belong.
You can't see the tears behind the smiles.
You don't know what its like when you feel pushed around, and want to be some one else. Or being stuck inside a world you hate, and your sick of every one around.
You might think I'm happy, but I'm not.
Keep thinking you know me
and see how far away you are from the truth in the end,
Aaron