Fallen Utopia - ((Open and Accepting))

[dandelion love]

► Carter LeAnn Young | Sixteen | Mood: Worried | Crush: Jenson | Finished Changing ◄

Carter watched as he pat the bed. She shook her head, "I will met up with you later." She said softly. She walked out her door and to the elevator. Once she reached the lobby, she walked out of the dorms. She wasn't going to eat because she wasn't in the mood. She walked past the small towns and villages. She found the cemetery. She found her family's graves in a small line. She sat down in front of her mother's. She knew their bodies where never found, but she had to just get things out. So she would sit down and talk to her mother's grave. Hoping somewhere in heaven, she could hear them.

"Hey mom. I miss you." She smiled for a moment and let it go. "I lost my journal last night. You know, the one that I wrote everything down in and kept it under my pillow? Yeah, that one. I guess I should have kept it in a better spot. I know it's my fault, and I should have done something about it a head of time, but I didn't." She sighed, "It's just my whole life has been put into that journal and I am afraid if someone reads it." She looked down at the ground for a second, "So I met this guy yesterday. His name is Jay. He's really sweet, you and dad would have liked him. We went swimming and we, um, kissed. It honestly gave me butterflies. The thing is I don't think I should be feeling happy while the rest of my family is dead. It just doesn't feel fair to you guys."

[babybuggy]

Anthony - my eyelids flutter open slowly and the sunlight temporarily blinds me. I realize that I fell asleep in my chair. My drawing of Aslyn is sitting on the desk and Aslyn is sleeping peacefully on my bed. I smile to myself and sit there, watching her sleep and starting a new drawin of her.

Azlyn slept, breathing softly. Her hair fell over her face, tickling her nose. She sneezed lightly in her sleep, but didn't wake up.

[Toma.]

Lacie popped her head out of her dorm door. She glanced right, then left. Seeing no one, she stepped out and shut her door behind her. She walked slowly through the wide hallway. Her thoughts flashed back to her horrible past. Her parents dieing, fighting to find food to feed her youngest brother, and the day he died. A small tear escaped from her eye, only to be quickly wiped away. She hadn't eaten breakfast, but didn't want any. She slowly made her way toward the gym.

[BookAuthor]

Sarah - Daniel and I walk into our dorm room and I head towards the gym. I see an unfamiliar face (maybe lacie??? if she lives in a room 101-200)

Anthony - She looks a lot softer in this one, more gentle, more beautiful even. I make sure not to leave out a single detail. I want so badly to lay next to her and to wrap my arms around her. But i can't. I continue to draw her and I eventually finish my new drawing. I touch up my old one and then I wait for Aslyn to wake up.

Jansen - I sigh as CArter leaves, but I understand. I quickly take a few photo's of her diary's pages and then return her journal to her room, hiding it in a place that looks untouched by her search. I feel really guilty because of what I did and how Carter reacted. I didn't know it meant that much to her. I hold my head in my hands, ashamed.
Why did I always end up doing something wrong? I always ending up hurting people I love and care about. I never mean to but i always do. I hate that about me. Why can't I make people happy? Why can't I do that instead of hurt them and make them hate me, whether it's directly or indirectly... I just wish I could be something else, someone else sometimes...

[babybuggy]

Azlyn started to cry softly in her sleep, having a nightmare of watching her parents die. "No!" she screamed, bolting upright in the bed. Her vision was slightly blurred by the tears. She blinked them away and her eyes landed on Anthony. She pulled her knees up to her chest and cried softly.

[dandelion love]

{ C a r t e r
Carter sighed, "I really wished you where here mom. I miss you a lot. It doesn't seem fair that all your lives were taken because of the Powers." She had tears in her eyes, "I need you here with me. With Lucas and dad. It doesn't feel the same waking up with out my family. It's like an empty void in my heart that will never be filled without my family here on Earth with me." She said softly to the headstone.

[BookAuthor]

Anthony - I rush to Aslyn's side and wrap my arms around her, holding her tightly. "Shhh, Ash, shhh..." I murmur into her ear as I hold her close to me, our bodies touching.

Jansen - I probably have blew it with Carter. She probably hates me. She probably never wants to see me again, she won't want me to kiss her or touch her the way I did again. I ruined everything between us probably. I wish I hadn't. I wish Carter still had positive feelings for me, like I do still have for her. I get out o her room and close the door behind me so only she and I can get back in. I then walk back into my room. I look out he window and grab a canvas that is in my closet. I also grab my paints and paint the soon and it's reflection on water even though it is only the morning. I make the colors muted and sad to reflect how I feel and the moon even seems to be darker and eerier than usual.

[dandelion love]

{ C a r t e r
Carter wiped her tears away with the outside of her finger. "I have to go for now mom." She said softly and stood up. She wiped the dirt of her gently and walked back slowly to the dorms. She ran her hand through her hair quickly, to keep it nice. She then walked inside and went to the elevator. She leaned back as it brought her up. She then walked out of the doors and went to Jay's door. She thought she would apologize for this morning.

[BookAuthor]

Jansen - I sit and continue to paint my sad picture. I can't stop thinking of how it felt to hold Carter in my arms last night, how great I felt when I kissed her, the rush I felt whenever we touched...

[dandelion love]

{ C a r t e r
Carter knocked on his door softly, "Jay?" She asked with her soft natured voice. She really wanted to say sorry for this morning. She had been a total wreck with her family and her journal. She hoped he knew it had nothing to do with him what so ever. She just has had a few rough months recently, but Jay made things better when he came along.