Outlawed 2

[Mentally__Unstable]

"Here let me see your face." Saya said and pulled him to lean down to where she could bandage his face. "There that will keep you from bleeding."

[VanWen]

Arowin cradled her broken wrist in her one hand and walked through the door into the courtyard with Ace. She then took him to his stall which opened onto a small pasture and fed him wincing as the pain grew. "Your my good boy." she whispered and gave him a kiss on the nose. It was growing dark again and Arowin knew that Chris was exspecting her soon. She closed her eyes wanting desperately to go by knowing she couldnt let him see her like this. She hurried into her room and examined her wounds on her kneck. The front ones weren't too bad, she would live but would have a thin red mark across her neck and down to her shoulder. She the. Made sure the door was locked and turned and angled the mirror so that she could see the makes at the back of her kneck. She grew angry the moment she saw the spirals, Sam's mark. She cursed finding that they where deeper and would leave huge scars across the back of her kneck that everyone would see. She felt stupid and worthless as she sat on her bed. She wanted nothing more than to be with Chris now, the one person that could make her feel alright now but with a broken wrist and a cut up neck she knew that she would not go to see him as promised.

[intriguing]

Matthew felt ashamed of himself, more than he ever had done in his life. he'd let them all fight, he'd let them all get injured and he hadn't moved, he had just stayed stock still. It wasn't as if he didn't want to help, it wasn't that at all. He just couldn't, his body wouldn't let his mind take charge, something in him had snapped like a twig. Call it realization, call it guilt, call it whatever you will, but he'd turned and fled once the battle was almost over. He was meant to be an outlaw, living by his own rules and he was also meant tot be searching for his brother. He wasn't meant to be tagging along with The Hood like some little lost puppy. he felt like he'd abandoned his brother, even if he was dead the guilt of not finding him was unbareable, yet he also now felt ashamed he'd left The Hood. Slowly he trotted through the trees until he could bare it no more. He cried, not only from confusion but from pain, anger, guilt and shame. He had never once cried in his life, not even when he was a new born babe. he bottled it all up and kept it to himself. Even now he felt so weak he didn't want to show anyone his crying. He wiped his own tears away, feeling so weak and helppless. he was an outlaw, an outlaw, not some silly little boy.

[~Thor's Gurl<3~]

As Emerald rode through the forest she remember Matthew. She looked around and opened her mouth to call his name. "Ca-" With wide eyes, she clamped her mouth shut and took in a deep breath. What on earth had she been doing? She mentally kicked herself and tried again. "Matt?" she called out, hoping to find him, but part of her wanted him to stay away. He was just another reminder of something from the past, something she had gotten over years ago. Or she thought she had anyway, until Matt came along. Yet she felt responsible for him, like he was a child she had to care for. Like he was part of the Hood and needed to be kept track of, even though he wasn't.

[intriguing]

Matt heard his name being called in the distance, he didn't know if he wanted to reply. He was ashamed of himself and he wanted to run, to run far far away, whether it it be on horseback or of his own feet, he just wanted to get away, possibly to die, or suicide. The more he though of it the more tempting the idea became. Yet he was bound to the task of finding 'Percy' he was beginning to doubt his chances and beginning to wonder more and more whether he should drink from the small bottle of poisin he kept with him at all times. He'd already prepared a suicide note, in case someone should find his body. No, he would not do that, instead, after much contemplation, he answered the call, "Emerald, is that you?" he asked, his voice sounding les throaty than usual and more weak and timid, much like his deceased brother's.

((I love playing Casper's brother, I can pack in lots of irony c: ))

[~Thor's Gurl<3~]

Emerald looked off to her right when she heard Matt. "Yes, it's me!" she called back, relieved that she hadn't had to leave The Hood to find him. She slowed Envy from his bouncy trot to a slow walk so Matt could catch up to them.

[intriguing]

Matthew trotted up through the trees, following Emerald's voice. He dodged and weaved in between trunks and gaps until he came to where she stood. He gave a causal salute in greeting as he often did, "Sorry 'bout earlier," he said, ashamed and embarassed still, he could barely admit his weakness to her.

[~Thor's Gurl<3~]

Emerald shrugged. "It's fine. Sam's a dangerous one, best to not encounter him." she said with a understanding smile. As she looked over him she thought she saw faint streaks on his face but ignored it. Whatever he had been doing was his buissness, not hers. "You gonna come back with us?" she asked. "You should, we got food and a roof there." she said with a joking smirk.

[intriguing]

"I guess I really ought to be finding my brother, butif you lot wouldn't mind, I'd be grateful if I could stay," said Matt with a grateful smile.

[~Thor's Gurl<3~]

Emerald smiled. "Good, we'd be glad to have you." she said, nudging Envy into a walk again, knowing Matt would follow. She looked down at him. "So, how much do you know about your brother?" she asked curiously.